C74 Chapter 73

"You really are an apple! You heard it!" I complained to him.

"But are you seriously high? You're a crazy girl! He'll hit you later-" He didn't finish what he was going to say when I hit him right away. It's good that we're next to each other.

"Gaga! My role here is poor and then I'm going to do more drugs! It's serious because Ciffer." And then I tortured him. He stared at me as if he could read my mind. So the ending is when I told him, where it all started on prom night.

"Oh what's your plan now? You can't avoid Trigger forever, especially since you only live in the same house and like you said you can't stop him from flirting with you." And then he grinned at me. I just held my breath.

"What if I look for another man to focus on so I can discourage Trigger." Ciffer's eyes widened at the suggestion I said.

"'The feeling is just a wattpad story. Wait a minute... do you not like Trigger even a little bit? Why! Well, almost all of our female schoolmates like him! It's impossible not to like him even a little bit !" I immediately grabbed my chest. My heart is beating fast again, Trigger is not here. We were just talking about him but if my heart could react - in the end I just sighed and said nothing myself -

"I love him too."

"I love him too..." And then I sighed. "but..."

"Just what?"

"It's Ciffer! It's like you don't watch movies and teleseryes! Mama and I are Trigger's parents. I owe a lot to them but because of earlier I will not be able to continue studying and I will not be able to meet you. I don't want to think that..."

"That you flirted with their daughter in case you become one?" Ciffer continues to like so to speak. I held my breath again and then nodded slowly. He put his arms around me and then he also sighed.

"Is that what you really want to happen? Did Trigger stop you? You said you love him but what if you see him with someone else later? You can do it? Won't you be hurt?" He asked me one after another.

Then all of a sudden I imagined Trigger who was my companion with another girl, they were holding hands and happy. I grabbed my chest again, my heart was beating fast again but... in a painful way now. Again, if I turned my gaze to Ciffer and I met him, he immediately thought that he was concerned for me.

"I can't. I can't do that. My chest hurts, I can only imagine." I gave a weak answer to Ciffer.

"Then follow what your heart wants."

During the following days I couldn't stop Trigger, I couldn't stop myself either. When Trigger texts, I reply to him. When he invites me to lunch I will agree but I invite him to eat at ODB where Ciffer and I ate. It's a good thing that this guy isn't choosy even though... you know he's a rich kid.

I couldn't believe that he was so happy when I brought him to ODB. He was shocked to the point of not believing that the food outside the school was cheap. I just got what I used to be, the son of a rich man. How come the food in our school's pantry is worth gold, well it's no wonder, a rich child is studying there.

"Thank you Nicole." Trigger told me after we ate but we didn't get up yet. I frowned. Why is he thanking me? Well, I didn't free him! I made it clear to him earlier that we are KKB. You know my peg is a gate.

"I didn't free you." I answered him.

"What I mean to say is, thank you for bringing me here. I never enjoyed eating lunch not until now. I'm really happy that my first time here is eating with you." And then he smiled at me while taking his hand. He squeezed it gently which made my heart beat faster, butterflies disappeared from my tummy and I could feel my face heating up from the sweetness of Trigger's nonsense. I couldn't stay looking at him either, so I just looked away and slipped away -

"C-come on... we might be late for the next subject." And then I simply withdrew my hand and stood up from where I was sitting. Urgh! I don't know how to react! I'm not used to this... urgh! What is it called? Flirting? Dating? Eh! Just wait! He didn't ask if he could flirt! He just said he loves me. Sigh.

I thought when you add x and y, that's the most complicated thing I've encountered, because it's not used when you go grocery shopping, but we're just studying that... that's even more complicated and that's what we call love. Sigh.

"I'll take you to your classroom." Trigger said to me while we were leaving ODB. I nodded but that's how my eyes widened and I lost my heart when Trigger hugged me. I just bowed. My people are watching. What if... what if it gets to Trigger's parents? And before I changed my mind, I said what should have been in my mind.

"Trigger... can you take your hand off? B-I might see us." Weak to say to him. He stopped walking so I also stopped since he was on my arm. He looked at me seriously and then asked –

"Are you embarrassed to be with me Nicole?" He asked me without emotion. My eyes immediately widened. My heart beat faster for a reason I don't understand, my stomach also hurts as if it makes me feel that what I said was wrong.

"Trigger –" And before I could finish what I was going to say. He removed his hand from around me and then without any emotion he answered me with –