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"Sister! She took advantage of the chaos to steal my hairpin! "

Before Lan Li could say anything, that little servant girl started sobbing, pointing to the other side, the other little girl who was just pulled away yelled out, "Wasn't it just yesterday that you asked me to lend it to you, didn't I? "How can you have such shallow eyes and come here to steal from me. No wonder my mother said that your mother is a bitch, your entire family …"

The young maid opposite me knelt on the ground and cried in grief. She repeatedly kowtowed to me and said, "I did not! "I did not!"

I frowned at Lan.

Is this the time to talk about this?

Lan Li's face also turned ashen. She first scolded the little girl in front of her with a straight face, "Is this a place where you can kneel and cry and complain about your wrongdoings?" Hurry up and go stand outside! "

The young maid quickly stood up and stood behind him.

The maidservants that had been watching behind her all took a step back, leaving a gap in their path. They looked extremely disgusted.

Lan Li turned her face to the side again, pointed at another person and swore, "This is the first time I've seen someone as daring as you, scolding people in the master's house! Who taught you that you can speak before your sisters have spoken? It's your mom from the Wu Dengke family. Did she teach you how to behave like this? "

The young maid stopped crying and continued to glare at the other side with indignation.

A few girls who looked at her age came forward to help her up.

Seeing this scene, he couldn't help but laugh in his heart.

No matter where one went, it was inevitable that there would be such a type of fence-sitter. When one met someone who stepped on a higher place, it was extremely hateful.

Lan Li became angrier and angrier, and scolded the maidservants who were watching the scene: "What are you all doing here! Haven't you seen enough of the liveliness? Hurry up and go down. "

The maidservants looked at the mess on the ground, and withdrew obediently.

The two from Aunt Mo's courtyard were quite sensible and followed the crowd out.

Lan Li then slightly bent her knees towards me, her face red with shame.

I waved my hand at her. "It's not your fault!" Knowing that such a mess had been caused, she decided to go out to discipline me. I replied, "If you have something to do, you can just go out and busy yourself!"

Recently, people's hearts had been in their mouths, and it was easy for things to go awry. Furthermore, all the capable people in my courtyard were drawn out. It was inevitable that these kids would become a bit loose.

In addition to his mother's funeral, everyone was busy for a while. Everyone was very depressed. It was not easy to get into such a mess, and the older maids could still hold their cool. These kids had to stir up some trouble for themselves, not to mention that their master was now in a mess.

Even I can't control it, let alone Lan Yu.

Just like managing a family, managing a yard was filled with contradictions. How to use these contradictions to maintain the operation of this machine was the job of the leader, and also the most embodiment of a person's ability.

Like today, when the little girl came to the front of her master, she really shouldn't have done so.

After Lan Ling left, there was only me, Lan Xi, and the other family members left in the room. Lan Xi rarely stayed alone with me, so she was a little confused.

I didn't even need to look in the mirror to know how awful the expression on my face was from Lan Xi's fearful expression.

After calming my emotions, I instructed, "Let go of him. I'll talk to him."

There was still a hint of anger in his voice.

Lan Xi released her hand and stood up, trembling. She stood by the bed with her hands hanging by her sides. She crawled behind the flowery shelves as if that would make her invisible to others.

Seeing how she was trembling, I couldn't help but find it funny.

Without the imprisonment of Lan Xi, the family was even more so a wild horse with its reins removed. As it rolled on the bed, it wailed and wailed in a muffled voice that no one could hear.

I grabbed his leg and pushed him onto the bed. I said to him in a voice that was above his crying, "You don't cry now. I'll hear what you have to say."

Unfortunately, things didn't go as he wished. It seemed like he was just trying to vent his displeasure. Even though he was held down by me, he still cried loudly.

My eyes went cold and I let go.

Either I'm disappointed in him, or I'm disappointed in myself, but I'm feeling very disheartened right now.

In this time of coaxing the child, I think I might as well turn a few pages of words to make it feel good.

I straightened my skirt and lifted my foot to leave.

You ~ ~ all ~ ~ aren't ~ ~ ~ me!

