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"..."

"Royal brother?" Zhao Qingyan took the wet handkerchief from the maid and handed it to Zhao Shu. "It's so hot, so it won't matter if Imperial Brother rests for a while, right?"

Zhao Shu tossed the sword in her hand to the side and said with a smile, "I'm different from you. I don't practice martial arts and will be scolded." He took a handkerchief from Zhao Qingyan's hand and wiped his face.

Zhao Qingyan said, "I don't believe it. Who dares to scold you?"

Zhao Shu asked, "Huh?" "Then I'm afraid it's okay, right?"

Zhao Qingyan rolled his eyes and asked, "Then the pastries and dried fruits that I brought can be shared with them, right? Your royal brother doesn't have time to eat, right? "

Zhao Shu was slightly taken aback, then said with a laugh, "You are angry with me?"

Zhao Qingyan looked at him innocently, "It's absolutely nothing. I am just feeling sorry for my royal brother." I made Hao Feng wait in advance for a long time before he bought them all. He took them all in one breath, but his royal brother couldn't eat them.

Zhao Shu said, "Alright, then that's it for today. I'll accompany you to eat. Shall we go? "

Zhao Qingyan narrowed her eyes and smiled. She turned the wheel and followed him, "I knew royal brother would be the best."

Zhao Shu stepped back and put his hand on the back of the wheelchair. "Let go, I'll push."

Zhao Qingyan raised his head to look at Zhao Shu's forehead, which was still covered in sweat. He did not refuse. "Then I'll have to trouble Imperial Brother."

Zhao Shu pushed him forward slowly and asked, "Your legs aren't recovering?"

Zhao Qingyan pinched her own leg, "Right now, I don't feel anything. Maybe I will only feel some pain when I get cut by a knife. Why did royal brother suddenly ask about this? "

Zhao Shu said, "Nothing, just asking."

Zhao Qingyan touched the armrest and asked, "I want to sit here for the rest of my life. Does Imperial Brother feel any heartache?"

Zhao Shu decisively said, "It doesn't hurt. It doesn't hurt at all."

Zhao Qingyan smiled and said, "You don't seem like your brother at all. It's easy for people to believe you if you say something next time."

Zhao Shu smiled. "What's easy to believe?"

Zhao Qingyan thought for a while and said, "For example, Imperial Brother will always take care of me, so I won't have to worry about not being able to stand up. How about this?"

Zhao Shu laughed as he scolded, "You wish. You're almost fifteen years old, and yet you're still so attached to others. Little Xu is not even as big as you. You still have the nerve to ask me to take care of you? "

Zhao Qingyan said confidently, "Royal brother, what you said is not right. Little Xu and I are about the same age, do we have any conflict with you taking care of me? No? Little Xu is so sensible. How can I compare with him? What if I get bullied? Isn't royal brother heartbroken? "

Zhao Shu knocked him on the head. "You are so smart, how can you let yourself be wronged? "If you have time for me to take care of you, you might as well settle it yourself."

Zhao Qingyan snorted and said, "That's different. I'm smart, but it's just a little bit of intelligence. I'll have to rely on you guys at a critical moment." For a person as timid as me, I will solve everything by myself. Is that possible? "

Zhao Shu snapped, "If you don't solve it yourself, then who will?"

Zhao Qingyan said, "Family is used to solve difficulties." He didn't feel that there was anything he wasn't right about. "After all, the ones who are close are the ones who won't harm me the most."

Zhao Shu froze for a moment before smiling helplessly. "You … you really …"

Zhao Qingyan turned to look at him. "Royal brother?"

Zhao Shu froze for a moment before asking, "What's wrong?"

Zhao Qingyan asked, "Do you have anything delicious to eat there?"

Zhao Shu asked, "You're talking about my residence?"

Zhao Qingyan gave him a look that said "you're stupid". "Of course I'm talking about the palace. "I've asked, Little Xu has already stayed with the Empress. Adding on Xun Er, what about the four of us? The things I've brought aren't that big of a deal."

Zhao Ling said carelessly, "It doesn't matter, I'll eat less."

Zhao Qingyan tilted his head, "Although I've waited a long time for the pastries and I'm a little unwilling, I can't possibly treat you guys to some more. "There's no other way. I won't eat it, so I'll let you have it."

Zhao Shu looked at the pained expression on his face and laughed, but he didn't say anything. He purposely looked at him hesitating, and a trace of a smile could be seen on his lips.

"..."

"Brother Mo, why did you invite an imperial decree?" Zhao Shu hurried in, panting heavily.

Zhao Qingyan raised his head and looked at him in surprise. "Why is royal brother here?" he asked. Jin'er, quickly pour the water. "

Zhao Yu rushed in front of him, placed both hands on the table, and stared straight at Zhao Qingyan. She repeated her question word by word, "Why did you request for an imperial edict?"

