C2079 Farewell to Sick 11
He did not love this world, he even wanted to die before meeting Su Yao.
If he didn't meet Su Yao that time, he would have died long ago.
If Su Yao really committed suicide, he really didn't know what he would do then.
And compared to a dead Su Yao, he preferred a live Su Yao who would scold him and care about him more.
So
