C36 The story of the past

Does this mean that if he disappears forever he will not be given the right to live again? What will happen to me? Could I be punished too? But no, why didn't he tell me? Why even though he already knew what would happen to him he was still able to love me?

"All right, we go on the other side." I just nodded at them and turned away. I was still tired in my chest because of the pain