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Especially now, after the nephrectomy, he didn't even know how long he would live. How much suffering was this? [I actually hurt her again and again. How could I bear to do that? Why can't I be nice to her? Why can't I give her less trouble? Why can't I let her live happily and carefreely? What the hell am I doing?

As I thought about it, tears started streaming down my face