C16 Stupid and guilty

Liam:

I feel stupid, I feel stupid and guilty she had a son, my son and I still hate her, caused her so much pain because of my sick revenge, I don’t deserve her, I don’t even deserve my child, but am so selfish that I was ready to go against all odds and get her back, shower her with everything so that when Selena decides to break up with me, I seized the opportunity to get Alisson but I

don’t just want my son back but the whole package that comes with it and like I said before that is Allison, but every time I am close to actually doing it, I end up losing my damn courage “Mr. Liam, Damien, and Miss Alisson are in Damien’s bedroom said the housekeeper who avoids me but she is nice and polite and we are good with “thank you, Mrs. Grace. “I answered the polite old lady before departing in the direction of Damien's room, I opened the door to a sight that sent my blood rushing to the lower region of my body. It was Allison in nice shorts and a crop top bending over a table “Take a picture” came her brisk reply “am so

sorry” I apologize and avert my eyes immediately “it ok” am helping Damien with his homework he is in the bathroom, the big guy loves his privacy, she replied still not moving from her position fuck me, that ass is gonna get a man to sin, “oh, ok, is there anything I can do to help, “ I said while averting my eyes from the object of my temptation "yeah, you gonna take over from this homework, and when he comes out you help him dress, which he is obviously gonna object, while I go downstairs and arranges

his breakfast and lunch" she said and stand up, finally my eye can finally look somewhere else, I quickly move towards the table and check the assignment, it was calculus she has completed the rest, well she never liked calculus I guess she still doesn’t like it now, in no time I was done and Damien came out of the bathroom and call for his mom when he was sure that she was not in the room he steps inside the room and dressed, I explain the calculus for him, he is a smart kid, he understood, we went downstairs and breakfast was ready, I joined when she invited me to eat, I miss her food, bye mom “he said and kiss her forehead, “bye Liam” she replies and he rushes out “when is he gonna recognize me as his dad “I said when I heard his driver, drive away, “I don’t

know Liam, just give it time, ten years is a very long time you know “she replied still chewing on her food “I know but sometimes, I do feel like there is something am not doing right “That is how I felt when the doctor said, just take a breath before I push again that is how I felt when I had a fight by 12 pm in the night, and he always made it his time to cry, not even his pacifier or my breastmilk could make him stop a tear would roll down my face, I look at him and ask "tell me what I am not

doing right", and my teacher told me, Alisson it took time before you could throw a proper punch, and it took you time before you could also get on that ring, give it time my child, so just give it time Liam “she replied, I felt like a fool, am a fool all she did was love me, she didn’t deserve to be treated that way, but I let my rage blind me “thank you for taking care of him Alisson”, “I didn’t do it for you Liam, don’t thank me, his smiles brighten my world, I was washing the toilet and since my inmates love him and dote on him, I left him with them, I was so lost in my thought thinking on how am gonna fuck the social service worker who was a man so that he won't take him away from me, and then I heard him say “mama,” he left them when they were distracted and came

looking for me, and he shouted mama the second time, that alone made me feel like a queen, I was so proud, I drop my tool and stretch out my hand for him to come and hug me then he slipped and fell, but he smiles and called me “Mama,” he is the reason am alive, he is the reason I choose to live, he is worth the scars on my body, so don't thank me Liam “she said with a smile, I shift close to her and take her lips on mine, I don’t know what prompts me to do it, I just couldn't control myself, and she responded to my kiss, she pushes me away, after a while when I was able to breathe " am sorry “I apologize because I felt like she is gonna put up a wall around herself "it ok Liam, there is no need to apologize on how we both behave, by the way, I like it “she smiles,

I fucking felt on top of the world “Can I please take you on a proper date please, let's start all over again Alisson “I asked feeling nervous suddenly, “mmm, if we gonna make this work Liam, let get to know each other first” she answers “of course Alisson, anything you want “ I agreed immediately. This time around am gonna right all my wrongs, I promise to accept everything you

dish out to me, and am not gonna hold any grudges against you, I don’t know about my feelings but I spent ten fucking years wondering if you are ok, even though I called you a slut, I knew that I was your first and you were my first, I had regrets to stop but my friends told me I’ll be a fool if I ever back out of revenge, I was young and stupid I took the bet, but I end up hurting innocent people at the end “I need to go upstairs, I got some work to” and I nod in understanding.