C9 The Future of Life

"This child's heart is very healthy. From the results of all the examinations, there shouldn't be any problems."

"But last week, his heart suddenly hurt so much that he fainted!"

Shu Haoran buttoned his shirt and sat on the bed in a daze. It had been a few days since the last time. Shu Jingyu finally took out half a day's time and brought him to the City First Hospital for an examination. The pain in his chest had already disappeared. He was in good health and there was no sign of heart disease. He knew this very well.

"Faint with pain?" Director Liu, who was over a hundred years old, looked at Shu Jingyu suspiciously. His eyes seemed to say that the rich were too nervous about their son, "Cough, that might be a neuralgia, since I can't find any problems here, why don't you take him to the neuroscience department or bring him here the next time he has a disease."

"…" Shu Jingyu frowned slightly in displeasure, but he couldn't say anything. He had seen the results of the inspection and it was within the normal range. He had indeed never seen Shu Haoran in pain before, so he said, "Alright, thank you."

Just like this, he wasted an entire morning and spent quite a bit of money. As a result, everything was normal. It was almost lunch time, and there were a lot of people in the elevator. Shu Haoran was small, so he was afraid that he would be squeezed in, so he held his hand and stepped aside to create a small space for him.

Shu Haoran was moved again. It was strange to say that in his memory, he had been doted on by his family for thirty years. However, this indescribable feeling of warmth was not in his memory, nor was it lost somewhere.

"Whew ~ I'm so bored." When they got out of the elevator, Shu Jingyu pulled at his clothes with disgust. Shu Haoran suddenly felt that this action was a little familiar, and he remembered Shu Yichen's action of pulling the corner of his shirt a little behind him.

Shu Yichen was like his father's son. Regardless of personality or ability, he was nothing like him.

"Father." Shu Haoran pursed his lips and held Shu Jingyu's hand. He raised his face with a bright smile and said, "Will you accompany me for lunch?"

"Mm …" "Ok, what do you want to eat?" Shu Jingyu hesitated slightly, looked at his watch, and then looked at the expectation on Shu Haoran's face. In the end, he agreed.

"Pizzas." Shu Haoran opened his mouth to reveal his white teeth. However, there was an unknown emotion that flashed across his eyes.

In the western dining room, father and son took a seat on the sofa in the corner and ordered a small pizza, a pasta, a steak and two pieces of mushroom soup. This kind of scene was very warm and peaceful. It was very suitable for Shu Haoran to say something to Shu Jingyu.

"How about this, next time it hurts, we'll go directly to Director Liu's side, do you understand?" Shu Jingyu cut a piece of the pizza that the waiter brought up and put it on the plate in front of Shu Haoran.

"Yes." Shu Haoran nodded, and picked up his knife and fork, while cutting the delicious Seafood Sovereign, he asked casually, "Do you miss dad?"

"Hmm? Why are you suddenly asking me this? " Shu Jingyu drank his lemonade and was stunned, "You miss your mom?"

"I dreamed of my mother last night." "Shu Haoran lied. Last night, he thought about Shu Yichen's matter until it was almost dawn before he fell asleep." She was diving, and she sent back a lot of beautiful pictures. "

"Haoran..." Shu Jingyu put down his glass, a hint of embarrassment in his eyes, and Shu Haoran knew that his father's feelings had already shifted to Bai Ping.

"Daddy, would you blame Mommy? Blame her for not taking the advice and insisting on going to the Great Yaru Zang Bu Canyon. " Shu Haoran continued to cut the pizza and tested his father with a soft and gentle voice.

"Well, I don't like her exploring." Shu Jingyu didn't stop this time and directly expressed his attitude.

Shu Haoran's mother likes to travel and explore mysterious and unknown places, take stunning pictures, write exquisite words, and pass them on to the world. She had a small reputation in the community, and had published a few books. She had lived a life of freedom and magic, but in contrast, she had spent very little time with her son and her husband. In the end, she died during an adventure and didn't come back. Although it was a sudden departure, it couldn't be that everyone wasn't mentally prepared. After all, everyone knew that there were too many dangers hidden in such a fresh and exciting life.

A beautiful and brave woman, a charming woman, a proud and refined woman. She was also not very reliable for him and his father. However, Shu Haoran remembered that his grandpa liked his mother. He liked her very much. That sort of rebellious personality that ignored the gossip from others was called a bright personality by the old man.

"Then Daddy …" Will you marry a new mother? Or is it like grandpa, who will only protect grandma all his life? " Shu Haoran felt that this question already had the meaning of "coercing the palace", so he slightly lowered his eyes to hide the complex light in the corner of his eyes.

"Haoran, you're still young. You don't understand a lot of things." Shu Jingyu sighed and rubbed his head, "Dad is different from grandpa. Dad married mom for the family's benefit. Speaking of which, your grandpa really likes your mom."

"…" Shu Haoran silently put a piece of pizza in his mouth to chew. Although his mother was vague in his impression, that blur was because his mother was too dazzling. In fact, he really liked his mother and felt proud of her.

"I know you're unhappy to say this, but you'll know in the future that many things are not as simple as it seems. Daddy also has his hardships and must do it. Hurry up and eat it, it won't taste good when it's cold." Shu Haoran, who was 10 years old, naturally didn't understand Shu Jingyu's earnest words, but at this moment, Shu Haoran completely understood it.

"Daddy, Mommy told me, the one she loves the most is me, and then it's you, hehe ~" Shu Haoran said indifferently, then pretended to be just talking casually as he picked up the mushroom soup and started eating.

