C24 The Memories of Classical Dance and the Joy of Closing the Door

The students of Tea Village Primary School started coming back to class on the fifth day of the spring rain. Today, the continuous drizzle happened to last for a week. Today, the students came in neat rows, and the school dormitory once again had the usual learning atmosphere. But this time, the continuous rain made the roof of the school dormitory drip water again.

The sound of dripping water accompanied by the creaking sound of tables and chairs that had not been repaired for a long time rang continuously in the classroom. The Da Tea Village Primary School still used the duplex teaching method. Tao Huizhen first taught the senior students and let the junior students listen in. When it was time to teach the junior students, the senior students would review themselves.

At noon, Tao Huizhen glanced outside the glass window. The rain was still methodically smearing the sky and earth with gray vapor. No one went out of Dai Village. It was quieter than usual. In the middle of the soft mud road, there was a small puddle filled with rainwater. The hanging bamboo tower and the gray sky were reflected on the surface of the water.

Tao Huizhen took an umbrella and walked out.

Stepping on the mud, Tao Huizhen realized that after not practicing dancing for a long time, her balance had become much worse. She was no longer the outstanding dancer. The halo on her body gradually faded as time passed.

"In the Shengjing Grand Theater, no one sells seats better than you, Tao Huizhen. . . "

The words of the dance director, from encouragement and affirmation to trust, gradually turned into something that hurt people. Tao Huizhen thought self-deprecatingly, Where did I sell my seat? My body is gradually losing its flexibility and ability to balance. As a teacher, I'm not as successful as I imagined.

But why does she still remember this sentence so clearly? It often lingered in her mind. Is that the spotlight that shone on her body? Tao Huizhen could easily find the answer in her heart by analyzing herself. The further away she was from the stage, the easier it would be for her to dream about the stage. If teaching was just a persistent spirit, If she didn't want to be defeated by herself. Then the stage was still her dream. Once a dream was formed, it wouldn't change easily.

She knew that she would dream of the stage again and again, but. . . The lights on the stage in her dream were blurred, and the sound of the accompaniment band seemed to come from the bottom of a well in the distance. She started dancing, and felt that she was very light. But before Tao Huizhen came to Dai Village, She continuously dreamed that there were children surrounding her. She silently protected a group of children in the mountains. The background was on the grass during the day. A gentle breeze gently caressed her. That feeling was even more real.

The mud under her feet dragged Tao Huizhen's legs, causing her to slow down.

She thought, No matter what, it's fine. Dreams, obsessions, light, survival? The past would gradually fade away, and the voice would vanish without a trace by her ears. Even if the past memories were real, It would still be drowned by the present reality. What was important was not what she had chosen. It was what she was doing right now. Furthermore, she had already held on.

The mud under her feet suddenly became very light, and Tao Huizhen somehow gained courage and interest. She actually took a "wrong step" in the wet and slippery mud. This was one of the basic skills of classical dancing. As he took a step forward, his hind legs caught up to him. Following the footsteps of his front legs, he formed a 'wrong step'. Therefore, wrong steps were also called 'chasing steps', rushing forward step by step. It was somewhat similar to the footstep in a basketball. It was also similar to the starting steps of jumping on the high platform. The accuracy of the wrong step practice. It was directly related to the position of the dance actor on the stage. All the starting steps with a run-up could not be separated from the adjustment of the wrong step. Every stop of the "wrong step" technique, It should have been calculated precisely to the centimeter level, and it was an inseparable part of dancing and jumping.

Classical dance was one of the most demanding types of dance that required the dancer's basic skills and techniques. However, Tao Huizhen was born to be immersed in classical dance's form and spirit laws. Her teacher had once said that every dancer had their own domain. Tao Huizhen's charm was very good. This was the key to her ability to dance to the soul.

She took a wrong step forward to help her dance. Her feet stepped into the puddle again and again. As if she didn't notice. The entire Dai village road was empty. Tao Huizhen suddenly wanted to try jumping in the air that she had not jumped in a long time. So she really did it. A nearly perfect high difficulty air splat jump was completed in the rain. The moment she stopped in the air, She felt the pleasure of letting herself go. Her soul and body had obtained great freedom.

