C5 Defeated and broken

Everything inside me resists the idea . I'll never let anyone get that close to me again. I'm the one who's supposed to dominate her with my strength not her me . Her piercing ice blue eyes pierced me as I held her pinned under my body , and the anger that flowed inside her is replaced by another feeling, one I can't name. My heart is pounding with something other than anger , and my wolf is intrigued. I try to figure out what is going on as I walk toward my operating room , intending to get away from her . Companion . The word floats into my mind, filling my stomach with complete and utter terror. No, no, no! This can't be happening. I'm not bonding with anyone, least of all this unruly human. My wolf is growling, but he is not in control of this situation any more than I am. I can feel the power building up around us, feeding from the very foundation beneath us, and I know what is coming. This cannot be happening. Make it stop.... I can hear Beck arguing with her and helping her walk to her room, but I don't pay attention to them. All I can focus on is the quickening of my pulse as it pounds within the walls of my chest. My wolf urges overpower me , I didn't think being a lycanthrope I could feel this . " It must be Mia." I whisper ALISON Pain explodes through my body at the moment . My back arches on the mat as I feel as if my insides are tearing apart . My head spins and my vision flickers in and out. Through the haze descending on me, I see that he released me and is now on his knees, my body twisting and flexing as his nightgown takes hold. This is not happening. This is a nightmare. Tingles and needles attack my limbs, sizzling through my hands so painfully that I hold them against my chest as if that might somehow alleviate it. I know what's coming next, and I know there's no way a human like me can get out of this well , if this man with superhuman strength decides to kill me right now . My spine cracks as my bones try to shift, trying to push toward change. I jerk forward, my toes sinking into the soft carpet beneath me as I try to steady myself through the gut-wrenching agony that rips through me. His arrogant stare and airs of superiority irritate me . I try to look at Dech's face , but I don't want to I know he's disappointed that I left his side while we were arguing , but I'm too proud and I can't help but always prove to myself that I can overcome any obstacle I face . The scream that comes from my throat as my skin turns to stone, sweat beads on the back of my neck and between my breasts, is guttural. I am going to die. No one could survive so much pain and live. Every inch of my body feels like flames are licking it. After the so-called "boss" grabbed me by the wrists and dropped his full weight on me, collapsing me face-first on the carpet, my limbs are boneless and my head is pounding as the change, thankfully, begins to subside. Every breath I take is ragged and my throat is raw, as if I've swallowed razor blades. That's it, I'm done, I can't go on, the air in my lungs is empty and I give up. I hear the "boss" mumbling something but I don't pay attention to him, I'm too tired. Dech immediately runs to me and carries me but I resist to look like a lifeless corpse in his arms and try to pull myself together. I turn my eyes towards the man who just beat me up and see that he is no longer there he has turned his back on me . " i Wait !" I scream letting out the last breath I have left but he continues on his way and doesn't even flinch to look at me . "I told you I'm not a good idea , you should have stopped when I suggested it ." The annoyance on Dech's face irritates me , but more irritates me to have been hit so abruptly just because I wanted to show my endurance . What a survivor I am , it seems that life just wants to laugh at me as I suffocate in the hands of my captor . "You're lucky to be alive , the boss has very little patience" . I ignore Dech's comments , and let him help me get to the room at this time what I want to rest . My blood boils with frustration , but my body is so weak that I can not express it . " Can you let me rest ? , I want to get some sleep " Dech nodded his head , and gave me a warm look . "Let me know if you need anything else " I keep silent and watch Dech walk away as I crawl into bed and try to regain my strength . Really what I need is to not spend another second of my life in this place . The only thing that surrounds my mind are those moments of struggle between me and this man. Why didn't he kill me? He had opportunities to do it. I still don't understand why this man is kidnapping hostages and keeping us in this complex, but I'm going to find out; as soon as I recover I'll do my best to find out the truth and run away from this place, I don't care how much danger I'm in out there. I don't know how long it's been since I closed my eyes and said goodbye to Dech , between I open my eyes and everything is pitch black . I freeze when I feel a large black shadow pressing its nose into the hollow of my neck and its rough fur tickles the underside of my chin. But that is nothing compared to the panic I experience when a consciousness that is not mine fills my mind .It feels strange and wrong when its presence wanders through my thoughts, invading places it has no right to be. Waves of possessiveness and the need to possess me turn my stomach all over. "What the fuck is this?" , this bond I feel as if something clears me towards this character that envelops me . I try to clear my sight to make out a large wolf surrounding me , from one minute to the next the wolf moves away and I watch helplessly as it changes to its human form . I don't try to move ; I just keep breathing heavily I am totally stunned . "What are you doing here?" It merely makes no sound and strong hands press against my shoulders and, with a gentleness that doesn't seem possible, I roll over onto my back. It seems that this sort of wolf can control my mind , he leans over me and his bushy eyebrows draw together as he watches me. "i No , please don't !" I shake my head in dismay as my eyes fill with tears . "i Don't do it , don't kill me ! " I look away from him. I feel alone and helpless , with my head full of strange thoughts that seem to be read by this beast somehow . "I don't want this , stop controlling me " I whisper , letting my tears flow . This is not how it is supposed to be , but fate seems cruel to me , why do I feel this kind of bond towards this immortal human . "Get away from me," I hiss at him, looking for a way to feel brave in the middle of this trance . Oh, yes, he seems to be angry . I feel his anger vibrate through every part of my body , as his hands continue to rest on my shoulders . "You are mine," he whispers . The steady whisper of his words freezes me , "I'm yours " perchance .... This lycanthrope is trying to mate with me somehow , my head spins and a surge of boldness suddenly overcomes me . "I will never be yours ". I back up a few steps , putting distance between us , then run . I don't even know his name or where the hell he came from all I know is what happened when he abducted me here and then the beating he gave me on the canvas , I'm not going to mate with any beast let alone this piece of wolf . I run across the room and get to the door and try to open it but this time it's locked. I turn my back to the door and he puts his arms around me, trapping me in them. I am lost . "I won't hurt you anymore if you obey me " He murmurs . My body began to vibrate, like an electric current running through my veins . I didn't understand what was wrong then, but now it all makes sense. This wolf has some kind of bond with me , in some way I can't explain to myself , I had heard many stories before about the children of the moon and their strange mating rituals with humans ; but I never thought this could happen to me . "i don't want to obey , I won't make your slave ! " I yell at him trying to make him angry so he will go away . But he has the door locked and I don't think he wants to let me go , not tonight . A deep instinct warns me to tread carefully , but I am driven by something much more powerful , I have a built up anger towards him . Everything he's put me through since I got here , no matter how much fear he instills in me I won't give up . The rage is enough to make me punch him in the jaw with my fist. He falls heavily to the ground in surprise , groaning as he runs out of air in his lungs . "Get the fuck away from me," I warn him. His eyes glow red , his wolf emerges to the surface , but does not move from the ground. Fear came over me completely and I thought that my end had come quickly . " i Go away , get the hell out of here !" He shouts at me in a thunderous voice .