Persistence Chapter 10 - Nine

C10 Nine

Chapter Six: Thinking.

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It's been two days, two whole days and I had been thinking of my life, my situation.

I was still left wondering how someone took my place and was circumcised instead of me as I was told by little Mary and what was most amusing about this whole scenario is that I realized that little Mary always arrive just in time to save me though it was only being twice.

Lest I forget, though there's no way in hell I was going to forget the fact that today is my wedding day.

I was to be married to Mr. Aldron Jones though I don't want to.

I have no other choice.

I wish I had a choice.

I had been debating on Whether or not to run away for days now but I can't dare to because I have come to know the consequence of it.

But will I just seat her and watch my life being ruined.

About running away, I have no chance to as my Room door had been locked from outside, it's only opened whenever my mom comes in to bring me Food after which it's locked again.

It's like they knew I had been debating on running away or not.

I remembered Princesses Gabriella's words again.

<< Promise me, Malisa that you'll never give up on your dream? >>

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<< Goodbye, for now, Malisa, I hope that when we meet again you would have fulfilled your dreams. >>

These words kept ringing in my head.

I suddenly felt tired, tired of living tired of everything.

I knew that my dreams and hopes are the only ones keeping me going but what now?

Since I'll end up like the rest then what's the use of all these dreams then?

Why was I given these dreams when I might not end up fulfilling them anyways.

Why?

As I sobbed.

I could see my siblings Mocking gazes as me.

I could even hear their words.

<< Serves you right, bitch! >>

<< Didn't we tell you not to dream too big but you never listened, see your life now, you are going to be married off to an old man like the rest, Hahahaha >>

<< Didn't I tell you that a woman has no voice, you never believed right?, See what you gained from it. >>

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" Stop it! " I screamed thought there wasn't anyone with me in my room.

I have just remembered all their words, my brain was flashing.

I felt like I was going crazy.

Just then I remembered the Lyrics of Trampoline by SHAED, Zayn

I've been havin' dreams

Jumping on a trampoline

Flippin' in the air

I never land, just float there

As I'm looking up

Suddenly the sky erupts

Flames alight the trees

Spread to fallin' leaves

Now they're right upon me

Wait if I'm on fire

How am I so deep in love?

When I dream of dying

I never feel so loved.

[ You can listen to the complete song on YouTube just search for, Trampoline by SHAED, Zayn ]

To be honest, whenever I remember this song, I usually remember my dreams and how they are slowly slipping away from my hands.

In my mind, I knew that today will determine whether I am going to fulfill my dreams or not.

Despite all the darkness and dark thoughts, I can still see a ray of light at the end of a deep and dark tunnel.

I could also hear a very faint voice, it's almost a whisper.

It was telling me.

<< It's going to be fine, Malisa, just keep believing. >>

I know within Me that I am supposed to keep hoping and believing but till when?

Is it till I round the stone seven times with that old geezer or till when.

I have been hoping for years now and nothing happened, nothing changed.

Though I still can't deny that something did change.

At least me not getting circumcised is proof of that change, no?

But would I just keep hoping and doing nothing?

In Twelve hours the wedding ceremony will commence, what can I do in just 12 hours that I couldn't do in years? , What?

' I wish you were here with me at this time, Sis. ' I thought Sadly.

I wish I had someone to share my feelings and thoughts with.

I wish I had someone that will understand what I am feeling, I wish I had.

But no, I don't have.

I suddenly felt so alone, very alone in this world.

I wish I wasn't born in this part of the planet, I wish I was born somewhere else.

Have I ever wished that I was born a male child?

No, never.

Not even when I suffered from Painful Cramps I never wished that.

Why because I know that I was destined to be a female.

I am sure that if I was asked in the next life if I want to be a female then I'll still reply, ' Yes ' though I am not sure if there's the next life.

I sat on my Bed in deep thoughts.

I needed to find a solution, Quick.

I couldn't go through with the marriage, never!

I'll rather die than Get married to An old geezer.

I once promised Princess Gabriella and myself that I'll only get married to someone who I love and not the other way around.

I need to do something quickly as don't have much time.

A solution came in.

I have been debating on it for a long time no but I have decided.

I am going to Escape.

I am going to run away.

I don't know where I'll run to but I know one thing and that's the fact that I need to Escape.

How to?

I'll know soon.

This I am very sure of.

I know that this isn't the best solution but what can I do.

Do I have another choice?