C81 Chapter 80

"Uh. It's not there." I gave a weak answer to Trigger. We are on a trip again today to celebrate our fourth monthsary. I'm already ashamed of him because he's my surprise again while I don't even have a gift for him. Mama's birthday is coming up next week. And it was just right that I saved up enough for a birthday gift for Mama. It's really good and Trigger understands me.

Almost three weeks have passed since knowing if Ciffer and Mrs. Steinfield. So far I haven't seen any interaction between the two of them, but it was reported in the news how their company Trigger is growing because of the help of their company Ciffer.

Isn't that really the case in the business world? So I should have nothing to worry about. At least my best friend's company is helping the company of my love. There's nothing wrong with that, right? But I really can't stop worrying, because it's really my fault. I don't know what's wrong with me.

Trigger's mommy has also been busy with their business so she only comes to the mansion once in a while. I'm thankful that at least I don't have his constant attention anymore, unlike in the past when his eyes were so warm.

It's like Trigger's Mommy and Daddy have changed because his Daddy is always alive. I don't have that, Mr. Masado is as kind as he is. Steinfield that's why when he goes up to the library for coffee - which is also his office - I also bring him a snack that he enjoys.

And because I don't have a father, Mr. is like my real father. Steinfield. I feel so relieved for him, I also think that but because of him and his wife, Mama and I would not be able to afford for me to study in a very good school.

Sometimes I feel sad because I feel like I'm betraying them. They don't know that Trigger and I are in love. I know that if it was just Trigger, he would have told everyone he knew and probably even his parents about us. I know his mommy, I still haven't lost what he said to me last time.

Trigger and I don't fit. He made sure that I would understand that well, should he make me look like he was after welcoming Ciffer when he came to visit me last time. What if Cipher is what he wants for Trigger? I can only imagine that my chest is tight with pain.

"You're thinking too much baby." I didn't even notice that Trigger's car had stopped. Here he is again and his face is very close to mine. I was intimidated again by his presence. My heart is losing its thrill and trembling again. He wasn't satisfied yet and he grabbed my chin so I couldn't look away from him.

"Tri...gger." He smiled at me until he brought his face closer to mine while he slowly closed his eyes until our lips were touching. I couldn't help but smile at the misery caused by Trigger's kiss which only lasted for a few moments.

"I love you, Nicole."

"I love you too Trigger." I answered him smiling while our foreheads were still touching. We also hold hands.

"Happy fourth month, baby." He added.

"Happy fourth." I said smiling at him, but my smile immediately disappeared and was filled with sadness, which he also immediately noticed.

"What's wrong? You've been like that since earlier. You know you can tell me anything." I sighed and said that he was my only thought.

"You're always my surprise for me every monthary and then I'm gone." His shoulders slumped as he said.

"Is that all bothering you?" He answered me. There is no more. 'Do you know why your Mommy loves Ciffer so much?' I slowly nodded and smiled so that he could be sure that was all I was really worried about.

"Sorry." I added in a low voice. I heard his soft sigh and then he took my hands and squeezed them and then he kissed the back one by one.

"I don't need any surprises from you Nicole and I assure you I understand why."

"But -" And before I could continue what I was going to say, Trigger's kiss sealed my lips again but like his previous kisses it only lasted a moment but it was enough to make my whole face warm.

Urgh! We've been dating for four months but I'm still like a high school girl who just has a crush on him and is immediately thrilled by the little attention my crush gives me. The weird is shocking! But maybe that's because I really love Trigger.

"Being with you is the best gift ever. So, just stay with me. Love me like I do, that's all I need Nicole."

"Babe, why are you taking so long?" I asked Trigger. After our drama portion, he suddenly requested that I close my eyes, so I did. Then the next thing I knew my blindfold was in my eyes.

"What is this for?" And then I felt my eyes closed.

"Just wait." He answered me.

"It's been a long time." I answered him. He was helping me out of the car after he told me to just stand up because he was going to do it inside the car. I'm really weird.

"I'm almost done." And then I heard the opening and closing of his car door.

"D amn! It's cold." I heard Trigger say softly. My forehead was furrowed. How will he cool down? He's also wearing a jacket.

"Trigger! What is your surprise? And why are you cold?" I asked him again especially when I felt his presence in front of me. "Can I take it off?" And then I touched the blind fold.

"I'll do it." He answered me, so I lowered my hand and let him remove his hand. At first my vision was still blurry but when I closed my eyes again and then I rubbed my eyes, my vision became clear again.