"You little rascal, what are you daydreaming about? Hurry up and get your grades up!" Shu Jingyu tapped Shu Haoran's forehead, and just as he was about to arrive, the waiter brought a steak over. Shu Jingyu then concentrated on slicing the steak.

"Dad, I don't like Auntie Bai Ping." As Shu Haoran drank the soup, his sudden words made Shu Jingyu stop his chopping of the steak and raise his head to look at him. "I'm going to the bathroom. Dad is waiting for me."

Shu Haoran tried his best to adjust his breathing after covering up his embarrassment for a while. He threw a normal looking back to Shu Jingyu, then went into the washroom and locked the door. His heart ached again as beads of sweat seeped out. He tried his best to suppress them as he gasped for air. Fortunately, it was not as intense as before. He could still endure it.

He wanted to stop Bai Ping and Shu Yichen from coming to their home, but it didn't seem possible. In fact, after he tried to mention Shu Yichen to Qin Kai, he fearlessly tried to tell the old man again, but the result was still the same. He only started at about half the time and his heart was already in pain.

From the looks of it, he had been reborn, and he knew more than others. However, he could only experience it as though he was a spectator. However, if nothing could change, what was the point of him living again? Was this God's punishment for spending so much in his previous life?

The pain lasted for almost five minutes before it subsided. Shu Haoran walked out of the bathroom dejectedly and stood in front of the sink. He looked at his childish face in the mirror and the fatigue and sadness in his eyes. Despair grew in his heart. He was not a hardworking and hardworking person, so it was normal for him to give up now that he wanted to accept his fate.

"Haoran, eat." When he returned to his seat, Shu Jingyu had already cut up the steak and put it in front of him, "You eat while I tell you. Auntie Bai is a thoughtful and good woman. She is my father's right-hand woman at work and has helped my father a lot in life. I think she is also very good to you. I don't know why you don't like Auntie Bai, but there are some things children can't do without a reason. Your current focus should be on studying. "

"..." "Right." At first, Shu Haoran tried his best to hide the remaining pallor on his face, but he soon realized that Shu Jingyu had not noticed.

Afterwards, the father and son duo did not speak much, and the atmosphere was a little awkward. After dinner, Shu Jingyu sent Shu Haoran home to rest, and then went back to work. Shu Haoran stood on the balcony and watched his father's car drive away, then he stood there for a while and looked at the sunny sky, the flawless white clouds, the vague distant mountains, and the lush greenery downstairs … Then, he sighed softly.

In the end, he didn't dare to tell his father that Shu Yichen wanted to beat him up, as he didn't want to suffer so much.

"Sigh …" Sighing again, Shu Haoran dragged his feet and walked into his room.

Blue-and-white striped carpets, wave-and-water wall stickers, wooden rudders, ropes and lifebuoy decorations, custom-made sailboat beds, and matching wardrobe and desk, all in naval style. This room that was meticulously designed according to his preference was a masterpiece of his mother. He picked up the photo of the family of three on the bedside table and touched his mother's brilliant smile.

Looking at his short finger and thinking about Shu Yichen's hypocrisy and his experience, no one would think that there was no problem continuing like this at this moment. But, what could he do? He couldn't reveal it to anyone or stop it from happening. What should happen could only watch helplessly as it happened again. No one could help him, and he had no other choice but to stand by himself.

[Shu Haoran, you never thought that it was someone else's fault, and the problem is on you!]

He had never thought that he would remember what Ling Mu'an had said, what she had accused him of, what had annoyed him, what had kept coming in and out of his right ear. However, after his rebirth, those vague words had become extremely clear. At the right time, they had appeared, allowing him to compare them to see his cowardice. He was not allowed to easily give up.

It's not someone else's problem.

He was afraid of pain, afraid of pain, afraid of fatigue. However, he was more afraid of death. When he looked down, he saw his mother's smile again, and the fragments of time rushing before his eyes once more. The lively celebration of his birthday, the filthy van, the cold, sharp dagger, and the mutilated bodies … Laughing, stupefied, suffering, despairing, it was all him, that terrible and pathetic life … Do we have to do it again?

If he couldn't change the arrival of Bai Ping and Qin Kai, or the impending disaster, could he try to change himself? The first stage was no longer to play games, but to work hard to learn and enrich his own experience. The second stage was no longer to play with friends and friends, but to work hard at managing the company of Shu Family, becoming someone who could stand shoulder to shoulder with Shu Yichen …

Try it, Shu Haoran said to himself. Maybe it will work.

"Hey, grandpa, it's me." After putting down the photo, Shu Haoran drank some water and suppressed the depression in his heart as he grabbed the phone on the bedside table.

"Mm, I told you before, today is An An's birthday."

"I'll tell Aunt Zhao to cook more. I'll have to trouble grandpa to buy a cake for An An."

"Grandfather, I encountered a difficult problem … I want to try and sort it out myself. "

"Yes, I'll take a taxi there immediately. I have some preliminary ideas, but I'm not sure if they'll work."

As he spoke, his left chest began to ache. He couldn't avoid being beaten up even if he wanted to. Shu Haoran was slightly out of breath, his forehead was once again glistening, his white lips slightly curled up. Although it was not a blessing or a curse, it was still a curse, but in the face of the impending disaster, he didn't do anything but prepare his mind.

"Grandpa, I'll hang up first. See you later."

Today is a good day. Why don't we start today and try it out?