C4 I Want to Live a Different Life

"Big brother," Lih Chu tentatively called out to Zhao Beihuai. His eyes were glazed as he looked at Wakabayashi Rika on the ground. There was no reaction.

Lih Chu had read a book about autism and depression. There, children with autism and depression were compared to children on the stars. Zhao Beihuai was probably the "brother on the stars" to her.

Thinking like this, Lih Chu felt much better. Depression was not a terminal illness. She believed that the big brother on the stars would think of her one day and come back from the stars.

In her previous life, her brother had an accident in order to find her. As she thought of this, her eyes darkened. Her fingers gently stroked the bruises on her brother's hands. Her brother seemed to have not heard her. His eyes were focused and did not blink. There was not the slightest hint of surprise on his handsome face.

On the other hand, Lih Chu quietly blushed when she came to her senses. Such intimate actions had stopped doing it to her father and brothers ever since she had become a little more sensible.

The little girl matured early and had her own thoughts when she entered puberty. She avoided her brother intentionally or unintentionally. She remembered that her brother was still a little crazy back then and was at a loss about his sister's estrangement. She even thought that it was something that caused the little girl to be unhappy.

Lih Chu hurriedly withdrew her hand, but in her heart, she was savoring the little bit of warmth at the tip of her finger. After that, what enveloped her was a deep sense of guilt.

That was her brother.

Zhao Beihuai's eyes were as clear as a child's. Lih Chu looked at him and suddenly recalled her own state of mind back then.

Perhaps he had just been reborn. The person she had the deepest impression of in this world was Jun Yue.

After two lifetimes, Lih Chu had to admit that no matter whether she loved Jun Yue or not, she could not deny that this man was like a grand fireworks in her life that could not be ignored. Although she was extremely clear-headed from the beginning to the end, this fireworks were still enough to overshadow the other scenery of her life.

She had always wondered why she rarely went home to accompany her brother in her previous life. But just now, she suddenly understood.

Because she was afraid, afraid that she would not be able to abide by the ethics and morals of this world, afraid that she would hand over her true feelings. She was even more afraid that her brother would come back one day and discover her bad intentions.

Lih Chu faintly felt that she had paid a little price for this rebirth.

All the scenes in her previous life were like yesterday's experiences. They seemed to still be vivid in her mind, but her heart seemed to have been torn apart.

She seemed to have accepted the fact that her brother could only be her brother. She always knew that no matter how many times she was reborn, he would never give you what God did not want to give you.

He was already a person who had died once, so why did he ask so much?

Lih Chu put away all the emotions in her heart. She walked to her brother's side and gently said to him, "Brother, are you hungry? I'll go cook, okay?" Zhao Beihuai did not say a word as she expected. Lih Chu did not mind. She went to the kitchen to prepare the food.

Her brother liked to eat sweet and sour carp. Lih Chu bought fresh carp and used her memory from her previous life to make a dish that was full of color, fragrance, and taste.

She led her brother to the dining table and carefully picked up all the thorns in the fish and placed them in Zhao Beihuai's bowl. Luckily, her brother knew how to eat. She did not need to feed him.

Recalling the scene of her brother protecting her, Lih Chu suddenly understood something. Perhaps the most important thing for her brother's illness was not to take medicine. Perhaps if she accompanied her brother more, her brother would be influenced by her and come back from the stars.

In her previous life, Jun Yue invited so many famous doctors, but her brother's illness did not improve at all. Perhaps the love and care of family members were the best solution.

In fact, other than her own reasons, Lih Chu looked at her brother who was eating in a daze. Jun Yue also played a role in adding fuel to the fire in his brother's tragedy in his previous life.

Jun Yue was a man of great possessiveness. When she was being discussed by her classmates in school, Jun Yue did not stop her. In her previous life, Lih Chu could not figure it out. In this life, she understood that this bastard could not wait to see her. He was probably the only one by her side.

Lih Chu quietly looked at her brother who was eating slowly and felt a surge of warmth in her heart. No matter what, it was great to be able to see her brother again.

She urgently wanted to share her joy and did not care if her brother could hear her or not. She excitedly told Zhao Beihuai, "Big brother. I'll take care of you later. I'll make you delicious fish. I'll take you to the park to play." She promised sincerely. If you recover, I'll make money to let you go to the art school, If you are not cured, I will accompany you for the rest of my life. "

The young man's fingers curled up bit by bit. Unfortunately, Lih Chu did not see it. She was immersed in her beautiful fantasy. She had already made up her mind that she would keep the highest salary while working part-time. She planned to give up the rest. Those who had died once cherished the company of their loved ones more. That time, they would either use it to study or use it to accompany their brother.

The young man's fingers drummed forcefully and he muttered, "Early, early, early. Accompany. Accompany. ..." " There was doubt in his eyes, as if this was the first time he had received information from the outside world from the world he had sealed up.

These calls were like the sound of nature. Lih Chu was pleasantly surprised and almost shed tears, "En, I will accompany big brother for the first time. I will always accompany big brother." She held his hand and clenched it bit by bit.

The next day, after lunch, Lih Chu finished washing the dishes and threw her apron on the shelf. She looked at Zhao Beihuai who was sitting on the sofa blankly, "Brother, I went to school. Be good and wait for me to come back and cook."

Zhao Beihuai was still in a daze and did not react at all. Lih Chu had expected this and she was not angry. She took her bag and walked out of the door.

