C77 Chapter 76

I didn't do anything bad to Trigger, so I can't really imagine that Trigger would do that to me and it doesn't seem to be in his personality. Sigh. It looks like I've been overthinking things that will never happen.

"Is there something wrong?" I just lost my attention looking for Trigger's voice when I heard it. I turned to look at him, my heart immediately disappeared inside my ribcage when our eyes met. I even bit my lower lip. I just shook my head because I couldn't speak.

He took both hands and brought them closer to his face. I immediately forgot what I was thinking when he slowly brought his mouth to the back of my hand. I still held my breath when his soft lips stuck to the back of my hand.

"T-Trig...ger." I called him weakly. He also moved his face away from my hands and then he smiled at me which made my heart fall to my stomach.

"Let's go. We might be late." And then he pulled me closer to his car. He opened the door for me in my shotgun seat. I even bit my lower lip to stop smiling but in the end I just ended up smiling and Trigger smirked.

But before I could finally get out of the gate of the mansion, I don't know why but I suddenly caught a glimpse of Trigger's parents' room on my balcony of the mansion, as if they were looking at us... at me. My heart immediately changed when I saw Trigger's mom looking at her car.

I know that the car window is tinted, but I really can't stop being afraid of the way Trigger's mom looks. It's like he knows what's going on with Trigger and he can clearly see what we're doing inside Trigger's car but we're not doing anything... or nothing yet.

I lost my attention on Trigger's mom who was leaning on my balcony when Trigger took one of the hands that was resting on my lap and then he held her hands in his hand. My full attention was fixed on him while he just focused his eyes on the road.

While we were on the trip, Trigger glanced at me while smiling. I can't help but be unconscious. I really wanted to take my hand back from his grip because he might be having trouble driving, but I didn't have the courage to speak, until we got to the school parking lot. It was like I was able to breathe properly, but I was a little sad because we can't hold hands anymore.

I thought we were about to go out so I tried to open the door but Trigger only tightened his grip on my hand, that's why I looked at him. He was just looking at me seriously which made my knees rest.

"Trigger baka malat –" I couldn't finish what I was going to say when he gently squeezed my hand and then he spoke making me stop what I was about to say.

"We need to talk Nicole." My heart was immediately enveloped by what he said. I'm not ready yet! I don't even know what to say. I tried to open my mouth so I could answer him, but in the end I just bowed. I really don't know what to say! What added more pressure was the fact that he was just looking at me as if he could see what was on my mind.

Is that it? Is this the moment where he will admit that he just cheated on me? But it's weird because I should be embarrassed by our schoolmates but it's just the two of us here. Maybe it's my camera that's inside his car that's connected to the TVs scattered around the school and our schoolmates are watching it now.

Maybe I should go ahead of him. Yes, I should go ahead of him! So also -

"I-I was just confused last night!" There's no stopping what I said while shaking my head to make it look more believable. But langya! My heart hurts! It hurts to lie to the person you love. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from crying.

"Don't you dare lie on me!" Trigger told me with authority that finally made me shed tears. I can't stop crying either.

"I am not drunk last night. I know what's happening and what I'm doing." He told me emphatically. I can also clearly see how his jaws are moving in so much... anger? Why? Why are you angry Trigger?

"Let's just forget about... what happened last night." I gave him a poor answer. I closed my eyes tightly when he cursed one after another. He also loosened our holding hands and then punched the steering wheel of his car one after the other, as if he was pouring out all his frustration. My whole system was immediately filled with worry.

I don't want to see Trigger hurt. I don't want it! It's better that I'm the only one who gets hurt instead of him. That's why I immediately hugged him, he even hit me with his elbow but I didn't care.

"Stop that please." I whispered to him. Fortunately, I put my chin on his shoulder and then hugged him very tightly.

I felt that he calmed down a bit with my whispering, but it was in exchange for losing my heart because of what he said.

"Tell it to me again." At first I wondered what he meant until he spoke again. "Tell me you love me, just like how much I love you."

"Trigger." Fainting to whisper his name.

"Nicole." And then he turned to me. Immediately my eyes met his pleading eyes, in the end I closed my eyes tightly, took a breath and opened my eyes again. I told him what he wanted to hear from me.

"I love you Trigger. I love you so much."

The days passed quickly as if it was just the blink of an eye, until one day I realized that Trigger and I were officially boyfriend and girlfriend, the only thing I knew was the two of us. I still don't have the courage to tell Ciffer even though we're still BFFs because even now I still can't believe that we're on.