C69 The Child Is Gone

Before I was pushed into the operation room, due to the blinding light above my head, I recovered a short moment of clarity. In front of me was the anxious and concerned face of Ou Jia Rui:

"Yao Yao, don't be afraid. I'll be right outside." Maybe it was because of the pain that I started to hallucinate. I kept having the feeling that Ou Jia Rui's eyes were a little red, but he was such a strong person. It was hard for me to imagine that it was because he cried.

The operation was so short that I felt like I was floating in the air. Even the pain was so far away from me. He could hear the faint sighs of the doctors and nurses, "Such a young and beautiful young lady, how did she end up in such a state? Her family members were too careless."

Family? I didn't have any family. Ever since my mother's death, my grandfather and uncle's family had been nothing more than a place for me to stay. Furthermore, when I was twenty years old, I had never received the slightest bit of family warmth from them.

It wasn't easy to meet a person who was willing to treat me well in this cold world. In the end, the reason I went back to lie on the operating table today was all thanks to his family. For the first time, I felt how helpless my life would be if the baby in my belly was gone.

Sleep and tiredness swept over me. I just felt so tired. I really wanted to sleep without a care in the world. Thinking this way, I decided to do just that.

When I was awakened in the morning by Ocari, I was in a trance. I thought I was in the best light in the most spacious room in the house.

"Yao Yao, Yao Yao, wake up." There was an obvious trace of pity in Ou Jia Rui's gentle voice.

I was in a hospital, and due to time constraints, I didn't have time to return to that high class private hospital in B City. O'Jia Rui took me to the hospital closest to my hometown.

The smell of life and death was too strong for me to breathe. "How long have I slept?"

The thirst in my lips reminded me that I must have been asleep for a long time.

"You've already slept for a day and a night. Are you hungry? Do you want to eat something?"

"Is that so? I'm a little thirsty, could you pour me a cup of water?" Ou Jia Rui poured another cup of warm water. She personally tested the temperature before helping me sit up from the bed. She took big gulps of water. Now that he was clear again, the events of the night before came back to him one by one.

Suddenly, my voice started to tremble. "Ojairi, let me ask you, how is my baby? Is he alright? I feel like he has become very obedient. I can't even feel that he is moving. Am I angry? How long will I stay in the hospital?"

After a moment, he poured another glass of water and said, "Is one glass enough? Do you want more? Look at your lips. "

I shook my head. "Tell me quickly, what happened to the baby?"

"Yaoyao, listen to me. You are still young, and there will be plenty of opportunities in the future. This is your first child, but it won't be your last." She took my shoulder and looked me in the eye, as if to make sure I wasn't listening.

I don't know why, but when I heard the news that the baby was gone, I didn't cry hysterically like I imagined, nor did I feel greatly stimulated by the loss of my soul. I only calmly nodded, feeling as if my heart had become empty.

I didn't resist, and I didn't respond. I just let him hold me in his arms, feeling the only warmth the world could give me.

Time seemed to stop. There was no sound around me except for the clock on the wall and the ticking of the second hand as it moved, reminding me of the passing of time.

After what seemed like a century had passed, O'Jia Rui still didn't show any signs of bringing her down. Even her arms were slowly tightening. My shoulders were aching from the pressure.

"Zhou Xinyao." Suddenly, in a muffled voice, Ocari called my name.

"Hmm?" I snorted a little, as a response to his call.

"You and me, really."

I didn't say anything. One of the reasons I stayed at Ou Family was to give birth safely and well, but the only reason I had to take care of myself was no longer there. I didn't know what was the meaning of my hard work anymore.

Ou Jia Rui saw that I didn't have any reaction, and said, "Why don't you cry? In my mind, although you are the kind of girl who looks strong and independent, you are actually very weak and need protection. I know, I know. There's no one else here right now, so you don't have to force yourself. "

"Hmm?" I am the same response.

"Cry it out, cry it out and your heart will feel better." I shook my head and pulled away from Ojira. It wasn't that I was holding on, but that I didn't want to cry in front of her.

At this moment, the nurse, who had been waiting outside for a long time, finally came in. She was no longer surprised by the sight of the sad couple who had lost their children.