Lih Chu stopped for a moment when she held the door handle tightly. She turned around and saw her brother, who was sitting on the sofa like a child. His hair was sticking up, adding a bit of smoke to Zhao Beihuai's originally cold face. Lih Chu's heart was so soft that it was a mess.

Even if her real big brother was still on the stars, it did not mean that he would not be afraid, right? With this thought in mind, Lih Chu unexpectedly walked towards Zhao Beihuai.

She stood in front of Zhao Beihuai and slowly squatted down. Her face was red as she gently covered his hands. Ever since she made up her mind to accompany her brother more, she felt guilty even when they separated for such a short time in school.

Would her brother be afraid? When she was young, she wanted to go to the haunted house. Not long after she went in, she was afraid. Her brother did not laugh at her but held her in his arms. At that time, she was extremely afraid. The staff member pretended to be a ghost and stuck out her bright red tongue at her. She had no choice but to close her eyes tightly.

Thinking back to the scene in her previous life, Lih Chu only remembered that in the boundless fear, a warm aura enveloped her. Her brother's warm hands covered her ears. For many years later, no matter how difficult it was, whenever she thought of this scene, Lih Chu would draw the warmth from it. No matter how far she could go, there seemed to be an end to the road.

Lih Chu blinked, "Big brother, don't be afraid." In the past, it was you who protected me. Now it was my turn to protect you.

Don't be afraid. I won't be afraid either.

When they arrived at the school, Nan Cen excitedly came forward. " First of all, congratulations. The instructor said he gave you the position." When she thought about how her best friend was so outstanding and how she could solve some of the urgent problems after getting her salary, Nan Cen was even happier than when she got the chance.

Lih Chu did not feel any joy and she only felt a headache in her heart. In her previous life, she had done a lot of homework to get this opportunity. But in this life, she did not answer a single question. She was still targeted by Jun Yue. In other words, what the damn Jun Yue saw was not her talent, but her face.

It was laughable that she believed Jun Yue's words of paying attention to her because of her intelligence.

That was why she had been deceived by this bastard for two lifetimes.

Nan Cen saw Lih Chu's ever-changing expression and was somewhat worried, "Chu Chu." She called Lih Chu probingly. This lass probably did not become silly.

Lih Chu wanted to say that it was fine, but that kind of stifling feeling that was about to repeat the same mistake swept over her entire body. She even wanted to say something but lacked the strength to do so. She only waved her hand. Nan Cen looked at her worriedly.

Lih Chu wanted to be quiet. She wanted to leave but was afraid that her good friend would worry about her condition. She could only force a smile. "I'm fine, Nan Nan."

Nan Cen's face was full of disbelief and Lih Chu's face was full of disbelief. She knew how much effort she had put in for this opportunity, but Lih Chu had made all the preparations under the stage. She wanted to run away, but she was not willing to answer the teacher's question. She really did not know what Nan Cen was thinking.

"Early morning, the manager said you quit?" When she went to the shop yesterday, she heard the manager talk about this matter, but Nan Cen still did not believe it.

"Yes," Lih Chu replied casually.

Nan Cen was very surprised.

Lih Chu really became very strange.

In the past, Lih Chu would not let go of a chance to work part-time. But yesterday, not only did she skip work, she even quit her part-time job.

If it was in the past, this would never happen.

But on second thought, Nan Cen felt that this might be because Lih Chu had to concentrate on working for that important person, so she did not find it strange.

Lih Chu sighed, "Nan Nan, I do not want to be that person's family doctor." Nan Cen's eyes widened. Why? "This position's salary is very high. Even if you do more than ten part-time jobs a day, you might not be able to get so much money."

"I don't want to be like this." After living a new life, Lih Chu did not want to live a life where she put all her life's focus on money anymore. She had enough of that feeling. When she thought about how her brother was in danger because he was looking for her in her previous life and died without anyone accompanying him, she felt endless pain.

To her in her previous life, everything was not up to her. But to her in this life, she would always have the right to refuse the path that fate had arranged for her.

"I want to spend more time with my brother. In the past, my brother spent so much time with me, and I also want to accompany him." Nan Cen was silent. She knew how difficult Lih Chu's life was, but she also respected her choice.

Nan Cen's family was not particularly rich, but fortunately there was no burden in her family. Life was relatively easy, so she never envied Lih Chu's beauty. But at this moment, she suddenly envied Lih Chu because Lih Chu was very beautiful and the family conditions were not good. There were many people in the school who guessed that Lih Chu would find a rich person to spend time with. Lih Chu never said anything. She had been trying hard to prove herself and get rid of the label given by others. And the path that fate arranged for her.

"Nan Nan, I want to apply for a scholarship." Lih Chu still opened her mouth. Nan Cen was the class life committee member and was in charge of applying for a scholarship.

"Of course it is good." Nan Cen's eyes lit up. She thought that this girl had finally understood.

The University of C is a famous school. The subsidies for poor students are high enough. However, there was also a drawback. It caused those families who had no difficulties to apply. In the end, those who were truly in trouble could not apply for subsidies. In order to solve this situation, In order to solve this situation, the school leaders made a decision, which was that all those who applied for subsidies had to read their poverty applications in front of the entire school.

This method was indeed effective. Those who had no difficulties in their families were afraid of losing face, so they gave up. Only those who really needed it would be willing to let go of their pride. However, there were some truly poor people who gave up on the opportunity to subsidize because they were thin-skinned.

In her previous life, Lih Chu was one of those who were forced to give up on subsidies.