C928 I Feel Very Sad

The echo of her performance was great, and it was said that her whip spin was also a dream to many audiences. The Guild Leader had urged them to continue dancing in the group and had promised the conditions for the leader of the dance group. But they all knew that Ivan's body could no longer endure such harsh training.

She would know if she did not train for a day; if she did not train for three days, the members would know; if she did not train for a month, the audience would know.

Compared to struggling on the stage and putting on a disgusting show with no self-respect, it was better to retreat quickly and leave the best impression for everyone.

After all, people are always like this. If you have more, you won't cherish it.

In the year between the age of 30 and 31, Soong Soong accompanied her through all the mountains and rivers in China. Finally, they returned home to hold a wedding.

Ivan still could not restrain her selfishness. She wanted to know how it felt to walk on the red carpet in a wedding dress. She wanted to know what it felt like to exchange wedding rings and love kisses under the flower door. She wanted to know even more. As Soong Soong's wife, how did it feel?

It felt very good.

On the first day of their marriage, Soong Soong gave her a good morning kiss when she woke up. He then carried her to wash up and eat breakfast with her. They spent the morning planting flowers and studying together in the afternoon. At night, they slept on the sofa and laughed happily at the sticky TV series.

Every night before going to bed, Ivan would write a diary.

On that day, there was only one sentence in her diary: I love Soong Soong.

Ivan looked at this page of the diary and was silent for a long time. Then, she covered her violently beating heart and cried.

Her body still deteriorated day by day. She struggled for two years and finally, she welcomed her death in front of everyone.

It was spring, a Wednesday with very good weather.

Under the scattered sunlight, Ivan vaguely remembered the day she left the orphanage. It was also a sunny day. The flowers in the flower bed bloomed very brightly. The leaves of the shrubs were very green, and the house that was sealed in her memories was very warm. Scenes, frames, flashed in front of her like a movie. It was so beautiful that it was like a dream.

In the past two years, she had been to the old orphanage. The dean still smiled kindly, but he did not ask about the days after she left the orphanage. She had also met the old dean of the old orphanage. She had a head full of white hair. A pair of desolate eyes looked at her with a strange yet relieved smile. She had never asked about her life after she left the orphanage. She only used her pair of old and thin hands to hold her similarly skinny hands and said, "You finally came to see me."

Ivan did not go to see her. At least she did not deliberately go to see her. After so many years, she was surprised that she could still recognize her.

Ivan looked at this old man who seemed to have become amiable in the flow of time and asked the question that she had been puzzled about for many years, "Why did you smile at that time?"

The old dean said, "Because I feel very sad."

Ivan asked, "Why?"

The old dean said, "Children who grew up in an orphanage, your lives will always be more difficult than others. I'm afraid that you will not be able to withstand it."

Ivan asked, "Why are you laughing?"

The old dean said, "Because there are so many children. Only you stick out the window and say goodbye to me."

Ivan said, "Because you are very strict. Everyone is afraid of you."

The old dean smiled and said, "But you still said goodbye to me. At that time, I knew that you would be a kind child."

Ivan looked at her quietly, "But kindness always represents weakness."

The old dean looked at her with a long and distant gaze. He shook his head and finally said, "I have finally waited for you."

That was the last time she saw the old dean. She never heard of her again.

Ivan looked at Soong Soong who was sitting beside the hospital bed and quietly looking at her. She smiled with difficulty.

Soong Soong was still as brave as thirteen years ago. He was the first to send an invitation to her. He could also calmly face her death. It seemed that after so many years, he had been explaining things to her. In the vast sea of people, he was the only man who could lift her up above his head.

This was really good.

Soong Soong was so calm that she could feel at ease leaving.

"Diary... The last page." She said with difficulty, "You are not allowed to read the rest."

After she finished speaking, she had a cardiac arrest. The doctors rushed over to save her. In the end, they announced that the resuscitation was ineffective and that she had died.

Father and Mother Song were already sobbing silently, but Soong Soong felt that everything in the world was moving away.

He knew that the diary was very important to Ivan, so he brought it with him when he came to the hospital.

He took it out and flipped to the last page. This was written by Ivan today. It took her an hour, but only a few crooked words were written.

In the later stages, her hands could no longer hold the pen and could only use her mouth to bite and write.

She wrote, I hope you have a child.

Soong Soong knew what she meant. He choked and said, "Okay."

Tears fell down and the paper was dizzy. He printed the notebook on the back of the paper vaguely, I love you.

He covered his mouth and did not want to lose his composure. However, his tears could not stop falling.

He already knew what the diary she wrote every day was. From "I love Soong Soong" to "I love you," from the first day of her marriage to the last day, 365 days, she did not write a single day.