Dance and exercise were both about physical strength and endurance, and they were all techniques based on physical development as the core. However, the most fundamental difference between dance and exercise was the state of mind. Because dance had the manifestation of the state of mind, it could be called "dancing art. "

Tao Huizhen's dance was exceptionally focused and did not have any form of entertainment. Being serious was also an addiction. Tao Huizhen had yet to give up. She performed another three to four consecutive leg splits in the air. Each time, it was more professional than the last. Each time, it was more difficult than the last. At this moment, She unexpectedly discovered that she did not degenerate. As long as she wanted to, She could still accurately do it. Every movement in the depths of her brain became alive, as if preparing for her next act at any time.

She was a professional dancer, a true dancer. Every joint in her body was open and moving for dancing. As long as Tao Huizhen casually danced, it would be a classic. Even she herself had to believe it. She was born for "dancing. "

When it fell, a few drops of mud splashed onto her face, merging with her sweat. She smiled and wiped away the mud on her face. The little goose egg's face was completely red, and the happy smile on its face did not fade for a long time.

Tao Huizhen came to the Little Merchandize Shop at the entrance of the village. The female owner of the small store warmly greeted her. "It's Teacher Tao. He's here to buy snacks for the children again. It's still raining outside. . . " When she noticed Tao Huizhen's cheeks, Her long dress was covered in mud. Especially when he saw that Tao Huizhen's shoes were almost covered in mud. The mistress only said half of what she wanted to say and swallowed it back. She was attracted by the fashionable clothes of the ladies from the city, and on the other hand. . . She understood how difficult it was to be a teacher.

The scene of Tao Huizhen receiving the child in the rainy day quickly appeared in front of the hostess' eyes. She gave Tao Huizhen a rag and her eyes were filled with concern.

Tao Huizhen put away her muddy feet and felt a little embarrassed. If it wasn't for her dancing recklessly in the rain, she wouldn't have ended up in such a sorry state. The mistress would definitely have misunderstood. . .

"Ah, thinking of what to buy, the children coming to study in the rain, it's worth a reward. " Tao Huizhen thought about it and added, "The children came especially well today. "

"This place is Dai Village. When it rains, it can't stop. When the sun rises, it must heat people to death before it's willing to stop. " The mistress said.

"Is that so?"

Tao Huizhen browsed through the simple food display in the Little Merchandize Shop. This time, she did not pay attention to the prawns and milk that she often bought in the past. Before she came, she had already made preparations to be thrifty. The captor in her wallet no longer allowed her to do that.

Last month, when it was near the Spring Festival, she asked for some money from her parents. This money was basically spent on the primary school children of Tea Village. She bought them a lot of sweets and drinks during the Spring Festival. This was not the first time that Tao Huizhen had extended her hand to her parents. Last year's November, December, Tao Huizhen opened her mouth. Ever since she graduated from university, it was also the first time that Tao Huizhen did not put money in her house. Instead, she had taken money.

Her parents seemed to have expected that there would be such a day where Tao Huizhen would earn money from the dance troupe. Although it wasn't much, his parents had never touched it. After Tao Huizhen opened her mouth as scheduled, Her parents sent her the specified amount of money. Tao Huizhen only needed two hundred to three hundred dollars each time. She never asked for more.

There was still nearly a month until the next teacher subsidy. During the Spring Festival, her parents called her home to celebrate the New Year. In the end, she didn't go back. Now, they asked her to look for her parents for help. She didn't have the face to say anything. She knew that her parents must be very disappointed in her daughter, even though they did not express it in detail. However, that aura seemed to have been transmitted from the telephone line. Therefore, she could only pinch the dried up wallet and think of another way.

Like a small fish, she swam alone in the deep sea. She rolled her eyes and mumbled, looking for suitable food in front of the counter.

"Teacher Tao, in the blink of an eye, you've come to our Dai Village for an entire year, right? I heard that you didn't even come home for the New Year this time? It's too tiring. " The mistress revealed concern once again. Her child was studying in the county town. After learning that Tao Huizhen's responsible attitude when teaching in the elementary school of Da Tea Village had been unanimously praised, she even thought of bringing her child back to study in the village.

