C1800 Why did this happen

However, I now know, at that time, I was not in love with Mu Xiaoxi, but was just unreconciled. It was just that I felt that the person the other party should have liked was me, that it was impossible for it to be someone else's, and that it shouldn't be anyone else's, that I wasn't willing to admit that it was me who had lost, which was why I turned into such a state. Within love