C6 6

When I got back to my room, I wore jeans and a blue T-shirt. I threw myself out of the room, tidying my hair haphazardly. Coming out of his room with his bag zipped up, Ahmet ignored me as usual. I ignored him like I always do, pretending I don't care. That's why I immediately poured the last milk left in the fridge into the glass cup. I threw the cardboard box in the trash under the counter and went into the living room.

I nervously started checking all the windows. Even though there were iron bars, they were nothing to someone who entered my house with ease! The first thing I would do would be to leave Ahmet and change the keys. I only had two hours because I was going to work late. I had to be fast. I stood up with my silent brother coming out of the kitchen door. Although I understood that he sensed the problem in his gaze, I had no intention of spoiling it.

"Let's go if you're ready," I told him without giving him a chance. At the same time, I tried to banish the tension in my voice. Although he looked at me for a few seconds, I started to put on my shoes without paying attention to him. He must have stopped looking too because he started putting on his shoes. When I looked at him secretly, I saw that he was looking at me too. He was just opening his mouth when I immediately turned the lock on the door. Even touching the lock made me feel good. I threw myself out. I ignored him even though he kept looking. When Ahmet left the house, I locked the door. I turned the key, even though I knew it wouldn't make much sense to lock it. I left the apartment as I took Ahmet's hand. The first thing I did when I got to the door was to look around. Everything was normal. So it was, wasn't it?

I was starting to go crazy and that was just the beginning. Whoever he was, he was going to face me literally soon, and I wouldn't know how to get out of his grip!

While returning to the street, I was startled by Ahmet's voice. "Is there a problem sister?" was there any problem? Doesn't it!. But I didn't know what kind of problem it was, how dangerous it was.

I took a deep breath. My eyes remained fixed on him after he wandered around. His eyes flickered with concern. "Well, my sister. I mean, it's nothing."

"You're lying to my sister. I can understand that."

"Why would I lie to you!" I sped up a bit by tugging at his hand. "You're going to be late for school, come on." We ended the conversation and started walking towards the school. Curious, he didn't speak.

After I saw Ahmet enter the school, I went to the key shop in the square. The first thing to do was to change the key. When we came to the house with the key maker, I pressed Aunt Rümeysa's bell, but no one opened the door. I pressed it a few more times and pulled out the spare key I had. When I turned the key, I saw that it was locked, and I locked the door before I could get back inside. It meant he wasn't home.

We had keys in each other. The state of humanity said she was my daughter, and she gave it first. I went and had a new key made the day he gave it to me and gave it to Aunt Rümeysa in the evening.

"Girl, the keys are okay. There are three edibles in it. You can duplicate them if you want."

"No!" I suddenly raise my voice in panic. With the man's eyebrows raised, I returned my voice to normal and continued. "So I don't need to duplicate. Thank you." I paid the fee and put one of the keys on my key ring and the others in the zippered secret place of my bag and went to work without entering the house. The house scared me. I didn't think I could be alone. Whoever he was would come again, and being alone with him would have been the end of my life, I think. It would be foolish to expect normal behavior from a person who frightened me with blood.

I walked quickly to the street where the market is located, checking my back. I was paranoid and I was right. I got goosebumps and the urge to vomit when that bloody writing swept through my mind.

"Good morning, Elif girl. No, you're early this morning." Serdar brother was also examining my face while arranging the cucumbers in the greengrocer. My figure was pale, I was aware of that. But there was nothing I could do. Without answering him, I took my phone from my bag with the message tone on my phone. It was a number I did not know. I immediately opened the message without waiting.

"Don't tell anyone about me, honey. I won't hurt you, but I will hurt them a lot and you will die of regret for not obeying!"

My eyes started to fill with tears as my face became whiter with what I saw. Who was this and what did he want from me?

"Elif... What happened to my daughter?" The hands on my shoulder felt as if they were hurting me. I pulled myself away and took a step back. I turned to Serdar, who was looking at me curiously, collecting my filled eyes. I opened my mouth but could not speak. The thought of her getting hurt because of me made a lump in my throat. I swallowed.

When I was able to compose myself, I forced my mouth open. "It's nothing... It's okay, Serdar brother. It's just… It's a dream. Yes, I had a bad dream and I'm under its influence." He knew my dreams. Some were so bad that I was wandering around like a spirit all day. I was seeing the lifeless bodies of my mom and dad and it was killing me. It was killing, but my heart was still beating thoughtlessly. That was too cruel...

