C17 Reality's Helplessness

I ran out of the house, and as I stood on the flat ground outside the door, I couldn't help but look up at the reddened sky and take a deep breath.

In the distance, rolling hills, clear terraces wound around the mountains, a dull orange glow in the last rays of the sunset.

During the mid-autumn season, the green in the terraced fields had turned yellow, and the wheat harvest had left more flustered ridges. The yellowing stalks of the corn, on the other hand, rendered the scene even more desolate.

My second uncle's house was just over the hill, and I was strolling along the steep path with a serious step. Although I am unable to oppose the marriage with Ding Bufan, but after careful consideration, Ding Bufan's family background is indeed not my ideal marriage.

When I was forced to drop out of school by my parents, I never gave up my beautiful dream of Yue Siyang. However, I secretly looked for Yue Siyang three days ago, and the answer I got was still an indefinite disappointment, because Yue Siyang couldn't explain to his parents whether or not he could accept a daughter-in-law like me, who is a rural household registration.

In our generation, the only way out for us is to go to university. However, there was absolutely no hope for the college entrance exam, as I had dropped out of school at home. As a girl, there was another possibility for her to become a dragon clan, which was to find a city hukou or an old family that ate commodities and grains. That way, she would have the opportunity to turn into a public family. And my first hope was to get on Yue Siyang's marriage and realize my dream. However, I am also clear that the public family who eat commodity food will not easily accept rural people. And since Yue Siyang's family is so well-off and he has such a beautiful appearance, there's no reason for him to marry a rural person like me. Not only will his parents not agree, perhaps he himself will not be able to pass the rural person stage.

When it was impossible for me to understand Yue Siyang, my attention naturally focused on Ding Bufan, and I also felt that he was especially suited to me, especially with his honest behavior and upright personality. I felt that being with him, I was actually so safe and steady, that I didn't have to worry about what I would say or feel awkward after saying the wrong things. In front of Yue Siyang, I would never be this calm, and she would never use honesty to face me, much less let me feel safe and at ease.

When I looked up, Second Uncle's courtyard was already right in front of my eyes. I would be able to see my cousin Xiao Ya once we walk down the slope. Of course, I also wanted to speak to Xiao Ya from the bottom of my heart.

There weren't many rural girls who could read and write, and my cousin Xiao Ya didn't even go to school for a day. When he was young, he could not do farm work, so he borrowed money and bought four goats. His cousin, who was supposed to go to school, became a shepherd boy. As the days went by, more and more goats were released, and she grew bigger and bigger. When she grew up, she not only had to raise sheep, but she also had to do farm work, and of course, she had to busy herself with household chores.

That's why, when I have something on my mind, I have to find her and tell her about it. Although I can't find a solution to the problem, if I tell her about it, then I have to listen to it. It seems like it is another way to solve the problem.

I knew Xiao Ya was engaged only three months ago, but the date of her marriage didn't seem to be fixed. To a child in the countryside, marriage was just a formality. There was no room for him to choose, nor was it an outcome that he could control.

Xiao Ya's wedding is even more difficult for me than my blind date. My cousin was already in his thirties because he was a little lame, but he could not find a wife. Last year, under the agreement of others, I chose to change the marriage for Xiao Ya. That is to say, Xiao Ya must marry the younger brother of my cousin's partner in order for her sister to marry my cousin. Even simple matchmaking was omitted from such a marriage exchange. It was just that the agreement between the parents did not exist whether they were willing or not.

Creak. I pushed open my cousin Xiao Ya's room.

Although it was said to be Xiao Ya's house, it wasn't. Second Uncle's house only had three ancient tiled rooms. Second Uncle and Second Aunt would naturally stay in the hall. The one on the west side was his cousin's wedding room. And his cousin Xiao Ya lived in the kitchen and the east house shared by her brother.

Ah! Xiao Ya, who was sitting on the brick bed, was shocked.

I smiled and immediately used my hand to push open the door, closing it behind me.

"Why did you suddenly come here? Don't tell me you have something to talk to me about?"

Xiao Ya asked in a low voice as she slowly put down the sole of her shoes.

It is already an indispensable habit for women to wear the soles of shoes in leisure times. Xiao Ya's soles at this time of the year must be cloth shoes for her family to survive the winter and wedding shoes for her in advance. Of course, there is a need to make a pair for each of her father-in-law and mother-in-law.

I didn't answer right away, but took off my shoes and climbed up onto the kang with great dexterity.

It was after autumn and the weather had been rainy, so it was obvious that there was a damp and cold feeling in the evening. It was much easier to whisper while climbing on the brick bed.

"Sis, let me tell you!" Today, I went on a blind date again. "

Laughing, I said it in a relaxed tone. Actually, I knew that if I didn't speak lightly, it would definitely cause Xiao Ya's worry. I didn't want to hear about her, but I wanted to know what she thought of the marriage, or what she was going to do to keep it from getting noisy. I was shocked to the core by my parents' argument, almost unerasable shadow. Although I knew that Xiao Ya was not married, she had a very unique insight into living life, as if she were a very experienced person.

"At this age, it's normal to be prejudiced at a blind date. There's nothing to be happy about."

Xiao Ya smiled faintly, a hint of worry on her face.

She had been exposed to the sun and wind since she was young. Not only was her skin dark, but she also had an extremely emaciating look. Her sudden appearance definitely did not match her actual age.

"Oh right, I heard you were drinking and getting engaged? Are you ready to get married? I'm not happy, I'm nervous. "

I lowered my voice and asked two very heavy questions. My first thought, however, was not to mention her marriage, but as I spoke I saw the sadness in her eyes and added one more question.

"Do you even need to ask! Everyone knows I'm getting married, and I'm going to marry a cripple, six years older than I am. I don't even have to be afraid of a man like that. "Could it be that the man whom you're dating with is either a cripple or a blind person?"

When Xiao Ya stopped talking, a bitter smile flashed at the corner of her mouth.