The family on the bed let out a sharp cry that stopped me in my tracks.

I shook my head. How could I care about him?

The crying turned into soft sobbing, and Jia Yi curled up on the bed, hugging her knees, crying softly, indistinct syllables coming out of her mouth.

A few more steps and I would be out the door, and then I would be in the kind of situation I had always wanted, the kind of situation where I did things with my heart, and then a few more steps and I would be back in the old days when I had been afraid I'd had the wrong child all day, afraid I'd be too strict with the child, that I'd be too restrained by his personality.

After hesitating for a moment, I turned around.

I have to admit, I'm not as cold as I used to be.

Since when?

From when I designed to send Aunt Chen into my father's backyard and suddenly found out that she was pregnant?

Or did it mean that I had avenged my lost son?

Or did I just watch as my mother, like a peony, began to wither away from her splendor and finally became a driving shell in a coffin?

It's all, it doesn't seem to be.

I had an answer in my mind.

It seemed like he had suddenly gotten to know that person.

From his sudden intrusion into my life, my life began to become more than just revenge, to have color, to have hope, to have a future.

I would secretly yearn to start a new life. I would never even dare to think of the future that had once appeared in my dreams, the future that he was in.

I used to think that my heart had been strengthened by me, layer after layer, impregnable, no door of gold and stone, but as he invaded my life again and again, with a new face in front of my eyes, I was moved.

Even though I didn't want to admit it, I knew that I had secretly handed the key over to him.

And someone as sharp as him must have sensed it as well.

But he only pricked open a crack, looked into the landscape, and ran away.

Perhaps it was because my heart was too barren, perhaps it was because the cost of opening it was too great, but in any case, after a quarrel between him and me, I ended up not being able to see him again.

The sect was already open, and it was difficult to collect water.

My past hatred for Xue Lang had turned into hatred for Jiang Ming. I blamed him for stirring my emotions up, but he was unable to put on his old mask.

I found that I could no longer face innocent people with hatred, nor could I be unyielding and step on the blood and bones of others to achieve my own.

Only by having a heart could there be constraints.

I still sat by the bed and gently caressed my family's back. "We all care about you! "Look at me every day. I have to ask you if you have eaten your fill, whether you wear warm clothes or not, and if you have recovered. Don't you care about me?"

Jianyi choked with sobs as he stood up, but he insisted on not sitting on my chest. He kept rubbing his eyes with his hands and mumbled a sentence.

This time I heard it clearly.

He said, "That's because I still have a use for it!"

I laughed.

How could this child have such strange thoughts?

"Of course our family rules are useful!" I took off his hand that was rubbing his eyes, and used a handkerchief to wipe his tears away. "Family Law is so good at settling debts, and is also so smart and beautiful. When I grow up, I'll help my elder sister with the housekeeping!"

Jiayi shook his head and cried, "I don't want to grow up!"

Surprised, I took him in my arms and asked him softly, "Why don't you grow up?"

"Because... When I grow up, my sister will … will... "Let me kill my brother and brother …"

For a moment I was too stunned to speak.

In that case, it shouldn't be something a child would want.

He was smart, but he was only five years old. How could he think that I had taught him to exclude his two brothers and even to "kill" him?

It was obvious that someone was trying to lure him in.

"Child, what nonsense are you spouting!" I knocked his hand off his eyes again and said softly, "Who told you all this nonsense?"

Jiayi choked with sobs, holding back his sobs and not saying a word.

I shifted him onto my knees. "You're my younger brother, and they're also my younger brothers. You're both my family! How could I have killed them? "

The crying voice of Jianyi became a little softer, and his stiff back also became a little more relaxed.

I took the opportunity to strike the iron while it was still hot and continued, "Of course I care about family justice! I care about you, and I care about the letter, the family, ah! It's only because I take care of you that I pay more attention to you and your future. Your elder brother is already ten years old this year. He already knows how to take care of himself, so he doesn't need his elder sister's care. Your third brother is still too young, and needs the care of his concubine, not me, your big sister, don't you think so? "

Following what Jiayi had said, it was not hard to find out why he said things like "I don't care about him".