However, this idea naturally wouldn't become reality. The aptitude of the Great Tea Village Primary School couldn't be compared to the county's Central Primary School. In terms of education, there was a long way to go. Tao Huizhen was the only one who could make up for it. There was still a limit to what she could make up for.

"Soon. It will be a year in two months. " Tao Huizhen stopped browsing, and she calculated the time carefully before she spoke.

"That's amazing. No matter what, it's better in the city. Why else would people run into the big cities? Teacher Tao, this is the one called Grand Duke. Hmm. . . Archduke. Selfless!" The moment she saw Tao Huizhen's stunned expression and the way she mouthed the word 'nothing', the mistress finally thought of this proverb.

A hint of panic flashed through their eyes.

"Teacher Tao's selfless nature is publicly acknowledged in the tea village. The teachers who came in the past added up their time to be as long as you are. They don't have the habit of spending money on their children like you do. You don't know, in our village, everyone who comes to buy things will have to mention Teacher Tao's excellence. "

"I also have my shortcomings. Don't look at how I always buy food for the children. My requirements for them are also very harsh. I will lose my temper. I often teach them a lesson that makes them unhappy. "

"It's all because of the children's anxiety. " The hostess looked straight into Tao Huizhen's face and said.

"Sister, you mentioned the teaching teachers from before. We're all the same, I'm not any better than them. . . Actually, it's because of their background that makes me look like that, right? " Tao Huizhen opened the chat box. Her eyes suddenly turned agilely. She said the same thing. In fact, it was also different. She had once thought that as a supporting education worker in the countryside, She shouldn't have left so quickly, since she's here. . . She had to persevere. He had to be responsible for the village children. However, after she had become this profession, when she could empathize with her own feelings. . . On the contrary, that 'self-belief' of hers gradually faded away. She believed that she could continue to persist. It was because the afternoon of the dance troupe's public service performance was constantly rippling in her heart, leaving a deep impression on her by the children on the yellow slope. . .

At the same time, she did not allow herself to think about anything other than teaching, and did not place her teaching duties and values together. A sense of glory would also be one of the reasons why she stayed here.

"Anyway, Teacher Tao and those teachers from the city are all very impressive. You have brought hope to the children of Da Tea Village. Some people call you angels. "

In the middle of this year's first month, the Angel Teaching Plan had already been fully implemented. It was a civil charity organization located in Changsha. It was a purely public welfare program called the Angel Branch program. The teachers who went deep into the village were called "Angels" by their children and parents.

When Tao Huizhen heard what the mistress of the Little Merchandize Shop had said, she immediately recalled the content that she had read in the newspaper two months ago. Looking back at the road she had walked, Tao Huizhen was actually not alone. In every corner and every place where education was needed, there were people like her who stood by.

In the land of the motherland, there were always children of appropriate age who were receiving education. In the future, they could all become the pillars of the motherland. Tao Hui was honored and honored.

At this time, the owner of the Little Merchandize Shop asked if Tao Huizhen bought the same thing this time. Twenty-eight servings of Wahaha and prawns were the standard pairing in the history of Tea Village Primary School. When Tao Huizhen heard this, she hurriedly shook her head, her hands constantly shaking. In the gaps between her fingers, the mistress keenly noticed that Tao Huizhen was holding a ten yuan note in her hand.

She seemed to only have so much money left. From the strength of Tao Huizhen's grip on the money. The mistress suddenly understood.

"I can only buy candy. " Tao Huizhen laid out the bills on the counter and pursed her lips.

When she was young, the people around her instilled such thoughts into her. Tao Huizhen also used such thoughts to consolidate her outlook on life and value - that was, as long as she paid the price, there would be rewards, as long as she worked. There would be rewards. Now, Tao Huizhen understood that she was in Dai Village. There was actually no place to work, so naturally, there was no transaction of supply and demand. That kind of thought could only be temporarily imprisoned. When one could not gain anything by paying, or rather, there was no place to pay at all, Only then did Tao Huizhen understand the true meaning of poverty - the true meaning of poverty was that survival required consumption. But she couldn't find a way to compensate for the consumption.

