C128 Am I Stupid

I kept shaking my head, trying to deny the conclusion.

No, that's not right, no matter what it is, your kindness towards me makes me feel more and more happy. When I was with you, I also felt faster than I've ever felt before, so I don't know when it started, but I started to become strong and weak, slow and sensitive.

"How could it be? How could it disappear?" O'Jarry tightened his grip on my arm.

"Why not, you gave me these, and at the same time gave someone else these, I am not the first, and I might not be the last. At the beginning, I was very afraid that I would depend on you, so I kept on telling myself that we are after all people from two different worlds, but in the end, I just realized …" I paused, unsure of what to say.

"What did you find out after that?" I kept asking.

Later on, I realized that there are a lot of things that you can't escape from, many feelings, just like how the more I want to make myself not pay attention to you and the people around you, the more they will take root in my mind. Ou Jia Rui, I'm very stupid.

"Then did you block it?" Ochjaru wouldn't stop until he heard a definite answer from my mouth.

"No, I didn't, I was clearly like this a long time ago, but only recently did I have the courage to face it, I dare to admit that I have a good impression of you, I like you, I will get jealous because of you, I will get angry because of you, I will also get warm because of your happiness, you have affected my emotions …"

The words later on, Ou Jia Rui didn't listen to me anymore. She directly used a hug to replace everything I said. Just as I distanced myself a little bit, I was pulled even tighter by Ou Jia Rui.

There was a rare tinge of excitement in his voice as he said, "Yao Yao, I'm very happy. I'm very happy to hear this. I'm very happy that the person beside me has the same thoughts as me. Let's work together and make the two of us more suitable, okay?"

It was a very pleasant love story, but I was abnormally clear-headed at the moment. The biggest side effect that Lin Qian had left for me was that after him, I didn't dare to believe in the promise that he had made. Every time I faced the warm and charming atmosphere, my heart would become more guarded, and I wouldn't dare to rashly listen to those pleasant words.

I pulled away from her a little, trying to keep myself awake.

Although my heart was obviously weak and soft, I insisted on using my tough and cold eyes to look at Ou Jia Rui. "A long time ago, it actually wasn't that long ago either. The period of time I spent in the hospital with Mrs. Ou was probably the lowest point in my life. Even if I look back at it now, I'm still afraid because of the pain back then."

"Well, I know, I'm sorry I didn't protect you and the baby." Because of that incident, Ou Jia Rui was also fully prepared.

When I broke up with Lin Qian, I was very sad, but actually I was not as sad as I was at that time. The baby was almost the only thing I had left in my life, and was also my last relative in this cold world, but he had left, and during that time, I could never find you.

Ou Jia Rui's expression changed. She seemed to be struggling, but also regretting, "I, I was worried about the company's matters during that period of time, and I always felt that when you saw me, you would remember what happened in our family. I was afraid that my existence would aggravate your pain."

I went on aggressively, "Is that really all?"

"No, not only that, there were actually other reasons as well. I never mentioned it, and you saw my mother as well. Although I would definitely not accept her meddling in my emotions, objectively speaking, it was indeed difficult for her to accept you as my wife at that time." In truth, what Ou Jia Rui said was the truth.

I sighed. "Actually, I really needed someone to be with me at the time, and every time you left, I started to look forward to the next time you would come, because it was really hard for me to face that kind of silence and loneliness alone."

"Sorry, that period of absence was my dereliction of duty as a husband, but it won't happen again. In the future, can I accompany you at every moment when you need me or don't need me?" Ou Jia Rui's eyes were even a little red.

I waved my hand. "No, don't interrupt me so quickly, so when you left, my nurse told me that she saw that you hadn't left the hospital yet, so I followed you out to see if I could catch up with you. As a result, I went to Mrs. Ou's room.

But actually, to a mother, there is no one who can understand themselves better than their own child. He is very afraid that Madame Ou might have said something too excessive to me, and what makes him even more nervous is that I actually hid this matter from him for so long, and actually became a knot in his heart for such a long time.

She told me that you married me because I still have a child in my belly. Even if you abandoned me, you would wait until the child was born.

Ou Jia Rui opened her mouth to say something, but ultimately chose to stay silent.

"Because the child was Lin Qian, I didn't believe her words, but what she said next convinced me deeply. She told me that you and Meng Shuzhen had an unforgettable relationship back then, so after we separated, you adopted her. You chose me, who has a similar life experience as her, as your wife, to be your wife."

At this point, sadness made my voice low and sorrowful, and every time I thought about it, my heart would throb involuntarily.

After taking a deep breath, I continued, "She said that all these years, she had seen many similar girls treated you very well, but her shelf life was very short. Since everyone was very similar to her, but it wasn't her, she advised me to go on with my own good life and not willingly become a substitute for you."

I have never thought of you as a substitute. I don't know why my mother has to say this, except for that Meng Shuzhen from all those years ago, I have only been serious to you, and have pestered many female star models, but I have never given them any sort of substantive response.

Afraid that I wouldn't believe it, Ou Jia Rui added, "If you don't believe it, you can ask Xuan Zi, ask any of the company's old employees that have worked for a long time. You are the Ou family's only public CEO wife.

"Then is it because I have more similarities with Meng Shu, that's why my shelf life is longer than others?" I still stubbornly believe what Madame Ou said, but I wasn't willing to listen to any of what she said. Humans are really strange animals, even though the people beside you have been with you for so many days and nights, you are more willing to believe the words of someone who hates you.

Zhou Xinyao, my mother hates you so much. You stole her most beloved son, and even caused such an intense conflict between her and her son at her birthday banquet. Why do you think she told you the truth?

"Because, perhaps because she saw how pitiful it is that I lost my child?" I guess.

Don't you think that her ultimate goal is to get you to leave my side? No matter what the method is, as long as you leave her side, her goal will be achieved. So, she said this to make you leave by yourself. Ou Jia Rui vowed.

I have thought of many possibilities, but I didn't think that Madame Ou would try to trick me into leaving.

I lowered my head and remained silent, still silently analyzing the words of this mother and son.

While I was struggling with myself, Ou Jia Rui's phone suddenly rang. The screen displayed an unfamiliar number that was directly hung up by Ou Jia Rui. He had been smiling the entire time and looked at me.

The owner of the number called a second time. I cleared my throat and said, "About that, you should just answer the phone first. What if someone from the company wants to see you about something important?"

A lot of times I wonder, if it hadn't been for this phone call, if I and Ojairi would have been able to go a lot more smoothly, and we would have made up our minds after each of us confessed, and then we would have had a very sweet relationship.

However, in this world, there had never been any 'if only'.

"Hello, may I ask who you are …" "Xiu Fu, you're here in City B.?" Ou Jia Rui glanced at me and then walked out of the living room to answer the call. Hearing this name that hadn't appeared in my life for a long time and the way Ou Jia Rui walked out made my heart feel much colder.

I laughed self-deprecatingly at myself. Earlier, Ou Jia Rui, who was just saying that she was serious towards me, instantly panicked when she heard Meng Shuzhen's call. I should be thanking Meng Shi for suddenly appearing at this crucial moment.

Thinking back to that time in the administration office, when Ou Jingyi framed me for copying Meng's painting, when Ou Jia Rui first saw that painting, she said that it looked like my manuscript. At that time, I didn't think too much about it, but now that I was so sensitive and suspicious, I even thought that he was intentionally protecting Meng's painting.

People always lose their reason and judgement in front of people they care about. At this moment, I deny everything that Ou Jia Rui said before.