C3 Despair.

As I expected Cruella busted into laughter the moment Mum and Dad left.

“I see Austin did a very good job.” She said.

“How is he in bed?” She asked with a dangerous smile on her face.

I ignored her and continued weeping silently.

“Aww, did mum and dad's words hurt you?” She mocked..

“Sorry, I am sure they did not mean it especially the part where you should have been exchanged with another baby at birth.” She mocked again and started laughing while more tears just rolled down my cheeks.

“Why did you do this to me?” I asked her as I faced her completely.

“I never did anything to you so why can’t you just leave me be!” I yelled at her startling her for I had never raised my voice at her before,I mean I never had the guys to but this time,she had gone over board.

All she did was punish me away. “Don’t you get it?” She asked, hatred laced in her voice.

“I hate your mere sight" She explained and rolled her eyes at me before continuing.

"Just because you were going to be a Nun, you felt at the top of the world, now it’s has been snatched from you like a piece of paper, how do you feel?” she asked.

“Down of the world? You know it would be better if you actually die, I am sure no one will miss you, you would not even last a second in their memories for you are not important to anyone and you have no friends.” she said and made to move out but suddenly stopped and turned.

“But wait! Your books might miss you, nerd.” She added.

All I could do was stare at her and shed tears. I mean she was right, if I was dead, no one would remember me because they all hate me and wish I had never been born most especially my parents, so I guess that’s an option.

Mum suddenly entered the room and when she saw Cruella, she gave her a pleasant smile but when she turned towards me, she gave a deep disgusted look like my mere presence irks her, well I am sure it does.

“You would be out to announce your disgrace and embarrassment in five minutes.” She spat with bale and I nodded.

Then she turned to Cruella with a smile and said “Let’s go, don’t let her influence you with her bad luck, she is filled with it.” She added as she took Cruella’s hand and left the room leaving me there in pain.

I slowly fell to the ground as I cried my heart out. "Why me?"

5 MINUTES LATER.

I stood shaking deeply in the confession box while everyone stared at me with judgmental faces. Almost everyone from school including Austin were here to witness how I would disgrace and embarrass myself.

“Miss Johnson, is it true about you being defiled?” The priest asked me.

“Ye-Yes.” I stammered as everyone gasped, while Cruella smiled widely.

“Would you mind sharing the details of how it happened?” The priest asked. A question my own parents never bothered to ask about and I turned to look at Austin and he was staring back at me with remorse.

' Oh don't be a fool again' I cautioned myself. ' He probably has another evil up his sleeves' I thought.

I looked away from his face and looked at the priest.

“Miss Johnson, would you mind giving us an answer?” The priest asked again.

I did not reply and only continued to look around suddenly I felt hot all over my body with headache, stomach pain and dizziness. Looks like the poison is finally taking effect.

Yes! I had a bottle of poison with me just in case something goes wrong and since Cruella also suggested it, I decided to take it and wait for the effects. I felt the priest voice became distant and I collapsed on the floor, that was the last thing I remembered.

" Beep-Beep-Beep" I heard the beeping noise of the machine and woke up only to find myself in an unfamiliar room, I looked towards my side and saw drips attached to my palm.

‘Please, no!’, I gasped the realization. Don’t tell me I am not dead. My question was answered when the door to the room opened and the doctor entered with a clipboard in his hand and a stethoscope around his neck.

“Miss Johnson right.” He called.

. “Please, just Acapella.” I struggled to say.

“Alright, Acapella it is” He called as he gave me a warm smile. “It is said here that you took a deadly poison.” He said and I turned to look away.

“In fact I am still surprised how you are alive!” He said. ‘’Looks like God really favours you!” He added as he looked into his clipboard. I scoffed inside me at the doctor’s remark.

Favours me indeed! If he truly does favour me, he would not have allowed all these to happen to me, I mean I thought God always stand behind his followers like he did for Elijah at Mount Carmel but why did he not do so for me?

' Did he want me as his bride?' I wondered. Maybe he did not. I smiled sadly at the thought of even God not wanting as his bride.' Am I that bad,Why did he create me then?' I chuckled sadly as I kept having countless thoughts.

“Acapella” The doctor called. I turned to look at him curiously. “If you don’t mind me asking, why did you try to take your own life?" He asked.

I turned away and faced the other side.

“It’s okay if you don’t want to answer” He said. “But just remember there are times when we feel so lonely, there are times when we feel so left out, when we feel like everyone has abandoned us including God but just remembered he never does and he never did, there is this saying ‘everything happens for a reason’ so he might only make bad things happen to us so as to prepare us for a better and special thing.” He added. “Remember that.” The doctor said and left.

I admit that was a great speech but he somehow made no sense to me.

' I mean how would God abandon us and cause us pain just to prepare us for special things?' I wondered.

It does not sound right to me. Anyway, that’s his own opinion.

Suddenly the door opened and the person who walked in surprised me.

“Hey!” He greeted.

“If your girlfriend sent you here to come and check if I am still hurting, tell her I am and she should come here herself next time so I can rip her face with my sharp fingers.” I said to him in fury.

" Whoa, easy tigress, nobody sent me and I did not come here to fight.” He said.

. “What are you here for then?” I asked. “To mock me?” I asked again.

“I am here to check how you are doing.” He said and I suddenly busted into laughter, but deep down,immense fury was building in me .

He looked at me confused as to what was funny.

“Austin, you and your pitiable sense of humor!” I commented. " Look, don’t bother pretending to care for me.” I said. “Just tell me what you are really here for.” I added.

“I just told you what I am for 2 minutes ago " He reminded “To check your health if you are doing okay.“He added.

“Or to check if I am dead?” I asked giggling but he just ignored me and continued.

“But why would you want to kill yourself like, to take your own life?” He asked in wonder.

“Go and ask the goggle machine, I am sure it would love to tell you why Acapella Williams tried to take her own life.” I said sarcastically. Austin looked at me like I have grown two heads.

“Acapella” He called in disbelief.

“Since when did you start talking or replying this way?” He asked while I just snorted and ignored him.

“I guess I owe you an apology!” He said and I looked at his face and he had somewhat like a guilty expression on his face but I just scoffed out loud, he was not going to fool me again.

" Save it and I think you should make use of the door" I said as I turned on my side.

“Wait! Are you trying to ask me out?” He asked with a gasp.

“No" I replied and he sign in relief.

" I am not trying to ask you. I already did and now please do so and get out before I scream security!” I said obviously annoyed with his presence.

“Acapella, it has not come to this. ” He pleaded. “Please let’s sort all these out” He begged.

I suddenly turned to face him startling him. “There is nothing to sort out, get out.” I screamed.

“Acapella, please!” He begged.

“Out!” I screamed again alerting the nice doctor and the security, because they both rushed into my ward.

" What is going on here?" The nice doctor asked.

“Please send him out!” I begged.

“Acapella, it’s has not….” He tried to say but the nice doctor cut in

“You heard her loud and clear, she asked you to leave!” He said while Austin looked at me one last time before finally leaving.