C5 First Back of Mouth

I know that my mother-in-law is worried about the child in her womb, but that endless nagging has stimulated my nerves.

I can only bear with it. The following days were relatively peaceful. Lu Tao got promoted and became more busy. He would come back late every day. I gradually adapted to this kind of life.

Actually, it's not bad. At least there's one person who has been accompanying me all this time and is willing to listen to my voice. I touch my stomach, I believe that I will definitely be able to hear it.

At this moment, I feel the power of motherly love, so for the sake of the child, can really do everything.

I checked it once every two months. It was not bad, but my index was a little low, and my mother-in-law got the prescription out of nowhere, filling the room with that weird smell. I could easily vomit, and even if I hid in my room, I couldn't stand it even if I covered my nose with a blanket.

"Mom, don't do it. I really can't drink anymore."

"How can that be? I have to drink it. Mom asked someone to buy it for you."

I looked at the darkness of that night, the despair I had never felt before, the saying that men had better have a car and a house and both parents die.

I held the bowl and couldn't drink anymore. I watched my mother-in-law go back to her room and quickly ran to the toilet before pouring everything into it. I pushed the bowl down and watched as the disgusting black color disappeared.

"Why did you pour it all over? In order to make this soup, you've spent the entire morning cooking it. It's time for you to make more seasonings as well as work on it."

"Mom, I really can't drink anymore. Don't force me."

"Who forced you to do this? You child, your mother worked so hard all day for your sake."

Grandma stood in the doorway, and I laughed in my heart, saying nice is for me, or for the child in my belly.

"I just won't drink."

I angrily put the bowl on the sink. It should have been that I wasn't able to keep it steady and fell to the ground with a crash. Just then, the door opened. Lu Tao came in from the outside and should have heard my grandma and I arguing.

Coincidentally, the bowl broke into pieces. Grandma immediately began to cry, turned around and ran into the house.

I stood there with a stupefied expression on my face. I just didn't want to drink that black stuff.

"Ma is already so old, why are you shouting at her!"

"Lu Tao, just shout after you figure it out. I didn't do it on purpose. I didn't hold the bowl down and let it fall. Do you think I'm willing?" The relationship between Lu Tao and I became very subtle. In front of my mother-in-law, Lu Tao acted very well, with almost no flaws. However, as long as we entered the world of both of us, he would immediately become indifferent.

Lu Tao threw his bag on the cabinet and entered the room. From inside, the wails of his mother-in-law could be heard. I slowly crouched down and slowly picked up the broken bowl.

Old people should respect me, but have you thought about my feelings? Why must you force the lifestyle from decades ago onto my body?

Annoyed, I slipped my hand and the sharp cut sliced through my finger. At that moment, blood flowed out.

Looking at the fresh red blood flowing out of the wound on my finger, at that moment, I actually didn't feel anything. It was as though I was a wooden block, stupidly watching the blood stain my finger red before dripping onto the ground drop by drop.

Three years, I gave my all. Marrying a man without money, I don't regret. This is my own choice. I just hate myself. Why didn't I see Lu Tao's face clearly before?

He had really changed!

Perhaps her mother was right. Wanting to understand someone was not an easy matter, especially for men. Why was it that most women would rather choose a man with a good family background than a phoenix man?

A worldly eye must think that a woman likes money and is vain, no, if it is also a failed marriage, marrying a rich man, the harm she suffers in the end is even less, because there are some factors, you don't give up all your feelings, but me!

I smiled wryly as I looked at the blood on the ground. At that moment, my body was curled up into a ball, and I felt like I could collapse at any moment.

"Lu Tao, Lu Tao, come here quickly."

It was unknown when Grandma came out from her room. It was likely because she was worried about me, or more accurately, because she was worried that the incident just now had an impact on the child in her womb. In this aspect, Granny was still very clear.

Grandma saw the blood all over the ground and was terrified. She shouted Lu Tao with all her might. My face was already pale. The moment Lu Tao appeared, my body fell backwards.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw Lu Tao sitting on the side of the bed, dozing off. I remember that in the first year of marriage, he accidentally injured his finger, and at that time, Lu Tao was extremely nervous. The first thing he did every day when he came back from work was to grab my hand, look at the wound on it, and say that he couldn't let his beloved wife be harmed even a little.

And now?

I don't know what Lu Tao looked like the moment I fainted. Perhaps I don't even want to know that some of his actions have deeply hurt me.

"Lu Tao."

I gently called out his name. Lu Tao woke up and looked at me. "Nian Hua, why are you so stupid?"

I smiled and said reluctantly, "If I wasn't foolish, I wouldn't have married you."

"Is there any meaning to saying all this!?" Lu Tao probably didn't expect me to say such a thing. At that moment, he hesitated and revealed an awkward smile.

"Lu Tao, tell me, do you still love me in your heart?"

"Enough, you women are like this. Whether you like it or not, you have to earn money to live. You cannot eat that thing as food." Lu Tao was obviously unwilling. I shook my head, "That's because you men don't understand. If a woman admires your money, she doesn't love you at all. If she loves you, she wouldn't care about these things."

Lu Tao coughed, "Mom already said it. She was in the wrong, so she shouldn't force you to drink that stuff all day. Don't do that again in the future, it's not good for anyone."

"Lu Tao, I don't want this child anymore."

"What did you say? No way."

His shout woke Grandma up. She quickly came over, looked at Lu Tao, then looked at me who was lying down with a weak face, "Child, you are already so young, why are you arguing?"

"Mom, don't worry about it. This is between us."

I looked at Lu Tao, Grandma looked at me, this should be the first time Lu Tao talked back to Grandma ever since we got married, he is very filial, because it's not easy for Grandma to take him alone to live, so no matter what Grandma asks, Lu Tao will agree.

"What's going on!"

Grandma stood there, looking at the wrinkled face, maybe one day I will become like this, chattering all day long, because life has no pursuit, all day long I want to surround the children, is this really good?

I can understand that, but he ignored my feelings. After all, the environment in which we grew up was completely different, and I was also a woman who needed space and respect. Perhaps there was no right or wrong, but from the very beginning, this marriage had already laid the groundwork for these contradictions.

I let out a long breath. "I can't stand this kind of life. I don't want this kid anymore."

"What!?"

After I finished speaking, Grandma's body swayed a few times. I heard Lu Tao shouting nonstop, 'I'm lying still, I should stand up, at least she's my mother-in-law.' However, at that moment, I was lying there numbly, looking at the white ceiling.

Or was it the lively and kind Su Nianhua from back then?

Lu Tao helped his mother-in-law to stand up, "Ah, young man, what's the matter? Tell mom, if Lu Tao doesn't treat you well, mom will definitely not forgive him. This child is not easy at all, and he has been pregnant for several months already.

I looked at Lu Tao. Lu Tao's face was gloomy, because from my performance just now, it was obvious that Lu Tao hated me. He must have thought that I was using this child to threaten him, including his mother and my mother-in-law.

"I want to be alone."

"Alright, alright. Get out, get out."

Nanny used her hand to push Lu Tao. As the door slowly closed, I was the only one left in the ward. It was very quiet. I enjoyed such days.

At that moment, I fell into a state of confusion that I had never experienced before, not because my mother-in-law's arrival made my nerves tense up, but Lu Tao. He changed, he no longer cared about me, maybe in his eyes, I was just a woman who could give birth to his children, or a tool to seek benefits.

If our marriage is irrevocable, is it really necessary to keep the child?