C157 Then Kneel Down!

Don't lie to me.

Thus, those words that were stuck in his throat were unable to come out.

Choo Xun silently pursed his lips, then slowly lowered his head.

Choo Yumin raised the crutch in his hand and pointed behind him, "Go and kneel."

Choo Xun twisted his neck and looked at the dark ancestral hall and the lanterns that moved because of the wind. His throat rolled, and he subconsciously wanted to ask for mercy.

The Chu Clan ancestral hall was definitely a nightmare that he would be afraid of no matter how old he was. His grandfather believed in Buddha, so he repaired a small Buddhist hall at home and even built an ancestral hall like the one in the old mansion.

The ancestral hall was not large and there was no ancestral tablet for the old ancestor. Other than the statues of Buddha hanging on the wall and the various Bodhisattva, there were only two ancestral tablets for his parents.

He had only been punished to kneel once, and he didn't believe in gods or ghosts. However, even once was enough to cause fear in his heart, because he felt that he was living a useless life. Perhaps it was guilt or cowardice, but when his parents' figures gradually faded in the long river of time, he also gradually lost the pitiful memories of his parents that occupied his mind. He did not dare to really say that he was their son in front of them. Because he had already forgotten about them.

He didn't dare to open his heart in front of his parents, and he didn't dare to reflect in front of his ancestors' memorial tablets. Because this would make him doubt the existence of the past ten years, and doubt if he lived in the wrong place. Or perhaps he shouldn't have appeared in this world at all. If they hadn't reincarnated yet, if they could still appear, they might have to climb up from the ground and point at his nose to teach him a lesson.

He had never felt filial, but he would never find trouble for himself, so he always avoided the ancestral hall and the Buddhist temple.

Choo Yumin looked at Choo Xun's stunned face and sneered, "You have the guts to fight for Shen Yi, but you don't have the guts to go to the ancestral hall and kneel down before your parents?"

"I really don't know how I taught you such an unfilial child. Even your parents aren't willing to go and see him. Have you forgotten how they went there?"

Choo Xun's body stiffened, "I didn't."

"Then go and kneel!" Choo Yumin hit the ground with his cane, "Go and kneel in front of your parents' cards! He personally told them why you did not treat your life as your life, and how you let them down and became a gangster. And how did you treat my years of teaching as irrelevant? "

"Go and ask them yourself! Ask them if they regret it!"

Don't regret it afterwards?

Choo Xun felt as if all his strength had been drained from his body because of these words. He looked at the memorial tablet that had blended with the darkness. Suddenly, he felt a throbbing pain in his head. His legs went weak and he fell to the ground. The dark night was like a sharp claw attacking him. It pulled out the sealed memories again. The bloody memory was placed in front of him as if he was digging his bones and cutting his flesh.

Do you regret it?

Choo Xun had wanted to ask this question many times, but he had never had the courage to ask it, whether it was to his grandfather or to this pair of cold memorial tablets.

Do you regret giving birth to me? Do you regret agreeing to my unreasonable demands when you had a job back then? Do you regret falling into the river and only pushing me onto the roof? Or do you feel ashamed looking at me like this? I hope I've never appeared before.

"I know that I am unworthy, and I am also very useless and useless. I can't even remember what you guys look like, and I even suspect that what happened in the past was just a dream."

"But I have no choice. I can't really live as a walking corpse." Choo Xun looked at the card blankly and said softly, "If you have mind reading skills, then you must know how I feel when I see Shen Yi."

"I found the meaning of life." He said softly, "I thought so at that time, but now I still think so."