C257 Her Heart Is Tied to Someone

"I won't hurt you as abruptly as they did last time. It'll only increase the distance between us. Luo Luo, don't be afraid of me." Zhao Haoxun let go of his hands dejectedly. He looked at Pei Luoluo with a hurt expression. The corner of his mouth curled into a cold smile, as if he was mocking himself for being so unbearable at this moment.

"I am trying to use my work to numb myself. I am not going to disturb your world. I'm trying to get drunk every night to bear the fact that I've truly lost you... I am trying to listen to your words and have too much contact with Lyi Zihan. But the final result was still in my mind and in my heart. My eyes are filled with you! Luo Luo, when I close my eyes, it's all you! Can't you..." Before Zhao Haoxun could finish his words, he saw Pei Luoluo's face turn paler and paler.

He could only swallow his last words and stare at her.

Pei Luoluo actually wanted to say a lot. She could also be tactful or ease the atmosphere. However, she understood that everything had to be decided. She could only be determined towards Zhao Haoxun.

"Haoxun, I'm sorry..." In the end, no matter how many words were stuck in her throat, they still ended with the three most hurtful words.

This was also the three words that Zhao Haoxun hated the most, the most powerless, the most ironic, and the most heartbreaking.

"I don't want your apology! Luo Luo, don't you understand? I would rather you ruthlessly reject me and keep rejecting me. I don't want to suffer like this! "

Zhao Haoxun clenched his fist and punched the most vulnerable part of his chest. It was as if the pain on his skin would lessen the emotions that were about to collapse in his heart.

"I said that I will protect you. I don't care where you go or where you go. I will not leave you behind. Why? Why didn't you turn back after you left? Why would you rather apologize to me than look back at me? Luo Luo, I love you so much. I love you even more than you love Xiao Yichen! "

Pei Luoluo was stabbed in the heart by these words. The past instantly surged into her mind like a tempestuous storm. Those scenes were the most beautiful, sincere, and indelible memories.

There, they supported each other and encouraged each other. In fact, thinking back now, those so-called appearances, along with time and experience, became clearer and clearer in Pei Luoluo's mind.

Because, that place was full of Zhao Haoxun's sincerity. He silently waited there. In order to protect her, he had to protect her several times even if it meant risking his life.

Just like when she chose Xiao Yichen, Zhao Haoxun still fought in front of her without hesitation, without any fear of spreading rumors.

However, until Pei Luoluo got pregnant, Zhao Haoxun felt as if he had fallen into an icy coal. He was completely clear-headed and his heart was completely broken.

"Don't forgive me, Haoxun. I don't even have the right to be forgiven by you. I know that I don't deserve happiness right now. I also don't know how long this kind of heavenly life can last. But I don't regret it. I don't regret not choosing you. It's not because you're not good enough, but because my heart is so big... I can't tolerate two people.

Even if my heart was empty in the past, Xiao Yichen's shadow has already occupied my entire world. I can't move it away no matter what. It's precisely because I understand this pain that I don't want you to be like me. I don't want you to suffer the pain that I've been through, I don't want you to... I can't accept your love either. "

Pei Luoluo shook her head and wanted to explain, but she realized that her words were even more hurtful and there was no room for negotiation.

A person might love a lot of people in his life, but he could only give it to one person. But that person might not be able to walk to the point where his hair turned white, but he was someone that she would never forget in this lifetime.

There was a kind of love that was thousands of times better, but all kinds of favours would eventually be missed. However, when he looked back, he would realize that he would never be able to meet someone like him again in his life.

Zhao Haoxun was the typical second type, but to Pei Luoluo, she would not look back. Or rather, she was forcing herself not to look back. It was not that she was afraid of regret, but that she was afraid of adding pain to each other.

Pei Luoluo just stood there. Her eyes were filled with tears, but she was not willing to compromise at all as she stared at Zhao Haoxun.

"Can we still be like before?" In the end, it was Zhao Haoxun who gave in.

He always wanted to force Pei Luoluo. He did not really want her to give a decisive answer, but to test whether her relationship life was perfect.

This kind of Zhao Haoxun, even if he had ulterior motives in the past, this time he really used his heart.

But, so what? The result was the same!

"Same, our friendship boat will never be overturned." Pei Luoluo wiped her tears and tried to squeeze out a smile, but she found that it was hard for her to smile now. It should be very ugly.

"Am I very ugly now?" Pei Luoluo asked self-deprecatingly.

"Yes, very ugly." Zhao Haoxun took out a tissue and walked in front of Pei Luoluo to wipe her tears.

His hands were shaking a little because they were very close, so it was not hard to see. Pei Luoluo did not dare to look into his eyes. She wanted to take it but was rejected by him. She helplessly pursed her lips and could only stand where she was and let Zhao Haoxun gently wipe away the tears on her face.

"Can I hug you?" Zhao Haoxun's hoarse voice was swallowed by Pei Luoluo's hair and drifted away. Finally, it fell into her ear. He raised his hands as if he wanted to hug her.

"I..." At this moment, Pei Luoluo was in a difficult situation but her body had already retreated to the side of the wall. Her footsteps were a little unstable but she did not have the slightest intention of asking for help.

At that time, Pei Luoluo only had a few words in her mind to avoid him. Avoid skin contact. Her alienation was not because she was afraid of rumors or rumors, but because she was afraid that at this time, she would give him some silent acquiescence or softheartedness. At this moment, a trace of gentleness would be filled in the most vulnerable part of Zhao Haoxun's heart, and a little flame would be ignited. In the end, they were still covered in injuries.

"Alright, pretend I didn't say anything." Zhao Haoxun's brows slightly wrinkled, and he smiled bitterly as he withdrew his hand and sat back down.

"I'll be leaving first. Let's have a meal together another day." Pei Luoluo felt that staying here was like sitting on pins and needles. It was better to give each other a chance to breathe quietly.

"Luo Luo, do you need help with Yang Yue's matter?" Seeing that Pei Luoluo had already walked to the door, Zhao Haoxun looked up at her still very thin back and asked softly.

"There is no helping or not. It is a mutually beneficial relationship. Furthermore, she also came to look for you and Lyi Zihan. If I said that I owed her in the past, I should pay it off now. My heart can only care about one person. "

Pei Luoluo turned around and left. When Zhao Haoxun finished his last sentence, she stopped by the door. She held the metal door handle and looked at the deformed person inside. She was lost for a moment.

"Don't get too close to her. One day, she will stand firm and take revenge on those who humiliated her. Although it may not be you, there must be Lyi Zihan among those people."