C43 At a loss

Nikolai's POV

I couldn't explain exactly what was going on, it felt like I was going crazy. I still couldn't believe that I hadn't been making any progress in getting my revenge. I was shocked, confused, and for some reason, angry...

It was as though the anger began to manifest as soon as I acknowledged the fact that I was angry. I refused to accept that it was my fault. It wasn't..