C4 Maternal Warmth

"Later on, I found out that the reason why he had so many concubines was not because he was lustful, but because he was already twenty-seven or twenty-eight years old and had no son. Only the original wife had just given him a daughter, and she was still in her infancy."

"It's simply out of the question for famous nobles like them. He went to work in that county and met me by accident. He suddenly felt that he had fallen in love with me, which was why your grandfather's Shangguan Lai proposed marriage."

She didn't believe that her mother would say that she was attracted to her mother's beauty and her youth. She had to admit, her mother's looks were quite reasonable, and she didn't dare to say that she was a prodigal beauty. However, her eyes were clear and her posture was delicate and gentle, and even if she was sick in bed, she still couldn't hide her beauty.

"Now that I think about it, maybe he thinks that I can give him a son, so he decided to take me back to his house. He knows that with his power, your ancestors and your grandmother have no way to oppose him, and they can only nod. That's power. Shan Xing, since we can't get power, then we should stay far away from it and not get involved."

Shan Xingniang also couldn't help but cry when she thought of those days when they were deep inside the mansion. Those suffering was indescribable, and they weren't even considered outsiders. Since she couldn't protect the two of them, then she might as well escape.

"Since I entered his house, he has been kind to me, but the others are not, especially his Lady Head, who wants me to go to her room three times a day in the morning, to serve her three meals, and only after she has finished eating can I have time to eat."

During the years I've been in the mansion, I haven't had a proper meal. When I eat, the food will be cold, but she isn't like this for all the concubines. It's just because her benefactor is a bit nicer to me.

It seemed that although her mother was a bit weak, she wasn't stupid. Some things could still be seen through.

It's just that he doesn't have much time to look after me, and I also understand now that he doesn't want to take special care of me. Besides when he goes back to rest, he would have the time to come to my place.

"Not only was I angered by First Madam, I was also bullied by those concubines. They all felt that I was the one who hurt them more and more, but I didn't even have the heart to hurt them. My life is my own fault."

After she finished speaking, Shan Xingniang realized that she had said something wrong.

"What do you mean by not being pampered? Mother was wrong when she said that. Shan Xing, don't listen."

Shan Xing inwardly curled her lips, but on the surface, she obediently nodded her head, indicating that she was very obedient to her mother's words.

"It's a good thing that I'll be pregnant soon. He was happy to see me almost every day for a while, and he even repeatedly told First Madam to take good care of me. I know how unwilling First Madam is, but First Madam also wants a son. I know what they plan to do."

"If I gave birth to a son, then I'd have to raise my son from First Madam. I also have to thank First Madam for not having a son, otherwise, your brother might not even be able to survive."

In other words, his mother had successfully given birth to a son. This was worth celebrating.

"They don't have any sons in their family, and my birth is considered a treasure. With this, during my pregnancy, I will have very good treatment, no need to attend to me, and there will even be people to serve me. During this period of time, no one will dare to look for trouble with me, for fear that once I get excited and give birth, I won't be able to solve the problem with sales."

I almost forgot how difficult it was for me to stay in the mansion, but when I gave birth to your brother, he was carried away, and only then did I realize that I was still that concubine who didn't care about anyone, no one would care about my life, no one would understand my difficulties. I begged him for so long, but he didn't leave his child behind.

Only then did Shan Xing notice that from the start of her mother's story until now, she had never used the name 'your father' before. She only used either her father's name or his name to replace it.

"However, a son is still too few. However, during the period when I was pregnant with your brother, not a single concubine of his or her concubine or concubine, or even his or her concubine, had a happy letter to spread.

"Because my room is still the place he comes to frequently. I've only returned to my old days and am still in a daze in front of First Madam, still being bullied and criticized by her concubines. I could bear it before, but now, I have nothing to endure."

"But none of this is important, and I don't put it in my heart at all. However, I really want to go to First Madam's room. Even if I had to wait on her for a day, I would be willing because I can occasionally see your brother there."