If I wanted him to kill his brother when he grows up, then to me, he would be a killing weapon. It was simply a use of the relationship between them, so naturally, I would not care about him.

A lie like this was easily seen through by an adult. If I really wanted to kill these two brothers, then I'd have to take advantage of the fact that they're still young and waiting for them to grow up one by one, and then I'd have to go crazy.

However, he was just a child. He had the ability to think, but could not think too deeply into it. [I thought that my usual teachings to him were just to make sure he grows up and to make him grow up so that he can kill people.]

I couldn't help but feel lucky that if I hadn't turned around just now, I would have completely wasted the life of this child, and this would have allowed the person who was secretly playing tricks to succeed.

In fact, there are not many people who have access to the righteousness of the family. In fact, they were all dispatched from under my command, yet they allowed these words to travel into the child's ears and caused such a farce. I have to reflect on this, I have been working so hard to straighten out my relationship with the family for a long time, have I neglected my own courtyard and caused the fire in my own backyard to start burning now?

It seems that I really should tell Lan Li about this matter.

This wasn't something that could be done just by punishing a few little girls. Killing a chicken for the monkeys to see was something they could control.

I made up my mind in my heart, but I couldn't leave immediately. After comforting my family, I deeply felt the weakness and loneliness in the child's heart. It was as though a cell that couldn't be touched by the sunlight had trapped an innocent soul within.

As I kicked him, I patted his back to coax him. I smiled and asked, "Can big sister find a few servants for you to play with?"

Because he had just cried, his eyes were bright and clean, just like the reflection of Haoyue in a well. Blinking his eyes, he spoke in a muffled voice: "Really?"

An unknown part of his heart was stabbed.

I thought that if I took him to the garden and let the maidservants play with him, he would be happy.

I also exclaim that this child is very clever and sensible.

So that's not the case.

When I think about it, the demands he made on me were very few compared to the average child.

He had never asked for a toy before.

"I... I don't want it anymore! "

He peeked at my face and thought that it was because I was unhappy that my face was dark. He hurriedly rejected me, "I don't want it anymore …"

I smiled and patted his head. "In a few days, you will be better. Elder sister will bring the person over for you to choose for yourself."

Today, when Grandmother mentioned it, I secretly thought about a few candidates. They were all untainted children from the same family. I just didn't know how the children were, and if they were compatible with the family.

Therefore, he might as well let Jiayi choose one for himself, so that he could have some fun in the future.

She was still a child after all. Knowing that she had to have a playmate of her own age, she soon became happy. Wiping her tears and snot, she raised her head and asked, "Big sister, can I have a dog?"

I frowned.

While smoothing out his messy hair, I said, "It's not impossible for you to raise a little dog, but you're still too young. If you can't take care of a little dog, why don't you wait for two years?"

Jiayi pouted, looking unhappy as he struggled to break free from my embrace.

I smiled and patted his back. "If you do well and listen to big sister, obediently go and study with big brother. I'll get you a puppy."

Jia Yi suddenly stopped jumping off my knees and turned around. His face was filled with surprise as he asked, "You're studying with big brother?"

I nodded and gave Lan Xi a meaningful glance. Lan Xi hurriedly carried my family onto the bed.

I took the opportunity to stretch my numb legs and buttocks.

"Obediently go and read with your brother, is that not okay?"

Jia Yi was suddenly overjoyed. With a silly grin, he said, "Didn't Big Brother want to follow Mister to study? How do you have the time to teach me? "

I felt a pang of sadness.

It turned out that I had unwittingly deprived a child of the opportunity to be educated.

I smiled and patted his head. "I still need to discuss this with your brother!" Looking at the excited look on Jiayi's face, I couldn't help but exclaim. The kinship that Grandmother had mentioned was thicker than water. So, it really did exist.

After exchanging a few words with Jiayi, he noticed that his eyelids were heavy. He must have been sick all night and had been making a ruckus. So, he told Lan Xi to send him to sleep because he was tired.

When I left for the East, the first thing I did was to find Lan Lingyun and talk to her.