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Cheng Shi felt that he had really aged. He had never had this kind of awareness before and always felt that there were still many years left for him to dream about. He could do many things according to his own mood. You can ignore a lot of things you didn't want. Just like the marriage.

Now Cheng Shi was aware that he had a son, and he was old enough to decide his fate. That was his age. The sign of aging was when Cheng Shi became docile. Compared to Cheng Shi, who used to gamble and drink all day long, the current him had learnt to sit still in a place and quietly drink his famous wine, smoke his famous cigarettes, and look at his famous man.

Since the day of Cheng Hanlong's mother's remarriage, Li Zhongxin felt that Cheng Shi had died. He had tied Cheng Shi up and easily subdued him, not allowing him to continue destroying the lives of others. It wasn't that he, Li Zhongxin, suddenly showed kindness, it was just that he didn't want Cheng Shi to be harmed again.

Li Zhongxin was a legendary figure in the outside world. He was a young man who had come to Beijing alone and dared to challenge his own world. The rules and theorems didn't work on him at all. However, in the bottom of his heart, there was a normal person's feelings, but this feeling was only limited to Cheng Shi. Ever since Cheng Shi started following him at the age of 18, Li Zhongxin had never felt that his attitude toward Cheng Shi had changed.

Even if he knew that it couldn't tie Cheng Shi's heart that day.

Even if he knew that Cheng Shi would definitely take revenge on him in the future, it wouldn't just be on the surface.

He still did it because of a simple but unspeakable reason.

The first time Li Zhongxin met Cheng Shi, he had already established his own world. At that time, he told Cheng Shi, "Cheng Shi, once you enter this path, you can forget about doing whatever you want. Here, all the things that you didn't have will be here; all the things that you didn't have will be gone as well." But from the moment he said that, Li Zhongxin betrayed the principle that he set himself first.

He thought he didn't need any emotional support. He hadn't had any since he was young, and it didn't matter even if he grew up. He had thought that sometimes when he was in a mood, everything came at his will, even if he wanted someone to love him now, perhaps in a few days he could make a woman or a man give up on him.

He did not feel that he was lacking anything. However, the moment he saw Cheng Shi, he found out that he was starting to want something, something that he originally disdained, but in the end, Cheng Shi actually dared to not give him something, and instead chose to guard him with his life. However, when he saw Cheng Shi, he found that he was starting to want something, but in the end, Cheng Shi actually dared to not give it to him, and actually kept guarding him with his life.

The first time Li Zhongxin took off Cheng Shi's clothes to tie him up, it was because of Cheng Shi's messy nature in the hotel. When Li Zhongxin took off his clothes, he realized that some people's bodies could take away other people's breath. Thus, he could not help but fall in love with the body and the helpless expression on Cheng Shi's face.

After the matter was over, Cheng Shi still did not have a long memory, and repeatedly tied up the crime, but did not know that he actually went along with Li Zhongxin's wishes, and became the voluntary gift of a good meal.

Cheng Shi had never been beaten by Li Zhongxin before. Sometimes, when he saw some bloody scenes, he wondered why he had never experienced this kind of punishment. Compared to being stripped naked and humiliated by others, Cheng Shi actually preferred to enjoy this kind of punishment. However, his dream was ultimately shattered. Li Zhongxin would never let anyone choose to punish him.

Li Zhongxin had spent a lot of money to build the mirage in Cheng Shi's heart, but he didn't expect that Li Zhongxin would be unwilling to wake him up even after he had been dreaming for more than ten years. Even if he was to indulge Cheng Shi to a level that everyone knew, Li Zhongxin didn't think that he overdid it.

Li Zhongxin had a deep memory of Cheng Shi's appearance at that time.

At that time, Cheng Shi wore a small hat, his face was full of sunshine, and his fake ruffian attitude seemed childish and cute in front of Li Zhongxin. Li Zhongxin had an impulse to gray him up, one day he finally got what he wanted, he began to miss Cheng Shi's initial sunshine again.

However, this equation could only be pushed from the front to the back, but not the back. Whether it was sunlight or gray, Cheng Shi always had this kind of beauty on his body. This beauty broke Li Zhongxin's bottom line.

Cheng Shi once said to Li Zhongxin: "I also tried to live a normal life, have their own love, and then read a book when there is nothing to do. I like to read books, I can even write poems, if you ignore my style problems, in school I am a scholar. "

Li Zhongxin immediately said: "Then you make one for me!"

Cheng Shi thought for a while, then wrote an emotional poem towards the moon. After reading it, he added, "People like you won't understand it well."

Li Zhongxin didn't give any comments at the time, but he knew everything.

Cheng Shi fell in love with Gong Zhi, a man he did not know, he thought it was brotherly love, so much so that when Gong Zhi fell in love with Cheng Hanlong's mother, he felt the reason he could not bear it was because Gong Zhi did not share everything that a brother should have shared with him.

He didn't want to see Gong Zhi with a woman, he was the only friend that could not be taken away by anyone. If Gong Zhi insisted on staying with her, then Cheng Shi would just rob him and Gong Zhi would only have him as a friend.

It was too late when he realized that he had fallen in love with Gong Zhi. This relationship had long been a thing of the past. Actually, there was nothing to be regretful about. Gong Zhi was just an ordinary person. Even if he knew about Cheng Shi's abnormal love, he would only give him tolerance.

However, Cheng Shi didn't love him anymore. In fact, he didn't love him for a long time. He was just brooding over the feelings he had when he was young. He remembered their quarrels and festivals, and the love that had always been so detailed was corroded by such things and times.

Cheng Shi had never thought of himself as having feelings for Li Zhongxin, because he had always thought that Li Zhongxin would not give them away, so he had never taken the risk. Although sometimes Cheng Shi really felt that Li Zhongxin's eyes were concerned for him, that Li Zhongxin's indulgence had not been supported by a few good moods for so many years, he would still try to persuade himself to give up this hope.

It was only when Cheng Shi was old that he slowly understood. Even though his appearance was still attractive in Li Zhongxin's eyes. But Cheng Shi's heart had already become fragile. Sometimes he would find a place to lie in Li Zhongxin's arms and ask, "Was I also quite innocent back then?"

Li Zhongxin would nod with a smile and carry him in his arms for a while. Cheng Shi wouldn't pester him over such a small matter, and that's when Li Zhongxin started to talk to Cheng Shi on the day of Gong Zhi's wedding.

He said, "If you want to make trouble, then do it! I won't tie you up again in the future. Whatever you want to do, it's up to you. This is the last time. "

Ever since then, Cheng Shi did not cause any more trouble.

Li Zhongxin thought his heart had died, but in reality, Cheng Shi's heart was alive again after a few years. This time, it was for Li Zhongxin. A person who had accompanied him for nearly 20 years, a person who would strip and tie up Cheng Shi if he couldn't help it, a person who could give him whatever Cheng Shi wanted, a person who could not let Cheng Shi be tied down by his emotions.

Cheng Shi felt that he should be satisfied now. Even if some things were not said out loud, or were not willing to admit and admit defeat, it was still a real existence. Li Zhongxin loved him just like he already loved Li Zhongxin.