C3 Seatmate

After being mixed with various emotions, there is one thing I need to deal with ; happiness. I can't be happy seeing him smile , I can't laugh with him because I can't fall enough. If I feel this rejoice in his presence , it might get difficult to move on, and suffer getting it again.

It was 8:00 and all students went back to their room, obviously arranging of seat positions is done during the first day. Our frst teacher named Dagta Litol was known to be a very dispciplined teacher and all the students from the school was obviously afraid oh him,knowing that he is strict. He came and started introducing himself. The whole class sit steadly , look their eyes forward and listened.

"Good morning everyone I am Teacher Dagta Litol your math teacher for this S.Y 2016-2017. I started liking math since I was 9 years old..." He continued.

(time skip )

(students shouting and quareling distantly)

"Teacher! Teacher my pencil was missing!!" one of my classmate shouted.

"OHh where was the last place you think you might left it?"

" we-well it was in the...--"

"Teacher Merlyn , teacher Merlyn! ," "Yes po?" ("po" a polite word used when talking to older ones.) "How, how to do this po?" (continous explaining and shouting)

Third row table, I was sitting on the 3rd seat watching everybody clattering and complaining. There are noises every corner I turn , coudln't wonder whom to talk first ; what a scattered and misbehaved student we are. As little kids , each of us seemed to have our own different worlds, we don't care for anything we cause because what we wanted is to express and to get what we ask for.

8 years ago Clark was classmate In grade 1. Probably as kid , I ought to focus on childhood games, happiness, fellowship,etc. ; I don't know if those days are countable to have a crush because I do. During those times I'm not assuring that i secretly like him because I was a kid, it can be easy to say and to claim things even if they're not true. Why should I say I like him without any evidence except the question itself. "WHY SHOULD I SAY I LIKE HIM? "

Why would I ask this, if there is nothing to bother right?

It was breaktime and we all went outside to buy some foods.Students we're pretty enthusiastic that they have to run, climb the car stairs, and jump at those side bricks. Every breaktime I go to my mom and ask for food; I usually don't know about allowance because I never handle money since my mom provides the food directly. After getting my food, I smiled as I waved goodbye to my mother. As I walk leaving my mom's office there was a sudden scream.

"AAAAAAAAAhHHH" --- Each steps of my feet begins to walk dashingly until I run while holding the food and I don't care if I slip because I need to see what happened. I kept running fast to see how things are going and then I make it to the spot where I couldn't clearly see the situation. Students were standing in a circular form and seemed to look so bothered. I walked near the scene,lifted my head ,atlast I was so surprised. Andrei's head was bleeding, the teachers that sorrounds him was all busy trying to medicate and assure if he had more induries ;our former teacher in math Dagta Litol was also there who lifted him up and brought him in the medication room.room.

"wh-what happened teacher?" I asked one of the teachers standing beside me.

people are murmuring around and I can't focus neither hear what my teacher was trying to say,and then I aksed for the second time.

" Andrei's nimbly attitude led him so far. Well, he climbed up to that car and tought he was spider man so he jumped and as he fall ,his head was the first to reach the ground. "

I chuckkles*

I was worried, but at the same time I was sarcastically laughing. Think about how little he is compared from that van he jumps off his height was not even the half of it.

"what a poor rude boy..." *saying these words while laughing inside my mind*

*chuckles* "sp-spider man? hahahhah mygoodness why even?--- hahaha"

That day I started remembering that his name was Andrei, the boy who thinks he is spider man, jump off the top of the van and got his head bleeding after.

(present)

After teacher Dagta finished introducing himself, he left us some advice for a new beginning of a highschool student. A couple of minutes later the second teacher approached that wasn't really our second subject teacher but our class adviser . Teacher Ellain spend few minutes to notified us about the school's rules and regulation. The activities are quite interesting , from the first annual event to the most exciting part at the end of the year; And so we are all filled in and hype up. As she also mentioned the class rules she immediately run for the thinking of arranging sitting positions properly.

"Ok class our table arrangement is gonna be different because we are doing the tables as how president do in coferences. The first table will be located at the back facing the board."

As it is said, we worked together placing our hands on every side of the table and lift it in a hurry as we put it down on its right position.

"The next two table will be facing each other and will be placed in different side of the room."

We followed the instructions and arranged the tables well. It wasn't finish ofcourse, Tteacher had to put eachof us on a specific chair. I was so excited thinking that maybe my past records of being a good girl can affect my behavior now;I was thinking to be placed beside our top 1 so I can get bright ideas and practiced talking in a matured way.

" ok, let's start at vaughn , vaughn you sit here..."

She pointed the chair and waited till my classmate get there.

"next is gonna be Jm and .... oh hi new student what's your name?"

"di-Divine" (in a very soft and low volume) The first reply wasn't heard

so the teacher asked again "I'm sorry what? don't be shy it's ok...speak louder"

then she repeated "Divine" .... the students who heard her say it even louder for her assuming that she was just so shy.

"oh Divine, haha thankyou ..come here sit with Jm"

Then as the teacher called each of my classmate I was getting a little nervous.

She already called my close friends and so on, I was still standing staring at them and where my positioned might be. Kimberly's name (our top 1) was the next called , I assume I was going to be next right after her..........but- then I'm not!

I hear my classmate murmuring and teasing me so I get curioused. I slowly turned my eyes around and saw him.

"NO, no no no no ....this........can't .................happen! " I said in my mind

There was just the three of us left: Zcedrick, me And Andre!

Teacher was already calling Zcedrick's name and just the two of us left!

I didn't see him, I forgot that he was there and I was just enjoying things not until I knew we we're gonna be seatmate.

"no, he can't be my SEATMATE! no!..... is that why my classmates are teasing me with him?!....

OH boy no way!

Eventually my teacher called the both of us and said that we sit beside each other. I can't do anything but to stare at the board all the time because I can't even imagine him being inch away from me. Silence and ignorance almost feed me all the time...Can't even say a single word.

"no, we can't be together...well he's just my seatmate nothing at all " (mind murmuring)

I wanted Julie to know the irritation and uncomfortable feeling that was in me, so i started staring her eagerly; But she can't observe it! Why?!

I don't know what will be next,he is quiet too.

As I sit, I don't know how to feel....I hate how things were doing, I'm a little happy that maybe somehow I can talk to him , I am unwell knowing that I could fall more and then fall alone.

I can't imagine seeing his smile and his laugh everyday near me.