C6 Chapter 3 The voice
I walked slowly on the park and hummed softly , it was a very beautiful day , children were playing with their parents and some couples were romancing, it was cute to watch but very embarrassing when you get caught staring .
I chuckled a little and walked to a swing , It was empty and beside me was a child who was being swinged by her parent . She looks so cute , hi !! I tell her and she smiled back at me .
Aww, she is so precious and cute ,I tell the mother !! Oh everyone says that , I am her nanney , the woman says to me abruptly.
Oh , my smile dropped a little, I thought she was yours I tell her truthfully. Everyone says that , but she isn't I am just so close to this little precious girl . She replied with amusement and a small smile .
The nanney didn't look that much older , she was young and beautiful, I feel so sorry for that little girl for being raised by a nanny and not her actual parents . Looking at the nanny , you could see the love and admiration to the little girl . " She loved her dearly . "
You are so beautiful ,she commented and I looked away shyly ." Thanks , " I tell her with a tight smile . She chuckled and said , " well , I didn't thought that you will get shy getting a complement . "
I am not used to , I tell her trying to be more generous " You are such a kind soul, she commented from nowhere ." I looked at her face and she gave me a small smile.
I am sorry , I judged too quickly, it's fine! i tell her and gave her a reassuring smile.
What's her name ? I wanted to make these small little talks with her , her name is Malia !! Wow , thats cute it fits her perfectly, I replied trying to carry on our conversation .
Malia , say hi !! The woman said to her , " hi ! " she said to me shyly. Aww !! You are so cute !! I commented to her and she replied boldly. " Thank you . "
You raised her really well , I tell her . " She went silent ,"
Can I play with her ? I ask her feeling a little excited, " Sure !!" I will be just here watching . She says ,
I stood up from the swing and carried her , " Malia !! What's your favourite food !!" Ice-cream!! She replied instanly .
That's not food !! With a playful frown covered my face , she giggled . You look like the little princess that I saw in my TV , she is beautiful just like you . She commented.
Aww baby , then I will be your real life princess, okay !? I ask her , " yay !!" She clapped her hands .
Nanny!! Nanny!! She is my princess !! She is my princess !! She squealed and I giggled .
We played some more , after some few hours , her nonney announced that they had to leave , okay !! I tell her and gave Malia a small kiss .
I hope to see you soon , I tell her and hugged her nanney too ,"take care of that sweet pineapple." " Ewww !! " I am not a pineapple, Malia commented with a small frown feigning hurt .
My heart melted looking at this little , " okay malia , you are not !! You are as beautiful as a lilly flower ,yay!! She squealed and gave me a kiss on my cheek . Thank you my princess;
She squealed and I smiled shaking my head , Bye ! I tell the nanny . Oh by the way my name is Amelia , mines Terry!!
Nice to meet you , likewise I replied and soon I saw them descending from where I was .
I had so much fun today , I guess its time to go back home .
I smiled a little when I saw that the little girl dropped her little doggy doll ," I took it on the ground and promised myslef that I was going to give it back . "
You met such a nice soul , " You are making progress !!" I heard the same voice in my head telling me,
My heart beat went from seventy two rate pounds in a minute to uncountless pounds , I could feel my heart beating through my ears , my palms !! A wave of dizziness passed through my head .
I refuse to be weak and slip unconscious,I refuse to be timid, I am brave, I can fight this ..
What's happening!!? Wh ..who are are you !!? I found myslef shaking and asking the voice which I heard again in my head .
But again, I heard nothing!! I reassured myself and swallowed like always, I reached for a tree and made my heart beat calm lessening it to a normal rate.
" Whatever that is inside my head , I swear I am going to fight you myself!!" I murmured and gritted my teeth , maybe mom sees me differently because I am truly weak and can't fight my own demons . But I swear over my mom's love and my dad's careness, I am going to make sure I beat the shit out of this stupid thing inside my head .
By hook or crook , I composed myself and went inside my car , I am not allowed to drive but who cares !! " I want to prove to them that I am normal just like them!!"
And I can do anything without any one's help , let's do this girl!!" I cheered up myself. I turned the radio on switching my favourite music and soon I started driving without a care vibing up,
I know my parents are going to be really mad and are looking for me at the moment, but I just want to show them that I am a big girl and I can take care of whatever comes either from north or east or , south to west .
I am prepared ,
" So am I!!" I heard the voice in my head again, I didn't stop because I was at the road , my heart was beating but not erratically.
If this stupid illusion voice can me shudder and cause fear , why can't I use my most important tool that is my brain to protect myself and get all this shits on one place of my fucking brain .
I am not a psychopath !! I yelled when the music was really high in my car . I wanted to waste myself and pretend like everything is alright but will everything really be alright?
Or is this just the calm before the storm?
" Fuck you , you fucking mysterious voice inside my fucking head !!" I yelled .
"Fuck you too !!" Do you think this is easy for me to be trapped inside your fucking head !! You dumbo;
I froze ... what in the hell has just happened? ... wha..wait !!
Oh my god!! I mumbled knowing I wasn't hallucinating , A real fucking voice was inside my fucking head , I was fucking trapped , and it was all real , I could feel my hands shaking and my body sweating profusely from nowhere.
I couldn't control my car as I felt my brakes screeched and my whole body freeze for the thousand time , I could feel my car losing control and infront of me was a tree welcoming me to the darkness....
Or maybe not !!