Zhao Qingyan pretended not to understand, "Why what? Your royal brother wouldn't think that I'm fooling around, right? "

Zhao Shu said, "Of course I feel like you're fooling around!"

Zhao Qingyan sighed lightly, "I really am not doing this for the sake of status. "If it's no good, then forget it. Why does everyone have to get angry at me …"

Zhao Shu took a deep breath and asked, "Are you playing dumb?"

Zhao Qingyan asked back, "What did Imperial Brother say?"

Zhao Shu locked eyes with him for a long time, but Zhao Qingyan did not avoid his gaze. Her bottomless eyes were as unfathomable as ever. Finally, Zhao Shu let out a long sigh, took a few steps back, pulled over a chair and sat down heavily. "Did you hear someone gossip?"

Zhao Qingyan firmly denied, "No."

Zhao Shu said, "With your personality, it's impossible for you to do such a reckless and foolish thing."

Zhao Qingyan said, "Then Imperial Brother thinks too highly of me." The answer was quick, and his tone was firm. He didn't give Zhao Shu a chance to refute at all.

Seeing that he was unwilling to admit it, Zhao Shu did not try to force him to tell her the truth. Instead, she said, "I don't understand why you want to do this. It has no value at all."

Zhao Qingyan said, "I don't want to."

"What are you not willing to do?" Zhao Shu blurted out the question, but by the time he realized it, it was already too late.

Zhao Qingyan looked at him deeply and answered seriously, "I don't want to be at the heart of the struggle. I don't want to be involved in the conflict between the imperial government and myself."

Zhao Shu asked, "You think I'm willing?"

Zhao Qingyan said lightly, "I don't know, but I know you can accept it. But I don't want to accept it at all. It doesn't matter if I have no other choice or gladly submit, Royal Brother should know that you are far stronger than me in this aspect. "

"Can't do anything?" Zhao Shu smiled bitterly. "I've lived for so long. How many times have I made the choice?"

Zhao Qingyan's face was cold and indifferent, "Everyone has their own needs. Royal brother, you don't have to feel that you are much weaker than anyone else. A puppet in the hands of another was a hundred times stronger than a puppet that could not stand up until it was in the hands of another. You think you're at the mercy of others, but when have I ever been free? "

Zhao Shu was speechless.

Zhao Qingyan lowered his eyes. "Perhaps in the future, I will need something like this."

Zhao Shu was silent for a long time. "I'm not an emperor."

Zhao Qingyan said, "I'm only an official." He laughed with self-mockery in his eyes, as if he was mocking the man in front of him at the same time, "You are lucky, you are lucky. Let nature take its course and wait for the results. "

Zhao Shu looked at this sixteen year old boy who seemed to be able to see through everything. A strange feeling made him shudder.

Zhao Qingyan did not notice his change. He reached out his hand to fiddle with the paperweight on the table, "It's getting late, so I won't be keeping brother Huang. At a time like this, royal brother shouldn't be too close to me.

Zhao Shu's throat was dry, but there was no water by his side. Jin'er, who deliberately avoided, naturally couldn't send water over either. Zhao Shu cleared his throat and said in a slightly hoarse voice, "Then I'll go back first." It was a very ordinary sentence, but he understood that from today onwards, a chasm that he would never be able to cross would appear between him and Zhao Qingyan, who was only three steps away from him.

Zhao Qingyan raised his eyes. His pupils were so dark that it seemed as if they could not melt into the night. "Imperial Brother, take care. Please forgive me for not sending you off."

Yun Mo. His calligraphy and Zhao Baiyi's calligraphy had the same word, 'Yun', indicating his true identity as the son of heaven. Mo was actually the word he gave him, and he had used an entire ten years' worth of word to this day.

Yun Mo... What did estranged tone mean? You are still you, but are you not the "Mo" who was smiling so brightly in my arms?

Zhao Shu seemed to be lost in thought. In the end, he managed to force a smile. "Alright, I'm leaving." Gone. It was time to leave.

Zhao Qingyan did not try to urge him to stay. His expression was indifferent as he lowered his eyes, hiding his unfathomable eyes even more tightly.

No one else could enter those eyes, right?

The corner of her lips that were like an ice seal could no longer reveal her pure and absent-minded smile, right?

"..."

Zhao Qingyan opened her eyes and touched her face. As expected, he touched the tears on his hand.

Jiang Wuyan had already left a long time ago. The edge of the curtain, which did not completely cover the windows, revealed a few faint traces of light. It had probably been one night.

There was no lingering fear from waking up from a dream, nor was there any joy or sadness from the past. There was only an extremely soft sigh that scattered through the empty room.

His eyes were wide open as he stared blankly at the ceiling. