C98 Chapter 97

"It's a good thing, baby, you're here to comfort Tita. That's why I love you so much." I told baby Mikan while Amara said goodbye that we will do housework. I agreed and said that I will take care of baby Mikan first.

"Fren is going home too." I turned to Amara who was leaning against the door jamb. I smiled at him as he walked slowly to cuddle with baby Mikan. I gently pinched baby Mikan's very fluffy and fat cheeks.

It's a good thing that baby Mikan is sleeping soundly so he doesn't wake up randomly. I just smiled and then I gently caressed her still thin hair and then I slowly stood up from where I was sitting, to make sure that baby Mikan wouldn't get excited.

He's not a crying baby, but he's so cute and energetic that I'll really enjoy him. That's why I go back and forth to Amara and Terrance's house because of baby Mikan. He is so adorable because at the same time lovable that's why it's hard to leave me often. Baby Mikan is Terrance and Amara's first daughter. She is eight months old.

"Have children too because you won't just be an Aunt, you'll also be a Mommy." Amara said excitedly to me and I frowned.

"You can get back together with your Hubby!" He added. My face looks worse. "Fren seems to be following baby Nick."

"Amara." I strongly called him. Until now, I'm still really sensitive to that topic. Amara sighed and then she came to me and gave me a tight hug.

"Sorry. I don't mean anything else. I just want you to have fun Fren." He said tenderly to me. "It's not possible while Terrance and I move forward in life that you are left feeling sad. I don't want that."

"I know but I don't feel like it's the right time for now."

"Eh, when is the right time? Well! Bess my experation date is our mattress! Remember that your son and my baby Mikan should be close in age, we will make them reconcile with each other." I laughed at what he said.

"Well, what if my future baby is also a girl?" Amara snorted when I answered her and then she let go of my hug.

"Hmp! I have a really strong feeling that your son will be a boy, Fren! Oh! Don't be shy!" I just laughed at Amara's mischievousness and since the night was getting pretty deep and for sure any minute from now Terrance would be coming, I decided to say goodbye too. It's still a long way from where I'm going home to Amara's house.

"Be careful fren." Amara told me and then she waved. I also waved and then finally entered my car. I closed my eyes tightly as I was alone again.

It's that feeling again, you can feel your loneliness. When you enter the beautiful and big house, you will be greeted by nothing but silence and darkness. I immediately wiped away the tears that fell on purpose because of sadness.

If only I could go back to the past. Where Mama and I are not rich, at least we are together and happy. Every time I come home he is there for me, we eat together and he knows that I am with him but now? I did get rich in the blink of an eye but why is that? I lost so much that I can't buy with the money I have now.

I just went straight upstairs to where the master bedroom is where my room is. I also like it because I'm alone at home. No maid to do housework for me. I don't need them because I know how to behave myself, so there is no problem. I don't want them to see me miserable either. I don't want them to pity me.

But this is what has always entered my mind since then, eh. How does it feel to stay awake because you are taking care of your baby who won't stop crying? It's so frustrating to the point that you want to cry because you've done everything but he still doesn't want to stay.

But for sure I will never give up on baby even if he doesn't want to stop crying. He is my son, I love him very much. I fell down on the bed and then I hugged the pillow that my hand touched first.

I closed my eyes tightly to stop my tears from falling but nothing, they still escaped no matter what I did if I closed my eyes. The pain is still as if it all happened yesterday. But why? I know I've been asking this over and over again but I really can't help but ask, was I really bad in my past life so I'm being punished like this now?

"I miss you so much, my baby." I whispered in the air and hugged my pillow even tighter. This is how it is, eh. Before I go to sleep, I will cry about the past until I fall asleep. Waking up in the morning as if I didn't cry every night.

But what if I fix my issue with Trigger? Maybe it's not too late to give a second chance, right? Maybe this time, our family will really be formed and then we will be given another baby with baby Nick? Urgh! I don't know, I'm really confused.

I was about to relax to fall asleep, but I heard a rustling from the first floor of my house. At first I thought it was just a stray cat, it happened once. I was going to die but the rustling got louder. That's why I opened my eyes and slowly felt yoongi right from the first floor.

It's also because my house is so quiet, so no matter what the noise is, I can and will still hear it. And now I really regret that you always used to turn off the lights inside my house.

What if the bad guy entered me? I don't know yet because of the darkness of my house. Then it's still a thief, would it be better if I was just robbed? What if... what if he stomps on me to rape and then kill me?