C19 Chapter 19

Xia Tinghan thought that when a person died, he would be taken away by Ox-Head and Horse-Face, but he was an exception. Without anyone to pick him up, he couldn't even enter Tragic Death City. He could only stay in the mortal world.

Someone once said that a person had three souls and seven spirits. One soul would follow the person they loved the most, or the person they missed the most.

But he was at a loss now, because he had been following Xue Aofeng for a few months.

In these few months, he had experienced what it meant to feel as if his heart was being cut by a knife. With every second he spent with Xue Aofeng, the pain would stack up. Over time, he no longer knew what it felt like.

He stood in front of his own tombstone and watched Xue Aofeng drive everyone away like a madman, leaving him alone to cry in the rain.

This was the second time he saw Xue Aofeng cry. The first time was the day he died, but the one who cried the most was the day he was buried.

The rain was very heavy. One by one, they formed a line and smashed onto Xue Aofeng's body. He stood behind Xue Aofeng and used both of his hands to block the top of Xue Aofeng's head. He wanted to bear some of the burden for Xue Aofeng, but he had forgotten that he could no longer do these things. He could only watch Xue Aofeng cry like a child.

He squatted on the ground and hugged Xue Aofeng in his arms, comforting him softly as if he was comforting a child. Unfortunately, Xue Aofeng knew nothing about this, because he no longer existed in this world.

Xue Aofeng lived a life of dissipation for a while, the company did not care anymore, his family did not care anymore, it was as if life had come to an end, cigarettes and wine did not leave his body, he drank and smoked day and night, his eyes were bloodshot, but he still did not close his eyes, for some unknown reason.

It wasn't until Xue Aofeng was admitted to the hospital with gastric hemorrhage that Xia Tinghan realized that he didn't want to sleep.

The doctor probably didn't like Xue Aofeng's look either, and his words were heavy, but Xia Tinghan was very happy, because this was also what he wanted to say, and now that he couldn't say it, someone could finally say it for him.

But Xue Aofeng threw everything he could and roared at the doctor. It was only because of this that Xia Tinghan knew that everything he had was because he loved her too much.

Ever since Xia Tinghan followed Xue Aofeng, he had never heard Xue Aofeng mention him, nor did he hear Xue Aofeng say another word. He had thought that Xue Aofeng's decadence was because of him, but he never thought that Xue Aofeng loved him so much that he didn't want anything. And he was only alive to punish those who had hurt him.

This was the first time Xue Aofeng mentioned him. Xia Tinghan sat beside Xue Aofeng, quietly looking at Xue Aofeng's angular face, looking at Xue Aofeng's red eyes that were filled with tears, and his heart that was no longer beating seemed to twitch again.

"You all let me be all right, you all say I'm no good, but have you ever loved me? Have you ever experienced the pain of not being able to love? I just want him to live a good life. Is this wish too extravagant? "

"You all say he's dead, and maybe it's a relief to be dead, but he's not dead in my heart at all, and every time I close my eyes I see his face and his voice, and every time I fall asleep I see his big smile, and in the end he's going to die in my arms. Do I dare to sleep when facing his death again and again? "

"You didn't even let me drink, but do you know that? I can only see him when I'm drunk, and even though he never says a word and just stands there quietly beside me, I can damn well see him, only I don't dare to talk to him, I'm afraid he'll disappear as soon as I do, not even leaving me a shadow. ]

"That's why I smoke. I keep myself sober when I'm drunk, just so I can look at him a few more times. It's a pity that my body is at its limit, but it's all very well. When I've avenged him, I'll be able to go to him. "

"I'm still waiting for him to be with me in his next life."

In the end, the doctor didn't say anything. He just shook his head and left. He could cure physical pain, but he couldn't cure love.

Xia Tinghan didn't know how he felt either. In short, his heart ached to death, and he regretted the promise he had made. He had wasted someone else's life for no reason. Not to mention his next life, he didn't even know where to go now, so how could he fulfill his promise?

In the following days, Xue Aofeng seemed to have changed, becoming someone he did not know. He no longer had a gentle smile, and his entire person was so cold that it made people shiver. It was said that this was his true appearance.

Xue Aofeng appeared in Lian Muqing's office with Xia Tinghan's will in his hand. Without waiting for Lian Muqing to speak, he sat down on the swivel chair opposite him with a contemptuous smile on his face.

Lian Muqing only glanced at the will and began to pack his things in the office.

"Is there any point in pretending now?"

Lian Muqing's hand paused for a moment as he continued to pack his things. "I knew that such a day would come. Tinghan mentioned the will and that I wouldn't be able to get what I wanted, but I didn't expect it to be given to you. Can you tell me what your relationship is?"

"Forget it. I don't have the right to ask about it."

Lian Muqing walked out of the office, feeling a sense of relief. He stayed here all day because this place was left behind by Xia Tinghan. He was just trying to protect it. Some feelings would grow crazily once they were discovered, so deep that even a tug would hurt.

The only thing he could do now was to fulfill Xia Tinghan's wish, and to live his life with endless regret, as Xia Tinghan had said.

However, Xue Aofeng still did not have the intention of letting Lian Muqing go. He suppressed him everywhere, but always kept him alive.

In a flash, a year had passed. Xue Aofeng had changed his appearance, and his originally indifferent expression had become even colder, even if Xia Tinghan was watching Xue Aofeng's change every day.

But he still felt sorry for everything Xue Aofeng had done for him.

Xue Aofeng stood in front of his tombstone with a rare gentle smile on his face. One of his hands kept stroking his tombstone as if he was caressing his lover.

"Tinghan, are you alright over there? I'm fine. Don't worry, I didn't take Lian Muqing's life. I'm afraid you won't be able to bear to part with it, but perhaps living is his punishment, right? Every day he struggled with all his might, and every day he was filled with regret. No matter what, he should be in pain. "

"Don't be unhappy, you know me. The last thing I want is to see you sad. "

"And remember to wait for me. Soon. I will come to you soon."