"Miss Zhou, your body is still a little weak right now. You need to be careful of rest, and the wounds on your back and legs need to be changed. Let me deal with them." The nurse tried not to mention the child who had left the world before seeing it.

I nodded and leaned over to ask the nurse to change the medicine for me. "O'Jia Rui, I'm a little hungry."

Seeing that I was still willing to eat, Ou Jia Rui was naturally very happy. "Alright, change your medicine first. I'll go out and buy you something to eat." Before she left, she even instructed the nurse to move her hands a little more gently.

At first, I didn't feel it, but during the change of medicine, a heart-wrenching pain came from the wound on my back. The nurse chatted with me while she changed the medicine, trying to distract my attention: "Although your wound is just a superficial wound, but because the wound is quite large, you still have to be careful not to touch water."

I, who used to be so hot that my fingers would cry out in pain, stubbornly gritted my teeth and didn't make a sound. By the time the nurse had finished changing the medicine, my forehead was already covered in cold sweat.

"Mrs. Ou, this is the first time I've seen such a strong girl like you. Usually, girls who are injured for even a little bit have to shout out for a long time."

I smiled a little despondently. "Because even if I scream and shout, it won't change anything. All the suffering will still be endured by myself in the end."

"Mr. Ou treats you really well. I heard that Mr. Ou's mother got sick, too. When you went out to sleep, he went to the surgical ward to see her for ten minutes and then came to stay with you. It's been 24 hours and he hasn't eaten a single meal." Perhaps this handsome, rich and gentle and considerate man is the ideal type for all girls.

The nurse couldn't stop once she started praising O'Jia Rui.

After changing the medicine, I was the only one left in the ward. The numbed pain from a moment ago was instantly awakened by the loneliness. My heart suddenly began to ache violently.

I pulled myself up from the bed and walked over to the mirror. There was a mirror in the ward to help the nurse clean up. I looked at my flat, empty stomach.

Tears fell uncontrollably and my vision blurred. I stood at the window and looked out at the bustling crowd of people in the hospital, all coming and going for life and death. At least, other than me, everyone who lived here had become a concern in other people's hearts.

He wanted to go into the bathroom to reorganize his emotions and wash his crying face, but the water on his face kept on washing more and more.

I sat on the toilet in the hospital and buried my head in my lap, crying like a child abandoned by the world.

Outside the door, it seemed to me that O'Jia Rui had returned. I couldn't be bothered to pay any attention to her. I was immersed in my own sorrow and couldn't extricate myself from it.

Sure enough, there was a knock on the door outside the bathroom, "Yao Yao, I've bought food. Are you inside? Even if you're crying, why don't you come out?"

"Yao Yao, please open the door for me. Don't do anything stupid inside."

"Yao Yao, Yao Yao, are you listening?"

"… …"

The knocking on the door that lasted for a long time finally stopped. After a while, Ou Jia Rui brought the bathroom key from Hucheng City and opened the door.

"You scared me to death." "I'm sorry," she said to me as she bent to take me in her arms and put me on the bed.

I still didn't react. It seemed that I had cried for too long, what strength did I have? I couldn't make a sound from my throat, but my tears still flowed down my thin cheeks like beads from a broken string.

O'Jia Rui didn't try to persuade me. She just wiped my tears and patted my back.

The entire room was enveloped in a silent sadness.

Thinking about this child who has lived with me for four months, before he even had the chance to experience my love, he turned into a pool of blood. It's really hard to predict. A few days ago, Ou Jia Rui jokingly said that the child could call me "class" because his mother was a workaholic who loved working.

Although the child's father was Lin Qian, both Ou Jia Rui and I were filled with anticipation for his arrival. Regardless of how absurd his birth was, once he was alive in the world, he should be respected and loved.

But as a mother of a child, I personally understood the short life of an innocent child. At this moment, in addition to the grief in my heart, there was more regret.

After crying until my tears were about to dry, Ou Jia Rui finally got a basin of hot water. She carefully wiped my face and washed my hands, "Eat something. Although the child is no longer here, you have to take care of yourself."

He sat on the bed and allowed Ojira to feed him a spoonful of soup. It was obvious that he wasn't in a much better mood than I was.

If I were given another chance, I would still go and save Madame Ou. The thing that I regret the most is that I shouldn't easily trust Madame Ou to accept me for the sake of that small selfish desire of mine.