Shan Xingniang's face lit up at the mention of her child.

"First Madam probably discovered my desire for children. She deliberately carried your brother out when I went there, then acted as if she was intimate with the child. She thought I would be jealous. Actually, as long as I could see your brother, I would be more satisfied than anything."

Until I become pregnant with you again, I don't even have the power to look at your brother anymore. Just like last time, I hid in my own yard to recuperate, but because I was worried about your brother, I couldn't rest easy like last time. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get what I wanted.

Shan Xingniang touched her belly. As if Shan Xing was still in her stomach, her gaze became gentler. This was how motherly love made people feel warm and at ease.

"Mom, after talking so much, you're already tired. Why don't you take a break and drink some more water?"

Seeing that her mother was already beginning to pant even though she was speaking rather slowly, Shan Xing decided to tell her mother not to say anymore.

Since her mother didn't want her to go back, she only needed to get a rough understanding of the situation. She had to know her own background, but she didn't need to know too much about it since her mother didn't want to reveal it to her.

Just like that man's name, where his mother followed him to, and his position, his mother only passed by him without leaving any evidence. It could be seen that his mother had from the bottom of her heart refused to have any involvement with her children and her family.

If that was the case, Shan Xing couldn't be bothered to talk about them anymore, it must be the family's problem, and even if they were to return, so what? The greatest possibility was that they would lose their freedom, which was the last thing Shan Xing wanted to abandon.

Under such a difficult environment, his mother was still unwilling to let him go back. It could be seen how terrible and unacceptable his life in that mansion was. This girl from ancient times had only been born into a life of three, four, and three.

"Since mother has already spoken to you today, let mother finish her words. You should at least know why mother doesn't want you to go back."

Shan Xingniang drank some water from her daughter's hand and then started talking again. Shan Xing helped her mother go along with her chest and listened attentively.

You are still a good and obedient person, just like your brother. You didn't put any burden on your mother, and you stayed peacefully in your mother's stomach for ten months, before successfully giving birth to her. But when you saw that it was a daughter, although he was happy, he obviously wasn't as happy as your brother.

Seeing her mother wipe the corners of her eyes, Shan Xing pretended not to see it. She didn't want her mother to feel even more hurt, and she also knew that her mother didn't want her to see her tears.

"At that time, mother swore that she would raise you well and educate you into a child that they all envied and envied. They would regret that they didn't put your brother by my side and raise you."

Looking at the weak mother saying such words while gritting her teeth, Shan Xing couldn't help but smile. Everyone said that being a mother means being strong. As expected, a mother who has a child is different from others.

"He found a wet nurse for you, but my mother wanted to feed you herself, so she didn't lend her hand to others. But not long after I had my month, another surprise nearly knocked me down, First Madam's daughter gave birth to smallpox from nowhere, and he was afraid of infecting his son, so he had someone bring your brother into my room and let me raise him myself."

"First Madam can't care about this son of hers now. After all, that daughter is her own. If she were to bury her heart in that daughter of hers, then I would really have the feeling of having both children."

Shan Xingniang patted her daughter's hand on her body to let her rest for a while.

"I still remember when your brother first entered my room. He was white, fat, and very pleasing to the eyes, but at that time, your brother was already 3 years old and could already see some clues. He was too spoiled and had many bad habits."

I don't know how many times I have to scold the girl beside me every day. I don't know who I learned it from, but I'm a complete playboy. I'm going to go crazy with anger because I don't want to raise a child well.

It's a good thing that I had such an opportunity to teach my son myself, and because your brother is still young, I'm confident that I can win him over. If your brother becomes a popinjay, then his future will be ruined.

"After all, even my own brother can't take care of you. You can't point your fingers at anyone, just like me. Even with my parents, I can't be my own master and have my own land."

Shan Xingniang was glad but also grateful. She was even grateful to the first-rate daughter who suffered from smallpox. If she hadn't been sick, how would she have had the chance to bring her son to her side, how would she have had the chance to educate him personally?