C29 Dad's Attitude in Life

Riding the brand-new bike Xiao Ya had borrowed for me, I followed my father through the rugged lanes of the road, my eyes darting across the fields. Those tall and dense corn stalks and hanging ears of millet swayed gently in the morning breeze, as if bowing and bowing to me, but also as if they were in the same mood as me, so good that they could not help it.

Not far ahead was the turn to the highway, and my father stopped as if he had something to say. The beam of the bicycle leaned close to his body, one hand holding the turning position of the bicycle arm, seemingly not in a hurry.

I pushed my bike faster and caught up with him.

"Dad, why aren't you leaving? Do you have something to say?"

I asked softly, feeling nervous. His father was a person who was not good at words. His mother had made him sound like a person who didn't know how to talk. In my mind, though, it wasn't that my father didn't want to talk, it was that my mother was so noisy that he couldn't speak and didn't know what to say. Thus, when he was at home, he spoke very little. However, this was not the case in the eyes of outsiders.

At this moment, his father's face was filled with melancholy, as if he was preoccupied with something. When he looked up, his eyes flashed with even more anxious eyes.

"We're almost at the Ding Family, I don't need to say anything else. I just hope that you will perform a little better and not always be like that. I feel that the Ding Family is not bad since we have come here for the marriage engagement ceremony. Actually, everyone within a few hundred miles should be in a similar situation. "

Dad's voice was low and grumbling. His sunken face seemed to have been tainted by an even more worried mood.

I knew in my heart that my father was only worried about me, and didn't really care about Ding Bufan. That's why he said such sincere words. Actually, I don't really dislike Ding Bufan's family. Also, because I have seen too many people and events, it made me think of many things. Of course, Ding Bufan's words and actions really made me feel that he was extraordinary.

"Father, I know what to do, and I understand father's thoughts. This time, I will definitely not be picky about anything, no matter what kind of family Ding Family is in, I will not oppose. As long as Mom and Dad are willing, I definitely don't have any objections. "

In order to reassure my father, I said the words in my heart in a very certain tone.

Actually, this kind of expression was my inner thoughts, and it was also the question that I had been thinking about for days. Although I don't believe in fate, but I know the so-called fate, and also know the helplessness of marriage. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't fight back against Yue Lao. Of course, I also realized that love and marriage are not the same thing.

Father's face continued to have an expression on it, his haggard state of mind seemed to have become more distinct. Although he didn't do much, from my point of view, it seemed that he had aged quite a bit.

"It's good that you understand my thoughts. As a parent, I will definitely not harm my daughter. Ding Family cannot be considered to be a solid condition, but Ding Bufan is indeed a person who is living a good life. The key thing in finding an elder needs to be the elder's family, not the current situation in the family. "

His low voice was filled with an even stronger pleading tone.

The moment a wave of worry surged through my mind, I felt an indescribable sense of disappointment. The condition of my family was directly related to the degree of bitterness I felt after marriage. However, I am absolutely unable to explain or express my true thoughts in front of my father. However, I firmly believe that my father's judgement is not wrong. The feeling Ding Bufan gives others is not only reliable, but also very obvious.

"Dad, I know what's on your mind. Actually, I really don't care about the family situation in front of Ding Family, and I have to rely on myself to lead my life. I won't be relying on how much my parents can keep."

I felt that expressing myself was a bit difficult, as I simply didn't understand what I was thinking. After all, my father and I rarely had a frank conversation, nor did we have any experience speaking from the heart. Therefore, it's not easy to express our thoughts at this moment.

Dad looked at me very seriously, as if he were thinking about a lot of things, but then he shook his head slightly, as if he was rejecting what he was thinking about.

"When you reach the Ding Family, try your best not to speak too much and not to ask too many questions. If you can think of important questions, your aunt and I will seriously ask them. We definitely won't leave out anything important."

"I know. I will not say one more word. I will listen to Father and Aunt."

"According to your aunt, Ding Family attaches great importance to this time's visit to the house. There might be many relatives and neighbors, so you have to behave a little better. Even if marriage fails, we must still leave behind a good reputation. We absolutely must not let others gossip about us. "

"Dad, why must we be so particular? Why should we care about others with our own affairs? No matter how good I am at it, others will still make up nonsense when they want to talk nonsense. We don't need to think about others."

I can't understand why my father would value the actions of others so much. Engaging on a blind date is related to a person's entire life. It's not like other people think about whether it's appropriate or not, or whether it's possible for them to live together forever.

As his father stared at him, a more worried and worried expression appeared on his brown face, as if he was too unhappy.

Suddenly, Dad turned around and angrily pushed his bike up the steep road. When the thin figure of his back entered my sight, an indescribable sadness quickly rushed through my entire body, making me feel an unbearable heartache.

In fact, father's life can be said to be difficult, young for brothers and sisters to eat and dress well, early out of school, shouldering the burden of the family. However, in the end, under his father's hard work, Third Uncle became a teacher and became a true official, while his father lived a life of poverty facing the loess.

Every time Mom and Dad quarreled, they would talk about the past, and Dad would just have to bear it in silence. In the past, I didn't understand what my father was doing, but now, I do feel the pressure of my father's decision.

"In this world, you can't only think about yourself. You have to think about others. More importantly, you have to make others think highly of you. Only by doing this can you live a better life."

Dad said in a deep voice, the big steps, the way he walked, reflected Dad's heart, and also let me feel the life attitude Dad wanted to have.

I silently followed closely behind my father. Although there were a lot of words that I wanted to say, the sight of my back made me swallow my words.

Because of my different opinions, my understanding was not the same, and my attitude was very different, but I also knew that some things that were said would not be understandable to my father.