C105 Who Wouldn't be Reasonable(2)

"Idiot, don't your teeth hurt? Heh, the next time I take off my clothes, I'll bite you..." Yan Xuan walked into the room and lifted his leg to close the door. After separating the pairs of eyes outside the door and Dong's shouts, he walked a few steps to the bedside. He gently put Lyi Yan down and pressed her stomach, which was in pain. He sat down at the edge of the bed.

"Please go out! Don't talk to me like that again! I don't want to hear anything now! I just want to make Grandfather and Grandma... "Lyi Yan, who had regained her freedom, let go of her mouth and scrambled to the bed. She hugged her knees and burst into tears. In her heart, she was very cowardly. She could not bear to see him pressing down on his abdomen. She knew that he was in pain. He would not pretend, but she was also in pain. She even had the urge to die!

"Whether you want to hear it or not, I have to say it today."

... "If you want to say it, go somewhere else!"

"I want to say it to you."

"I won't listen!"

"If you don't want to hear it, I want to say it too."

Yan Xuan looked at Lyi Yan, who was hiding by the bed and covering her ears again, and slightly lowered his eyes. He did not move anymore. His white lips curved into a beautiful arc, and then he used a voice that did not have much strength. Slowly, bit by bit, he recalled the memory that he did not want to touch. Lightly speaking.

"Your mother is my mother's good friend..."

"Don't say, I won't listen!"

"I truly know her on the 11th day after my mother died..."

After that, no matter what Lyi Yan struggled or shouted, he just smiled and talked to himself.

Auntie Wang, don't be sad. Isn't Xuan alright? Let's pack up and go home.

When the time came back, Wen Qing and Grandma came to pick him up from the hospital that afternoon. The woman who stood next to Grandma with a warm smile on her face. Gradually, she replaced his mother, his grandmother... and became the sustenance of all his feelings.

"On the day of my grandmother's death, your mother accompanied me to the hospital and sent me off for the last time..."

Relationship... In the future, Xuan... will be counting on you...

Grandma died of cancer. Before she died, she handed his hand over to Wen Qing with tears in her eyes. He knew that Grandma's heart was very bitter. He knew that her mother's death was a huge blow to her. She knew that she had helped her mother eloping with Yan Zhengyuan because she doted on her mother. Her heart was filled with regret and guilt. Regret had accompanied her all her life, and she had not been able to free herself from it even at the end of her life. Fortunately, their grandfather and grandson had met with warmth, and they had given each other warmth and smiles in their final days. They had entrusted their grandmother with something at that moment, and she had been able to shed the last of her tears. She had passed away safely.

"After my grandmother left, I decided to be your mother all by myself. Don't let anyone bully her and hurt her. Try your best to give her the best. Do your best to help her fulfill all her wishes, as long as you can do it for her. I will do it... It's fine even if you die"

Xuan! Are you crazy? If something were to happen to you, how would I explain it to your mother and grandmother? !

He was willing to give up everything for the sake of love. He was not afraid of anyone. He did not care how many people he had offended. Occasionally, he would run into people who were in the dark and get beaten half to death. He still did not want to be taught a lesson. He continued to do what he wanted. He rampaged in the circle with all his might. There was no way to save them.

"From the age of thirteen to the age of twenty-three, the most difficult ten years for me. The only one who cares for me is your mother. The entertainment industry is a cold and heartless place, and in order to let me finish playing, Yan Zhengyuan... Every minute and every second, he would do whatever it takes."

... ""

At some point in time, Lyi Yan, who had a hard heart and was unwilling to listen to an explanation, she gently put down her hands beside her ear. She looked at Yan Xuan. That man was so tired that he could no longer straighten his back. The hand pressing down on his abdomen was getting stronger and stronger. The pain was weak. She finally saw it. She saw it clearly.

"In my heart, no one can replace your mother. In fact, I won't let anyone replace her"

... ""

Every word entered her ears and struck her heart. She was speechless. That was the story of Yan Xuan and her mother. The content was similar to what her father had said. But the relationship was miles apart. She asked herself, Is this all a lie made up by this man in front of me? She then asked herself, Since no one can replace Mom's position in her heart, then what is she?

"At first, I didn't like you, because you hated her so much. I hated you so much that I didn't even want to think about her. But what I saw was clearly a life to keep the child away from harassing normal people. And a mother who racked her brains to keep working hard. Your childhood memories do not have much of my existence, because I was labeled as someone in your mother's circle. She didn't want me to come into contact with you too much."

... ""

" But one day, you drank too much and sleepwalked in the ward. I heard your sleep talk and suddenly realized that I was wrong. What you experienced, what you experienced, was that I thought too simply... Other than yourself, probably no one else can truly understand your feelings. Thus, I began to slowly accept you. Only then did I realize that you had already unknowingly entered my heart. Later on, when I wanted to give up everything because of Wang Tingting... You rushed in front of me and said... "

"You are the person my mother wanted to protect, the person who protected my father and my friends, the person who stood up for me. To me, you are one of us, a person I cannot ignore... "

Lyi Yan snatched the words that Yan Xuan wanted to say. Those words that she had mustered her courage to say.

They had gone through so much together. Day after day, their memories faded. They thought they had forgotten, but now they could easily remember. When they remembered, those things seemed to have happened yesterday. Every word, every word, every expression, and that feeling were all so real. It was so clear... Could it be that they were all lies?

"Heh..." Yan Xuan stopped talking. He had spoken too much today, and he was already mentally and physically exhausted.

He recalled those reckless and frivolous things, and once again experienced the passing of warmth in his heart. His heart was not in a good state, and he had never stopped blaming himself for what he had done. It was just that he wore a mask to stop the sadness, because nothing could be salvaged.

The warmth is gone, but you are still alive! You can either f * cking die with her, or live like a human!

It wasn't that he hadn't thought of ending that darkest period. However, it was probably a warm arrangement that made him inadvertently discover that roll of cards. Lyi Yan's tender voice was heard again and again, and the broken heart was pieced together bit by bit. Finally, he found the reason to let him continue living. At least in this cold world. There was still a little girl who needed him.

In the future, he would leave Yan becoming a singer to Xuan, okay?

"What I want to say is this..." After tidying up his emotions that were on the verge of collapse, Yan Xuan lowered his head slightly. His consciousness was gradually swallowed up and his stomach was already numb from the pain. As for the thing in front of him... It was as if he was covered by a thick layer of fog. "No matter how much you listen, whatever decision you make after that... I won't tell you 'Okay, I respect your choice'."

... "" Lyi Yan moved her lips. She wanted to say something but was unable to say anything. Her heart was in a mess and she could not move forward or retreat for a moment.

"Mature and calm are things that have been accumulated over the years. There is no one in my bones that can reverse what I have decided..." Yan Xuan smiled lightly and coughed a few times. His arm, which was holding the bed, slowly bent and his body slowly fell to the side. " I will not let go of your hand... Cough cough, even if the whole world tells me that letting go of you is the best... "

" Yan Xuan? " Seeing Yan Xuan's body slowly fall onto the bed, Lyi Yan's eyelids jumped and her chest unconsciously tightened.

"Yan... Cough, all the decision-making rights are confiscated by me. You can only resign yourself to fate... " She continued to smile, but her strong will finally submitted to the darkness.

He was really too tired, and Lyi Yan's bed seemed to be quite soft and warm, allowing him to sleep for a while.