C26 Autumn Lotus Never Let Go

The sun hasn't completely risen. The village was shrouded in mist.

The closing festival had just passed, and the season had turned into autumn. The stream outside the tea village. The surface of the water became even more shallow, but there were no fish. A figure with bare feet stood in the stream. Looking at the endless stream upstream, the water quickly flowed down from that direction. In the wide area of the stream. It formed a beach-like stranded land, in the narrow area of the stream. Both sides were covered with grass.

That figure was thin and tall. His two legs reached into the mud deep within the stream. She had short black hair, which looked like short hair that reached her chin. It was very thick and weighed quite a bit. It was not messy even in the wind. The young girl looked back at the downstream. The empty Son of Heaven outside the village gave people a sense of desolation. When she looked back, Her gem-like eyes sparkled. In the center of her pupils, It overlapped with the Green Peacock's pupils.

Qiuhe's grandmother said that she looked like her mother and that she looked more and more like her mother. However, her mother, like the girls from Dai Village, had traditional long hair. However, she had prepared a pair of scissors at all times. When her hair grew longer, she would cut it with a pair of scissors. It would not be an exaggeration to say that she was resisting anything. The mother and daughter pair of eyes were even more similar. They occupied a larger portion of her face than ordinary people. It took time for them to open their eyes and close their eyes. Both of them were a few milliseconds more than normal people.

Grandma also said that she was a strange person from Dai Village, and that she loved short hair. She was supposed to have good skin, but her skin was so dark that she didn't look like a girl. She had clearly already compromised to fate, but she still had to look forward to a miracle every day. She lived a life that was different from the conflicts of the Dai people.

"I do farm work every day. I work. Of course I have to sunburn!" When Qiuhe heard this, she always retorted in this manner.

"Life has always been about working. Little Qiuhe should understand this logic the most " Grandma turned her head to look in the direction of her own tea field. When she was young, she often went to the tea field. She was like her granddaughter now. She helped the family work day and night. She was also suntanned at such a young age, but she carefully recalled her childhood. But now, there was no longer the concomitant yet hopeful contradiction between her and Qiuhe. Simply put, in her era. . . People were very pragmatic.

The old granny's thoughts returned to the '60s more than 40 years ago. In a trance, she looked at the small mud house in the yard. The shadow of the era swirled in her murky gray eyes. She felt that she was really old.

Qiuhe stared at her grandmother, her eyes filled with slight annoyance. Her grandmother must have heard it from her grandfather. This was her grandfather's life theory.

"When you're in a good mood, you have to lower your head. When you're in a bad mood, you have to resist. A person has to constantly change his way of thinking. It's normal to have conflicts before and after, right?" Qiuhe always had her own set of theories. She also said that. . . The monastery was unfair, and Buddha could not redeem people. The traditional Buddhist culture of the Dai clan was only passed down to boys. If he did not ask the girl to learn the Buddhist culture of the Dai clan, she would not have a place to learn the language. She had tried. She was not allowed to enter the monastery's door. Otherwise, she would have wanted to shave all her hair. She was cultivating as a monk.

She did not care about her appearance in other people's eyes. She also rarely embellished herself. She felt that people like her walked in dark and cold corners where the light couldn't reach. They had to crawl with great difficulty. Because they could not light up on their own bodies, and others would not notice their existence. There was also no way to light up others. But at the same time, She understood another principle, that she had stayed in a place without light for a long time. Even a very tiny glimmer could bring her dazzling light.

She knew that in the big tea village, there was a woman with the same fate as her. That person should be Dao Xiaotong. It was only when she found the Green Peacock in the depths of the Great Tea Mountain that she understood. Why did Dao Xiaotong hug her every time she saw her? She hugged her tightly. She only found out later on that. . . Actually, when Dao Xiaotong hugged her, she would always convey that kind of message - Sister. Only the two of us are left.

People like them have already lost what they should have lost. There is nothing else to lose. They want to use all of their strength on the training brought about by life. Not anything "physical. " However, this was just the words of Qiuhe's family. In her values, There were not many twists and turns in her life. From the moment she was born, She had already been imprisoned in a small tea field and courtyard. She was the spiritual pillar of her grandfather and grandmother, and from a certain point of view, her grandfather and grandmother had become her shackles. She had never thought of breaking these shackles. This thought was very important to her life. Dancing under the starry sky was just a regulator for her work. She crawled towards the light only because she wanted to live on the premise that she did not break the shackles. To be able to be so wonderful. In any case, that was what she thought.