The people of Dai were good at enduring hardships. However, the people around them also had the ability to contribute. What they lacked was the ability to put in effort. Tao Huizhen suddenly felt that in a barren place, not a single cent was spared. It was as if all income had been restricted. No matter how much they contributed, the returns were only fixed.

Self-sufficiency was more than the exchange of goods. People were surrounded by mountains and had no choice but to seal themselves.

Having two hands and two legs could create a beautiful life. That was a place with high GDP. There was no such thing in Dai Village. Tao Huizhen would not be able to get a single cent outside of the fixed area. Just like everyone in Dai Village, the various possibilities of life had already been limited. The despair of having no way out was the root cause of poverty. Other than planting tea, no one knew what methods the people of Dai Village used to exchange for necessities of life.

Thus, in the end, the Dai people began to walk out one after another. They became one of the millions of people in the large city. Every day, they hibernated at the edge of the city, looking up at the shining metal corners and the blue sky above their heads. Like Tao Huizhen and Qiuhe, they were also trying hard to find the light source.

Tao Huizhen bought some pig fat sugar and put them in different pockets. Before she left, Tao Huizhen told her mistress that there were only twenty-seven children left in Da Tea Village Primary School.

It's still raining outside. Tao Huizhen had been living in the northeast since she was a child. She had never eaten this kind of candy from Guangdong. Suddenly, she had an idea to try one. After thinking for a while, she gave up.

In the evening, the rain became very small and the sky was still gloomy. The thick cloud of rain was getting lower and lower. The air became extraordinarily fresh and humid. Tao Huizhen started to send Lu Yuan's students home one after another. The children on the muddy road had to be personally sent to their doorsteps. During this period of time, she saw the parents of the children on the bamboo building noticing her sending the children to the door. After instructing them some things, their eyes met hers for a short while. They stared at the girl from the city. They seemed to have thousands of words, but also seemed to have no desire to speak. Most of the time, the parents did not say anything and silently watched Tao Huizhen leave.

It was rainy or late after school, so Tao Huizhen had to send her students home. Tonight, she gave each of the children who didn't have a good way to go to school a piece of the pig fat candy she bought. She hoped that a small reward could make them not afraid of the harsh conditions and persevere to study.

The last child Tao Huizhen gave to was Wu Huiyan, who was already in the fifth grade. She had always been an outstanding student. Apart from the class monitor and the student council member, very few people in the class were better than her in the small exam. This child's family background could also be ranked in the upper middle of the tea village.

Tao Huizhen had also seen her growth during her first year of contact with her. Last September. When she was promoted from the fourth grade to the fifth, she easily passed all the tests. In a year, Her head had also grown to Tao Huizhen's eyebrows. It was about to reach her height as a teacher. Tao Huizhen, on the other hand, was not considered short when compared to the average height of most women.

Wu Huiyan's house was slightly further away. When the two of them walked to the bottom of her bamboo house, It was completely dark in Dai Village. Cold droplets of rain fell on their faces sporadically. They could only see each other's contours. It was because the night in Dai Village was too pure. "Teacher, are you afraid when you go back?" Wu Huiyan was in the darkness. She tried her best to look into Tao Huizhen's eyes and asked softly.

"Why would teacher be afraid?"

"If it continues to rain tomorrow morning, Teacher still doesn't need to come and pick me up. I can do it. "

"Hui Yan has already grown up. She knows how to feel sorry for Teacher. "

"Then Teacher can go back. The rain is going to be heavy. Thank you, Teacher. "

Tao Huizhen grabbed Wu Huiyan's hand and put something into the little girl's palm. She held it in her hand and thought for a while before saying, "Remember to study hard. Don't forget it at all times. Only by studying hard and leaving Da Tea Village Primary School can you have the opportunity to follow the learning path of the primary school students like the primary school students in the county. "

Tao Huizhen felt that when she spoke, she seemed to have exerted some kind of strength. Her body suddenly collapsed. After that feeling, all the blood flowed back to her head, making her dizzy. She stood up too quickly. She had a slight hypoxia in her body.

Wu Huiyan was holding something wrapped in paper in her hand. She quickly blurted out, "It's pig oil sugar. " However, she quickly fell silent. The teacher who had always bought them Wahaha and prawns only secretly gave her a piece of pig fat candy.