"Daughter, don't be sad anymore. Think about your sister... You're an older sister. What should Ahmet do. He has suffered with his small body. Be strong and firm for your sister, Elif." Strong and solid... How would I stand? Nobody and Elif experienced the same pain, and you are right, cry, shout, call, vomit all your anger. Only you are the sister. you are big...

"Okay, Serdar brother. Anyway, I'll go inside. I won't distract you from your work." When he shook his head, I turned around and saw someone wearing a hat in the corner of the apartment across the street. Fear swept through my entire body, again capturing me. When I saw him, he shook his head and walked away. I was sure now. I had a pervert and I really pissed off that pervert.

How long did I stay there? I knew how long I looked behind him. I was able to come to my senses when Reyhan, the cashier, shook me. "Elif, why are you crying?" Was I crying? But why wasn't I feeling? Why was my heart pounding? Why is that? Why is that? Why is that!

"Elif, you don't look well, if you want, get permission from brother İhsan and go home."

I dried the tears that flowed from my eyes. How would I get home? The moment I left, it would be at my door and there was no such thing as 'And'. I couldn't accept the next one!

"No, I'm fine. I don't want to go home. Anyway, I'll change." I walked back and forth without looking at anyone's face. I apologized without looking at the faces of the few people I bumped into.

When I threw myself into the small room, I threw myself into one of the chairs. I covered my face with my arms on my knees. I was crying silently. I was scorched with feelings mixed with pain and fear.

I was literally cornered... And I, whoever it was, wouldn't be able to deal with it! It wasn't hard to guess. This was obvious. He would finish me off without mercy! Even though I couldn't see his eyes, they were black!

After crying for about half an hour, I went to work by washing my face in the sink in the room. My mind had to be cleared. There was no such person. This was my imagination! I was going crazy. Yeah! I was definitely going crazy.

I've been praying for hours to be sick. Going crazy was the easiest job for me. It was the only way out I could find.

Taking advantage of the space between lunch, I went to pick up Ahmet. I was more afraid that something would happen to him than myself. I could defend myself to some extent. But he was too young and could not defend himself.

I waited for Ahmet to come out with the ease of the crowd in the garden of the school. If I hadn't come, I had changed the key and he would have stayed at the door. With that in mind, I had done most of my work and it was easy for me to get time off.

Ahmet, who descended the stairs absentmindedly, did not see me. Since he did not think about my future, he started walking towards the iron gate of the school. "Ahmet!" I shouted. "Ahmet!" The glint in his eyes when he heard my voice must have been a figment of my imagination. Why should you be happy to see me?

"You came?" What he said stunned me. Ok, I didn't come all the time, but I tried to come whenever I had the opportunity.

"Brother are you okay?" I put my hand on his forehead and looked at his fire. He had no fever. So what did this kid have?

"I'm fine. How are you... You were a little bad in the morning." I smiled reassuring this little heart that was thinking of me. I squeezed his shoulder tightly.

"Don't worry I'm fine. Come on, I'll be late. I'll take you to Aunt Rümeysa. Don't go home until I come. You can't go though, I changed the keys."

"Neden?"

"Because... It's broken. I barely locked it in the morning, so I changed it so we wouldn't get too busy."

He didn't answer. He was thinking about what I said and he knew I was lying. But I didn't care. Now the most important thing was to protect him.

When we arrived in front of the apartment, I was surprised by the crowd I saw. No... All of the neighbor aunts were entering the apartment. I quickened my steps towards the apartment, tugging at Ahmet because of his sullen faces. Aunt Rumeysa's door was wide open. When I saw our upstairs neighbor Nermin sister, I ran to her. He looked at me as I grabbed his arm. His eyes were red from crying. He looked at me and shook his head to say sorry. I still don't understand what happened. More precisely, I wanted not to understand what I understood. "Elif... Rümeysa aunt..." I didn't let her finish her sentence.

"Shush!" I said in a whisper. "Please don't talk to Nermin sister... I'm not ready to hear." I certainly wasn't and I was devastated. He was my pillar. And… And now that pillar of mine had gone to my loved ones too? But he was fine...