The other children all wanted to read. They wanted to learn culture. Actually, she also wanted to, but her grandparents made her dream and reality separate from each other. According to theory, If the gap between her dreams and reality was too great, she would naturally be able to get closer to reality. The children of Tea Village Primary School. . . They all craved the outside world, they craved to get rid of reality. . . And she just had to find her own value in reality. Even though she knew that this path was ordinary, she still had to show all her passion. . . The spiritual pillar. A spiritual pillar was a shackle. Over time, it became a responsibility that couldn't be removed. She thought so.

In fact, she also fantasized that at a certain moment when she woke up, There was a major turning point in life, the originally ordinary life. . . It had changed color. However, she could neither see nor imagine how her established path would change its direction. It was as if she had already seen the day when she was old, and she was still the same as she was now. She was still in the realm of fantasy. At most, she could only use her spiritual wealth to comfort herself on the basis of reality. She searched for the green peacock, she danced the peacock dance, kept cutting her hair. . . She thought that her life could only be like this, at least in her perception. She was powerless to escape.

The last time she met Dao Xiaotong, The two of them met each other's eyes. She felt that Dao Xiaotong wanted to say something but stopped herself. However, when their eyes met, Dao Xiaotong did not say anything. Qiu He did not ask either.

The morning sun rose and a ray of light spread across the winding stream. The surface of the water was coated with a layer of pale pink golden light. Autumn Lotus suddenly understood. She had already stopped in the flowing stream for a long time.

The sunlight entered the bottom of the water. The clear water had no impurities, and the light was mottled and swaying. Autumn Lotus's eyes were also filled with sunlight. She used her palm to block the sun and stared at the water's surface.

Time passed along the stream. Autumn Lotus felt the sunlight in front of her move to her cheek. She thought to herself, The Hu family once caught a water horse pestle fish in this stream. Then there would definitely be fish in this stream, as long as she was willing to spend time waiting for them.

She waited until noon. The sun shone down from her heart, and her shadow was no longer visible in the water. Qiu He felt that her feet had sunk into the sand at the bottom of the small stream, and she was already numb to it. However, she did not dare to move at all. Once the water was stirred, she was afraid that she would miss the fish that she had been guarding for six to seven hours.

By the time nine hours had passed, the sun had already started to slide towards the west. Qiuhe advised herself, "Go back. There's no fish here at all. We've wasted a day's time. We can't delay any longer. " However, her feet didn't move at all. She still stubbornly believed that she could wait for a fish. She was determined to catch a fish. Her whole family could drink the delicious fish soup once. Grandma's words lingered in her ears - no one could catch a fish with their bare hands.

"Yeah, I didn't even see the shadow of a fish, how could I catch one? But I still want to wait, I've already wasted too much time. I haven't cut wild vegetables for the duck today. " She muttered to herself as she blinked her eyes. A bitter smile appeared on her face.

It was as if she was trapped in sand. She bent her waist and made an interception position in the water. She once felt that her mind was somewhat unclear. She heard her muddle-headed pulse. Next to her was the shore of the stream. She only needed to take one step. You can lie down and rest to relieve your tired body. She knew that there wouldn't be any fish here. It would be a waste of energy for her to stay here.

Let's go. The girl urged herself, but her body showed no signs of moving. However, looking at the red clouds in the sky, The sun was about to set. She wanted to cry. Once the sun set, even if a fish passed by a stream, It would be impossible for her to see. She had been guarding this stream for the whole day. Such an action was quite interesting. It seemed extremely stupid.

Once the sun completely set, she would thoroughly fail. Qiuhe thought, Even if she took a step forward now and dared to give up before sunset. . . This is also a wise move. She won't be left in such a lonely and pathetic state by the darkness of sunset in the stream. Helplessness. He wouldn't lose in such a desperate and incisive way. She moved her toes in the sand and sighed lightly.