Secretly and carefully, he stuffed the pig fat candy into her palm. . .

Wu Huiyan, who was already in the fifth grade of elementary school, knew what that meant.

The teacher tightly gripped her hand that was holding the candy. At that moment, Wu Huiyan felt that the candy was worth a thousand kilograms. It was so heavy that she almost couldn't breathe. Two crystal clear teardrops slid out of the girl's eyes. She thought that she must remember her teacher's instructions.

Tao Huizhen did not see the girl cry, or she saw that she did not make a sound. She watched as Wu Huiyan walked up to the bamboo house. The woman from the city returned. The night rain was fiercely drawn towards Tao Huizhen's body. The rain was cold and heavy. The drizzle that had rained for a few days finally erupted at that moment. Tao Huizhen held her head and ran weakly.

- - -

Elder Li felt that he had not flipped through a few pages of his calendar. He did not have time to experience the summer Dai village atmosphere. In the blink of an eye, it was already time for summer and autumn to meet - mid-September of the Dai calendar.

At this time, the sky in Dai Village was high and the birds were flying even higher than before. The main food of Dai villagers, glutinous rice, was also approaching maturity at this time of the year. The mountains and plains were filled with the scent of ripe crops and autumn tea.

The endless terraces led to the edge of the horizon. If people who did not understand looked from a distance, they would think that the crops were planted in the sky. . . Looking down, under the sunlight, the terraces flashed with golden light, like flowing golden water.

On the day of the Dai people's closing day, Tao Huizhen wore the traditional clothing of the Dai women for the first time. She wore a small sleeveless shirt. Below her was a clearly defined cylindrical skirt. On top of the skirt was a peacock totem with colorful silk patterns embroidered with the meaning of auspicious luck. Dao Xiaotong had spent a month wearing this ethnic uniform. It was made for Tao Huizhen. Dao Xiaotong was very skillful in the art of cutting and embroidery. After Tao Huizhen put it on, it fit her figure. The narrow cylinder of the tube-shaped skirt. Reaching her feet. Tao Huizhen felt that she suddenly had the atmosphere of a minority.

Among the clothing of many minorities, the lower half of a woman's body was mostly made up of dresses. A few of the long-legged pants were also looser, some were tied with tassels and ribbons. Or the decoration was very exaggerated. The upper half of the clothing was mostly in a style that could depict a woman's graceful figure and graceful beauty. Whether it was the upper or the lower half of the clothes, including the headgear and shoes. The clothing of minorities were mostly colorful. A simple and generous style.

"Teacher Tao, you are no different from our Dai Village girl. Look. You look so spirited dressed up. " Dao Xiaotong sized up Tao Huizhen's slim figure and expressed her opinion. She used her fingers to pinch the head of the thread that was left on her skirt. From the combination of this dress and Tao Huizhen's figure, there was nothing wrong with it. Tao Huizhen looked like. . . She seemed to have lost some weight when she first arrived at Dai Village.

"Thank you for your hard work, Saber Master. Are we going now?"

When she saw herself in the mirror, Tao Huizhen found it hard to imagine what she had been like in the past. After coming to Dai Village for more than a year, she suddenly realized something. Had she completely integrated into it?

The speed of food and clothing, the way of life. She couldn't see the traffic on the streets, Can't understand the change in social technology and development. She seemed to have become the same person as those children. Looking up at the mountains, she could only rely on her imagination to feel the vastness of the motherland. She also had to frequently stare at the horizon at the top of the distant mountain peak. She was in a daze. Apart from nostalgia, there was also nostalgia in her eyes. There was also a trace of fascination.

She felt like she was gradually being sucked into a space-time without a time scale. There was only Y. . . It seemed to be a place where the three-dimensional space and the three-dimensional space were superimposed endlessly. All directions seemed to be a straight cedar tree trunk.

However, every time she was about to get lost, her original identity would appear in her mind. In an instant, who was she? Where did she come from? He remembered his purpose in coming to Dai Village. Suddenly, That feeling was very strange. It was like two electric currents collided from different directions, emitting a pleasant "Zi Zi Zi" sound.