C52 The difference between humans and wolves

I don't know if it's a sin. I think I'm cheating on Eros but it's my only way to not feel the pain he causes. But do I deserve to feel the pain just to correct what is said to be wrong? Eros is my mate, Luke is my second mate. Luke doesn't deserve to be hurt even if Moon goddess gave me to him. I also don't deserve to be hurt by my mate