C55 Chapter 54

As soon as I entered our room, the tears that I had been holding back started to fall. My mind was also filled with questions. Why are they together? Is Ciffer the important way of Trigger that he tells Mama? No wonder he was in a hurry to leave because he was going to meet the woman he really loved and wanted to be his wife if... if Baby and I hadn't happened in his life. Until I fell asleep crying.

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"Cipher everything will be fine, just trust me." I woke up hearing a faint voice talking not far from where I was lying and even though I didn't look I knew it was Trigger. I opened my eyes a little and immediately saw Trigger and I's dark room. Looks like I slept too long! I immediately turned around and Trigger turned to face me. Even though I can't see, I can feel his eyes on me so I pretended to be asleep.

Even here at our house is he still talking to Ciffer? They were already together earlier! Trigger lost his attention when he was talking to Ciffer on the other line.

"You know I care for you no matter what." And then he sighed. "I'll see you tomorrow, Ciffer. You should rest now." Trigger suddenly walked to the balcony and then I heard the door open and close so I didn't hear anything else he was saying to Ciffer.

I spent a few minutes before slowly getting up from my bed. It's not that dark in the room because the moon is shining on the young men who haven't pulled down the curtains yet. Sigh. I can feel the pain in my chest. Where my heart is.

If you only know Trigger, I've loved you for a long time but I always get hurt because of you. And since I wasn't hungry, I decided to sleep again. The next thing Iknew, my light hitting my eyes and even if I was too lazy to wake up I had no choice. I slowly opened my eyes and immediately looked at the other side of my bed.

No tangles, no marks that I slept here last night. Sigh. Immediately if you felt the heaviness of my chest. Where did he sleep last night? Did he leave and go to Ciffer? Why did he take Mom and me from where we lived if he was going to leave me too – Mom and I are here at her house without saying goodbye.

But why would he say goodbye to me? Or maybe he wants to say goodbye but I'm still asleep when he leaves. Urgh! I'm confused! My conversation with myself was interrupted by a series of knocks that I heard from outside the room.

"Miss, are you awake yet?" One of the maids asked me from outside the room. I cleared my throat and answered her.

"Uhm. Seńyorita is already waiting for you downstairs." Is Trigger still here? Oh Maybe he just arrived.

"Okay, just a moment, I'll fix it." It took me almost two hours to fix it because I was really slow to move. My stomach is so heavy. Baby grew really fast inside my tummy. I'm so excited to see him in person, hug him and shower him with lots of kisses. I caressed my stomach and then I said –

"Baby, Mommy loves you so much." And then I left my room with Trigger. I even frowned when I saw one of the maids standing by the door.

"Uh. What are you doing?" I asked him in wonder. I don't know what his name is because I just saw him here at the mansion. Maybe he's new. He shyly smiled at me and then greeted me with 'good morning' and answered my question.

"Señorito asked me to wait for you until we get down, Señorito." I touched my forehead and then I apologized to him.

"Sorry. I thought you left after you asked if I was awake. So I said goodbye and I'll fix it. I wish you'd said to let me in and didn't wait for me. You're still singing while standing there."

"O-it's okay Seńyorita." He was shy to answer me. And because I was curious, I also asked him.

"I just saw you. Are you new here? What's your name?" One after another if you ask him.

"Yes, Seńyorita, I'm new here. I just arrived last night. My name is Julia, Seńyorita." I nodded to what Julia said and then I also said my name. I also asked how old he was and found out that if we were the same age, he was born a few months earlier than me. Until we reached the dining room.

Trigger was sitting in the middle seat while Mama was on his right. They talk and even laugh a little. And it's a miracle that Trigger isn't wearing a suit and tie today. He's just in casual attire. They stopped talking because maybe they sensed Julia and I's arrival.

They looked at our behavior and Trigger and I immediately met our eyes. Then I remembered Cipher again. When they are together, that's why he didn't accompany me to Baby's check-up. When he talked to Ciffer on the phone inside the room. Well, he can't even buy me a cell phone so we can somehow communicate.

"Good morning." I greeted them in a flat tone. Mama smiled at me and then she also greeted me and asked how my sleep was and if I had morning sickness. While Trigger is simply 'morning'was my answer and then he continued eating his breakfast.

I can't help but be annoyed with him. It was obvious that he was forced to wish me 'morning'. What's wrong with this man? I'm not doing anything bad to him! I should be the one to be angry because he is still seeing his ex after we are married! He should be mine!

I made it difficult for him even though he didn't see it and chose to sit next to Mama instead of on the right side where I should be sitting. Julia immediately came to me and asked me what I wanted to eat while she poured hot milk into my glass. There were many different dishes on the table, I couldn't help but eat them, they all looked delicious but before I could choose, Mama spoke.