"Qiuhe, Qiuhe, you are still thinking of getting lucky. Do you think your unwillingness is useful? You will only be thoroughly defeated. If you don't believe me, you can give it a try. "

Regardless of his heart, his mouth. . . How could he scold himself? She was still firmly guarding the place where the water flowed past. Her hands had been soaking in the water for too long. She was as numb as her feet in the mud. The light in the sky slowly converged, and the surface of the water dimmed bit by bit. It was as if someone was extinguishing the lamps one by one until all the lights were extinguished. The sun had set. Autumn Lotus began to recall the scene of her dancing at the closing festival yesterday.

Usually, she would dance alone in her own yard. During the closing festival and the opening festival, Big Tea Village celebrated and lit a bonfire. She also came out to join in the fun and dance with the crowd. However, although she said it was a dance, it was actually a dance by herself. She still formed her own body in the crowd that was not eye-catching at all.

Fortunately, at this moment. . . She was able to blend into the crowd. Of course, she was still dancing alone. But everyone was busy laughing and singing and dancing. No one cared about her identity as an orphan and could accommodate her. Even those kids who were usually full of malice towards her. . . Last night, they all looked at her with peaceful gazes. It made her feel incomparably comforted.

The sound of the little elephant's drumbeats seemed to be playing for her. She began to dance the traditional peacock dance of the Dai clan. From beginning to end, she did not look back, but last night, she clearly knew that the sound of the little elephant's foot drum was the fulfillment of her promise.

"It would be great if there was a fishing net. "

The sky in the mountains turned completely dark, and Qiu He's vision turned pitch black. She muttered to herself powerlessly. She wondered if she had already died after standing in the stream for more than ten hours. She couldn't see anything. She closed her eyes and felt a desire. She wanted to lie down and float on the water. She didn't know what she was still holding on to. Her mind went blank.

It doesn't matter, my soul and body might have already been separated. I don't feel hungry, I don't feel tired. I can even wait here until the sun rises tomorrow morning.

A wave of flowers appeared on the surface of the water, and Qiuhe's finger was touched by something. The cold stream splashed up and wet her hair and face. It was a fish, and she immediately realized that it was a very big fish! The moment her hand touched the fish, she escaped from her wrist. The fish hit her ankle again.

Qiu He became anxious. She could not see it. The sound of water flowers ringing in her ears could be heard. She could feel that the fish had not swam yet. She leaned into the water and tried her best to suppress the larger area of the water. She touched the water with all her might. In the silent wilderness, she let out a muffled groan.

The water quickly filled all of her clothes, even into her mouth and ears. The stream wasn't deep and just happened to pass through her body that was lying in the water. The fish kept hitting her stomach and she pressed it into the mud. Then she grabbed it with both hands, hugged it, and moved towards the stream.

"It's a big water marten. "

Qiu He lay limply in the grass by the stream, looking up. Her hands were tightly holding onto the gills of the big fish. Because she had used too much force on her fingers, She had already reached into the gills. The big fish was beating her chest with all its might. She spat out a mouthful of dirty water that was covered in sand from her mouth. Her wet clothes were the only thing that felt cool. After the cool down, the numbness in her legs and arms could be felt. She no longer had the ability to stand up. In order to prevent the big fish from escaping, She curled up her body and trapped the fish in the middle of her body.

After waiting for a day, it still came. She caught a big fish with her bare hands. She thought about it.

She wanted to sleep. Actually, she was too tired and hungry. These feelings. It wasn't until now that she felt it. She suddenly thought, if she died here, would anyone know?

"Qiuhe!"

"Are you there!?"

Qiuhe's ears froze in the grass. Was it Grandma? Grandma came to find her. Only a fourteen-year-old girl wanted to respond, but she realized that she didn't have the strength to do so. She was crying in the grass. It was silent and hot. The gills of the big fish were tightened even more. Grandma's body could no longer move. She could not even walk a few steps. But she actually walked to the stream outside the village.

Grandma's hunchbacked figure leaning on a stick must have panicked in the darkness. When she came, she should have passed by every family in Da Tea Village and looked inside.

"Grandma, I'm here. I caught a fish. " Qiuhe's voice sounded like it had been squeezed out of the water. She sounded like she was crying and happy. Only she could hear her own response.

She moved her body powerlessly and wiped away her tears. Looking at the short night sky, the stars had already risen.