C4 Broken

All day long I thought about the brief incident with Joe. Why do I feel so sorry huh? I also can't concentrate when the learning process in class is going on. I find it very difficult now. I took a deep breath. Mrs. Martha's explanation in front of me this time I could not believe it at all.

I am so uncomfortable studying lately. My mind is all over the place. Is this what you call growing up? I don't know, it's hard for me to focus on studying at school. I wanted to see Joe every day. I really didn't expect this. Joe just looked at me. When I ventured to come to the faculty building. I just stood around the park with a sad face in love. When I wanted to leave the park, I wanted to just turn around. Could it be that Joe just didn't take it seriously?

"Menia?" Joe's voice made me stop walking.

I turned to him. Then Joe hugged me.

"Why are you here?"

I looked down in shame.

"What happened yesterday?"

"Oh.. About it... I am sorry."

"Why are you apologizing?"

"Yeah, sorry if you don't like it," Joe said.

"Enggg," I fix my hair, "I like it."

"How much?" Joe lifted my chin with his finger.

"No.. I think I really like it."

"Are we going to do it again?" Joe asked with his wolf look.

"Which part did you like yesterday?" Joe whispered in my ear. I feel goosebumps. He touched my arm and twisted it gently.

I think I am in love with him. Joe licked my lips passionately. I returned the kiss. Does he feel the same as me? We stopped kissing for a moment. Then look for a quieter and hidden place.

Excitedly we took off our tops. And we kissed each other. We did it again. Joe has no qualms driving me crazy and drifting. We kissed each other until I felt crazy. Joe's scent is like an addiction to me. Our breaths seem to unite.

We begin to enjoy all the touch that stimulates and responds to each other. We speak with body language with love.

"I'm not strong anymore.." I said in a deep voice.

"I have to endure, because I have infinite power," he said grinning like a winner.

"Are we lovers now?" I need clarity on the relationship between us.

"Yes of course. Why are you still asking?" Joe said wiping the sweat off my forehead, "I love you, Menia. Since the first time I saw you."

"Me too, in love with you," I said with a flushed face. Is this normal for me? I feel like I am getting mad at Joe. From time to time, Joe and I saw each other often. And we often have free sex. I don't know this is right or wrong? My parents didn't forbid it anyway.

"Joe, you promise you won't leave me?" Somehow I feel this bond is getting stronger.

"Sure! Don't worry."

After college, I accidentally bumped into Shawl. He did not look as enthusiastic as before. He seemed indifferent to me and pretended not to see me. He instead chatted with the girls around who were chatting in the Corridor. Even though he was previously walking in the opposite direction from me. I think Shawl is avoiding me. Does he know about me and Joe? Did he see?

I can not imagine how embarrassing that would be. I really can't resist Joe because he's also quite popular with us.

He is one of Baraak's close friends. He must be popular too like my older brother. Since then, Shawl never bothered me again.

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Shawl Purple POV.

Today, on the princess's birthday, I'm actually planning to go on a date. But... Everything changed when she was with Joe at his birthday party. My heart ached so much when I saw them in such a passionate state.

Is their relationship that far? Why doesn't Menia refuse? Does that mean she's been in love with Joe all along?

Who is Joe?

All I know is he's just a beta from the Max clan. But somehow rumors circulated that he was actually just an adopted child. I'm not sure he's really from the same nation as us. It's just that I don't think anymore. Where did Joe come from? Obviously I'm heartbroken right now.

Even though I really miss Luna who was destined for me. I don't know why my heart wants to cry. But I'm a male. So I have to pretend I'm fine.

I try to avoid it everywhere I go. Every time I meet him. I did not dare look at Menia's face again. My heart aches from disappointment.

Like this morning I met Menia again. I tried to avoid it by pretending to chat with the other girls. It's really unexpected, that I would be heartbroken. Are the paranormal predictions wrong? About Luna.

It was at a night market. Me and my clan gang walked down the night market. One of us is trying to fit into the standard of the paranormal. Finally I stopped in front of them. This is very interesting. Because when it was my turn, the shaman said "you have to go through all the meetings with your luna. At first, there were some problems. But after that it won't be anymore."

I frowned. This really sounds weird.

"Can you give me a clue who Luna is destined for me?"

"Hmmmm... I guess not far from you. Your families are hostile. She's from the Pomp clan."

"Pomp?" I'm wide-eyed. Because actually the only girl my age is Menia. It's a bit difficult if I can't understand him. Menia is a girl who is said to be not easy to beat even though many men are after her.

"Okay.. Thank you for your divination." I said.

I get addicted to the topic of divination every time I come there. Between believe and not believe.

Tonight, I came again to that place. And I came alone. Without my clan friends. Because there is something I want to ask the psychic.

"Are you coming again?" She said with a wry smile. I tried to make myself as calm as possible. Even though I feel heartbroken all day long. I saw Joe and Menia's affection again. I really feel like I want to fight with Joe. But I am not ready to be scolded by Menia. Besides, what can I get from Menia? She does not love me. There's no point in fighting with Joe.

"Are you in trouble now?" Ask the psychic.

I nodded firmly.

"There will come a time when she will love you," she said as if he knew everything what had happened.

"You are not kidding, are you, madam?"

"Why am I kidding?"

"I am really heartbroken."

"She will love you someday. Trust me. Don't despair. Keep being nice to her."

"Okay.. Thanks for the advice."

I gave her the money because she wanted to give me an idea of

what was going on.

At school, I tried not to appear to be avoiding her.

There are group assignments that require us to work in groups. But when a teacher said my name and Menia. I was shocked because it felt awkward but I should have pretended to be stupid or didn't know what was going on by being them.

"We're a group right?" Menia asked me when I was suggested by a group friend mentioned by the teacher.

"Yeah" I answered simply.

"May I sit down?"

"Go ahead..." I act unconcerned.

My heart felt like it was about to explode.

"We will work on this task for up to a week. And we will meet often," said Menia.

"Yes, I know," I answered simply. Though I've tried not to seem too changed. But it turns out I can't. I can't lie that I'm feeling awkward right now. I didn't feel free to tease her anymore. But ever since that kiss, I wanted to make it mine. But now, changing so fast.

"You're dating with Joe?"

Mina was silent for a moment.

"Why do you want to know?"

"I saw you both."

Menia looks uncomfortable. Her face was pale.

"You saw everything?"

I fell silent. That's why it hurts my heart to see the girl who should be mine being touched by someone else, and the problems thing is this girl didn't reject Joe. If she had turned down Joe's invitation, I would've had a fight with Joe.

I sighed. This is a bit annoying indeed.

"Joe and I are dating," Menia said without feeling any guilt.

"Yeah, I see. I'm just asking," I said covering my disappointment.

I smiled at him.

"So when are we going to study together?" I asked him breaking the awkward atmosphere.

"It is up to you," said Menia with an innocent face. I don't understand why she didn't reject Joe. She doesn't know who Joe really is? I don't think she's from the same nation as us. I have an analysis that Joe is an intruder.

"Tonight we'll go together, okay? It's impossible for me to go to your house. Your family is my family's sworn enemy. They will definitely kick me out if I come there. Especially studying with you."

"Yes, later you will tell me where the place you want is," said Menia.

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