C2

The torrential rain did not stop for a day. I stood alone under the eaves, my hands full of falling rain drops, head up, on the face, let it hysterically flow. I shivered as the branches of the acacia trees in the courtyard swayed in the rain. It was already autumn, and there was a slight coolness to it.

Mom took my sister to school, but she didn't call me when she left. So what if I was allowed to go? My admission notice had already been torn apart, yet I couldn't even find a single scrap of paper. I was probably swept into the trash bin by my mom or sister long ago. From then on, I will live with the yellow land, like countless farmers in the corners of the earth to roam for a lifetime. I didn't want to go back to school. I wanted to go back to school, just to go to that school, just for the sake of Chen Lengsha, who was dreaming of me.

"Beep beep beep" the BP machine issued an ear-piercing sound. It's me, she said. I don't know if you've left yet, but if you haven't, come see me at the back of the school. I have something to tell you.

When I was in school, he and I used to meet in a secluded forest behind the school. Rather than a date, it would be more accurate to say that every time I met her, it was to confide in her, to tell her how much I missed her. And he was my best listener, and he would never get tired of me. When we feel tired, we sit on the grass and I lie on my back on her lap.

When she saw him, she was holding a sky-blue umbrella, standing in the rain. I looked at her and suddenly felt that she was very pitiful, falling in love with a boy who didn't have her in his heart, yet was still so determined. Qin Man held up the umbrella for me, saying with a pained heart, why didn't you come over with an umbrella. I ran my hand through my hair and smiled. I want to let the rain put out my burning thoughts and forget about Linda.

I know that one day you will fall in love with me, because I am the one who truly loves you.

Qin Man didn't know that it wasn't because of her that I had to give up thinking about Lisha. I didn't even think about her feelings, I gave up because I felt that I wouldn't be able to get her. But in reality, I smiled hypocritically and said to Qin Man, "Yes, because you are the only one in my heart, you are my true guardian. From now on, I will protect you and never give up."

In my heart, I laughed at my own hypocrisy and felt that it wasn't worth it.

Qin Man smiled in satisfaction and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I'm worried about one thing. We both did that the day before yesterday, and I don't know if I'm going to get pregnant.

A chill ran down my spine, and I felt a chill in my stomach. Yeah, why didn't I think about it? If he got pregnant, how would we face our family? Fitz would be everywhere, and it would be strange if her fiendish mother didn't come to my house and stab me with a knife. I said, you go buy a box of yuding, there are some in the drugstore.

Qin Man puzzledly asked me, what is Yu Ting, what role is it, why don't you help me buy it?

I will not buy it. I think it's embarrassing to go to the pharmacy at such a young age to buy it, and I don't know how others will guide me behind my back when I enter the pharmacy. I lied to Qin Man and said, "Ordinary medicine, you can go to the pharmacy to buy it.

He said, 'I'll buy it myself later. You take the money, and I'll leave it for you to buy a cigarette for you. I took the money out of habit and put it in my pocket. Say thank you. You know how I miss you. I can't leave you now. You won't keep me waiting for another six years, will you?

I held him close to her from behind. I didn't answer her directly, because I hadn't thought about what to do. I didn't want to lie to her, and I didn't want to leave her so soon, because there was something else I needed from her, sex, and the money I spent on cigarettes. After a physical contact, I dreamt of her pure white body, her small. I had become her man and taken away her chastity, but now, what I needed more was her body. I said, miss me, we should cherish the time together.

Qin Man didn't say anything. I put my hand inside her dress and proficiently groped for hers. It was as soft as jade. Qin Man took my hand away with all his might and said, "Are you just interested in my body right now? We can't be like this any longer. Don't worry, Qin Man belongs to you all the time."

Like a deflated balloon, I let go of my hand and let go of Qin Man. Zinman apologized to me. Let's go.

The rain had stopped, and the sun shone through the leaves on us. Qin Man put away his umbrella, gave me a hug, said goodbye, and watched me leave.

When Mom came back, it was already the second day. I ignored her, ran to my room, lay down on the bed, and cried again, once more for Linda. I admit that I am a fragile boy, fragile beyond control.

At dinner time, my mother said, "Bright, I signed up for you. You can go to school by yourself tomorrow."

I was surprised. My notice has already been torn by me, so why can my mom still register for me? Later on, I found out that my mom was crying as she picked up the pieces of the admission notice that I tore up one by one. Then she put them together with adhesive tape and begged the principal to help me before making an exception and accepting me. But more than that, there was surprise: I knew that I could still see her back, that I could follow her in silence, that I could be in the same school with her for a few years, and that I could feel the excitement in my heart.

In the evening, I began to pack up my clothes, and when I saw the photo of Zinman, I felt a twinge of pain in my heart. I kissed her picture and said to myself, Forgive me. It was Linda I loved all this time.

In the night, I had a dream. I dreamed of Linda, and in the dream we kissed, and we were in the same bed as me and Chiman. That night, I dreamt of it, because of Linda, my goddess.

Early in the morning, I got up early. It had been a long time since he had woken up so early. He was not used to it. After washing his face and rinsing his mouth, he saw that his mother had already cleaned up the breakfast. I ate a little and told my parents that I had to go.

Mom gave me four hundred dollars and I took it. He packed his luggage and left the house.

I didn't say goodbye to him, didn't dare face her, was afraid that she would try to keep me, would cry, if she knew I was gone. As I passed the door of the Zinman house, I crept around it. He looked back, but didn't see her. I imagined the look of pain on her face when she knew I was gone, and I sighed. Farewell, love me, may you forget me, I will begin again, I will continue to pursue my dream, my Linda.

I was looking forward to the new school, and the first thing I saw was Chen Lengsha. I'm here.