C67 Chapter 66

I'm starting to worry, so I told Trigger why I was crying. He didn't say anything, he just listened to what I was saying until I finished telling the story, and I didn't even hear a single word from him. I finished taking a breath, he still didn't say anything, that's why I stood up and was about to say goodbye when he caught the one I was going to kiss and -

"Trigger!" How come I landed on his lap? Immediately I felt the heat of my whole face including my ears. He immediately wrapped his arms around my waist so I was completely trapped in his arms, he wasn't satisfied yet and he put his chin on my right shoulder, I could feel the heat of his breath on my neck.

"I hate it... when I see you cry." He told me in hard English. I don't know what to say. Shall I answer him in English too? But I don't really know how to speak English! Or I should just answer him in Tagalog, but... what can I say? In the end, I remained silent and let him do what he would do.

He removed his one hand from hugging my waist - but his other hand was still left on my waist and his hug was still so tight that I couldn't move from sitting next to him.

"T-Trigger... I might see you." But there's really no one because we're behind the mansion and almost no one comes here when they just have something to get or do.

"No one goes here Nicole, it's only us who goes here." He answered me. 'Let me go! I'm not comfortable with our position.' I wanted to answer him but I swallowed my tongue because no matter how many times I opened my mouth to speak, no voice came out.

"Nicole." I blinked a few more times before I came back to the present.

"You've been an idiot for a while now." He added. I shook my head and then I asked him.

"Why is that..." I was still hesitating if I should ask him about his role in the phone call with Ciffer but before I could control my mouth, I asked him too. In the end I bit my lower lip too, because of the nervousness.

"Uhh. T-did Ci-Ciffer call?" I asked him in a weak voice. I couldn't even look directly into his eyes, my heart was beating so fast that it felt like it was blocking my throat. A few moments passed but I still didn't hear an answer from him, so I slowly raised my eyes and that's how I softened as our eyes met.

I couldn't read any emotion in his eyes or even on his face which made me even more constipated. You are really stupid Nicole! You shouldn't have asked Ciffer! He doesn't seem to want us to talk about Ciffer! And he's probably mad at me now! Imbiss we're okay now, it looks like we're back to zero again. Geez! I should really think about what I'm going to say before I say it, I'm really going to ruin it!

"She's at Mom's and Dad's. They're waiting for us Nicole."

"W-what?" If earlier my heart was just blocked in my throat, now I'm going to throw up from being so constipated.

"W-why is he there?" Trigger is tired and weak when asked. Is he there so that they can unite me? Whose side is Trigger on? Geez! Is that still being asked? Probably Cipher's!

He loves it! That's why Mom and I are in his power now because I'm pregnant with his child! If the baby isn't here, Mom and I won't be here either. It also took a while before Trigger answered, which made me worry even more.

"Mom invited her." Trigger gave me a simple answer after a while as if everything was missing from him. Maybe he already knows, right? It's impossible! He must know that Ciffer and I are friends, right?

Why do I feel like he is locking me in a situation where I really have no escape. That I will be stressed and stressed without a fight even though I am strong and I deserve a reason for everything that happened then and is happening now.

I would like to find a way to cancel the dinner because Ciffer is also there waiting for us. What are they talking about with Trigger's Mommy? Is Ciffer slandering me to Trigger's parents? Did he say that I became a bedwarmer for rent with Trigger? That I traded my honor and dignity for money. If Trigger's parents knew that, I'm sure they would be mad at me right now.

Maybe they won't let me enter the mansion anymore and just throw me away. Pain immediately enveloped my heart and I couldn't help but cry but I just held it back. Trigger looked at me. Watching my every move. I can't make a mistake in my actions but he will take care of it. He will only know that I am hurt. He will know the reason... that I still love him. He'll just feel sorry for me or maybe even laugh at me because I still love him even though I'm just here at his place for our baby.

In terms of what I don't want and what I want, Trigger's parents and... Ciffer and I will face each other.

I just closed my eyes tightly and then sighed and after a few moments when I was a bit confused I let Trigger go to his parents' house.

"Mom where are we going?" Because Mom picked me up from behind the mansion – Trigger and I were supposed to meet today but he took a long time to come – until Mom came and then she pulled me into the mansion. I thought we would eat lunch and go straight to the back if you were in the dirty kitchen but no, instead we went to the front part of the mansion and we kept going somewhere. While we were walking, I couldn't help but wander my eyes to the large pictures displayed on the wall.