C3 Decision
Jasper
It has been two months since we saw that gay waiter and ever then Max behaviour towards me has changed even though he is my wolf he sees me as an enemy. I don't know when will he get it that we don't need a gay human hence I made my mind not to pursue that thing.
I will save our self from this mismatch by going my own way not following what the goddess has chosen for us. For sure I do not care about him so am not going to pretend and act like I care cause I don't.
As for my Wolf Max I know he will do just fine. I have heard a lot of werewolves have survived just fine they didn't go with the mood goddess choice they choose their own mates I intend to do the same.
Am very sure that the goddess herself must have made mistake in pairing me with a man. Something went wrong somewhere because it's impossible for me to be mated to a guy because am not into guys and for sure am not gay. She must have thought I am a woman hence she mated me to a man.
I was lost in my own thought that I didn't hear anyone opening the door of my office.
"Alpha I heard that you are...Why do you have that evil look on your face. Please don't tell me you are plotting something evil that I will have to disagree with." A voice said to which I recognise is my beta Cole's voice.
We have been friends since our diaper days, he is the only member of our pack I consider a true friend.
"What! am not plotting anything I was just trying to find a way of solve my situation." I said with the most innocent look I could master but by the look in his eyes it seems like he didn't buy it.
"Jasper I know you very well so don't try to lie to me. So are you going to tell me or I should bribe max into telling me what's going on, we both know he will tell me." He threaten because he know that it always work on Max my wolf.
People may said it's hard to convince someone else's wolf to agree on matters but when it comes to Max he is always ready to trade us up for something. The last time he trades us for gardening, we had to plant vegetable seeds for our pack for two hours which I already paid some people to do the job and there was a time he made us go and single for some random child birthday party I don't remember much about it but it was brutal since we don't know how to sing.
The shame, the embarrassment I felt that day was unimaginable. Max has said he always does this to teach me a lesson to keep me on my toes but Come one am the Alpha, He also said some of the things he does are for fun for him. The Last part I agree with him most off the times he does things that I do not understand at all.
My wolf is weird and freaky.
"Hey who are you calling weird and freaky I will have you know I just like a little bit of fun and adventure is that too hard to understand." He said trying to defend himself.
"Are you listening to me." Cole said while waving this hand in front of my face looking at me with concern in his eyes.
"The thing is I found my mate but I don't know what to do." I said in one breath. Since he is my beta also my best friend I tell him everything I am not ashamed or embarrassed because I know I can trust him and he will never judge me for it.
He may be disappointed in me sometimes but gives good advice am lucky to have him as our pack second in command and he does a good job at that title.
"Wow! you finally found her am so happy for you man. What do you mean you don't know what to do can you elaborate a little because I know when you find your mate you claim them instantly it's what we do." He said looking confuses with raised eyebrows up.
" What am saying is I found my mate but they are not what I expected them to be."I said to him trying to explain the situation.
"Jasper you don't expect anything from your mate! Do you think I expected a mate like mine; no but I accepted her anyway even when am in fear for my life everyday.A mate is a gift, your other half chosen for you by the moon goddess herself " He said even when he is clearly afraid of her. Cole's mate is the opposite of him.
He is kind to people and he thinks before he voice out his opinion while his mate is known by everyone in the pack for being rude and she is far from being friendly even their two girls are afraid of her.
People who have made a joke around her have found their face first on the floor with their hands behind their back. I get where she is coming from she was one of our best trackers now she teaches young werewolves who are interested in being the pack trackers.
"What you don't understand is." I pause to take a deep breath.
"My mate is a male I found out after the Alpha's meeting on our last day in the human city he was working at some restaurant." I was taken back by his response, the expression he put on his face was terrifying to me. He looked like a father being proud of their child when something good happen to their child.
"I can't accept him I decided not to accept him as my mate." I voiced out the decision I have decided to take.
After thinking this through I have decided to not take that good for nothing human as my mate. I can't have a gay young man as my mate.
With everything has been happening lately I felt headache manifesting plus the thinking I have been doing for the hours now. I looked up and I cringe at the scene of him. He had a shocked look responding to what I have just said.
"Why!" He asked but I didn't answer him.
"He is your mate why don't want him you were meant to be together." are we though I thought to my self. the more I think about being mated to a gay man the more I come to the conclusion that I was mismatched.
"You do know am into women and I don't swing that way and what am I going to do with a male mate."Just the thought of kissing, touching even being intimate with a gay male human is unethical to me I could never imagine my self doing anything like that with him.
"You make it sound like it's a bad thing to have a male mate. You may never know what your missing out until you try it you may even like him and fall deeply in love with him ."He said trying to convince me.
"How do you know what is like to have a male mate no cause you don't have one"I argued like a small child with a glare expecting an answer.
"I may not have a mate like yours but I know What is like to have a mate. You will miss a lot if you don't accept him.Its going to be painful and you and your wolf could fall into depression." He said with a thoughtful look on his face.
"I really don't want to listen to this anymore. You know what piss off I don't want to take about this anymore." I hiss at him with so much venom I could feel my whole body vibrating with so much anger toward him. The last thing I remember was my wolf push me aside and over my body to let me come down.
"Sorry Cole for the way he spoke to you,you know he just need to come to terms with the discovery and accept our mate"He said to him.
"Its fine Max I understand am just worried about him with the decision he is willing to take because his mate is not What he wanted" I herd Cole sighed and adds.
"Oh I almost forgot to tell him about our neighbouring pack are hosting there yearly harvest party and we are invited." He said.
"I will tell him when he becomes normal don't worry about what he said he is just mad because He can't make that bitch as our mate"Then I herd the door being opened then closed.
After he had left Max my wolf walked what seemed like outside cause i could feel the wind.He sat down on the chair and let out a sigh the whole time I felt like a child being scolded by their mother and have been put on time out.
We sat on the chair for what seemed like hours then he block his silence.
"Have you thought on what your decision will be. Am talking about a decision that will not affect me in anyway"He quickly added leaving no argument.
I cringe at the trace of hate I detected in his voice.
I know an Alpha is nothing without their mate but I can never turn myself gay for species I hate the most.
Humans.
