C18 Prepare in Advance.

The car stopped in front of me, and I couldn't help it.

I am a person who is afraid of death, and it is precisely because of this that I am able to live until now. I looked at the person who got out of the car, and I actually saw worry in his eyes.

Hsiao Mu helped me up, but his voice was very stern.

"Are you blind? Don't you know to pay attention to the cars on the road?"

His anger was always inexplicable. I was so scared that I didn't dare to speak. I kept staring at him. I suddenly felt that he wasn't real.

I reached out to touch him. I knew that he was really here. I hurriedly reached my hand back. I wasn't dreaming.

I looked at his furrowed brows and instantly felt wronged. He left me behind. Why did he have to speak to me so fiercely?

"Director Hsiao, my matter has nothing to do with you. You should take good care of Miss Lin. "

I stood up and maintained some distance from him. I was a little angry, but I knew it was useless.

"Han Ruyan, you are getting bolder and bolder!"

Hsiao Mu's frown was not what I wanted to see. He was right. I am cheap, that's why I tolerated him again and again.

"I'll be going back first. "

I am trying my best to control myself, don't get close to him. I don't want to be attracted to him. He's like poison to me.

Before I can walk out, my arm was grabbed by him. I was stuffed into the car.

I thought Lin Shijia would be here too. But I thought that if she was there, he wouldn't care about me.

I am still immersed in my thoughts. He kissed me. I stared at him with wide eyes. At this moment, I just want to stay away from him.

I kept struggling. But, he kissed me crazily. I could feel the blood spreading in my mouth, but he didn't have any intention of stopping.

He was always like this, never considering my feelings. A sense of sadness spreads in my heart. Perhaps it was because my sadness was too obvious, he finally stopped.

"Han Ruyan, are you looking down on me?"

I don't want to answer him. I'm very tired.

"Speak!"

He grabbed my chin, forcing me to look at him. I don't know why, but I feel sad. The way I look at him is filled with despair.

"Hsiao Mu, let me go. "

I rarely call his full name. No matter what, he is my superior. Except when we're having sex.

He heard me and froze for a second. His eyes instantly became sharp. He forcefully pinched my chin.

"I won't let you leave me so easily. Since you took the initiative to approach me, then you should bear all the consequences. Han Ruyan, I won't let you off easily. "

Hsiao Mu's ruthless manner made me feel despair. It was indeed me who had fallen for him first, so I went to his side without caring about anything else.

But now, I don't even have the chance to go back on my word.

He had sex with me in the car, and I forced myself not to make a sound. I never shed tears in front of him again, but this time, I couldn't help it.

I can endure the pain in my body. But I'm really sad.

He threw me at the door. It was obviously spring, but I felt very cold. I held my arms tightly, trembling as I walked home.

Suddenly, someone put on a coat for me. The familiar scent made me want to cry, but I couldn't help but raise my head and greet him with a smile.

"Brother. "

Yan Feng's eyes were filled with heartache. This is also the thing that I don't want to see the most. I don't want others to think that I need to be taken care of. From start to finish, I only want to rely on myself to bear all the grief.

He didn't ask me what happened. He just poured me a cup of hot water and quietly sat beside me, looking at me.

I tried to joke with him as usual. But I couldn't say anything.

"If you don't want to talk, then stop talking"

He can always easily guess my thoughts. I lowered my head and really wanted to cry.

After a long time, I raised my head. My eyes were red.

"Was I wrong from the start?"

I thought about this question for a long time. Previously, I was unwilling to admit it, but I always felt that there was still a chance. However, my confidence was repeatedly defeated by Hsiao Mu's ruthlessness. I admit defeat.

"There is no right or wrong in love. "

Yan Feng paused for a moment. He looked at me with a strange look in his eyes. He seemed to want to say something, but in the end, he changed the topic.

"Since he's getting engaged, you should prepare yourself. Do you want to stay or leave? I'll help you. "

I never thought of leaving, even if Lin Shijia tried to force me to leave a few times. I don't even want to leave this place. Even if I can't get close to him, I can still look at him from afar.

But I also know that there is no absolute thing in this world. I didn't answer immediately. I know that no matter what decision I make, Yan Feng will support me unconditionally.

Perhaps it is because he treats me well that I am fearless.

"I understand. "

I smiled as I said those words, but my heart felt heavy. This means that no matter how I escape, I will always face this problem.

Lin Shijia would never allow me to stay by Hsiao Mu's side. Today's matter is the best answer. She has already understood the gap between me and her.

Actually, sometimes I also think that perhaps I can only live this kind of life. Yan Feng treats me very well. If I hadn't met Hsiao Mu.

Unfortunately, there is no such thing as' if 'in this world.

"You still decided to go to their engagement banquet?"

Yan Feng asked. I thought about it and nodded. At first, I wasn't sure, but now I have full confidence.

I looked at the bags I brought back. They were very red.

"Do you need me to accompany you?"

He was still worried about me. I smiled helplessly. I'm not that weak. I will not commit suicide.

At their engagement banquet. There's less than a month. I think this is enough for me to make a decision.

I adjusted my attitude and went to work as usual.

For the next few days, Hsiao Mu did not come to the company. Lin Shijia rarely appeared. I know that they were busy with the same thing.

Without them, I thought my life would be better. Although I will be looked down upon by others, my job ability is very strong.

I don't know what's going on, but my appetite has become bad, and I often feel nauseous. However, I don't really care. After I finished vomiting in the bathroom, I walked out and heard someone mocking me.