C106 I... I am sorry

'I know why you won't let me hurt him,' Derek finally whispered, his voice heavy with the weight of his realization. 'Because you love him.'

His words struck a chord within him, and he felt a lump form in his throat. He couldn't deny the truth in his statement, but it was more complex than he could ever understand. My history with Paul was twisted and painful, filled with both love and torment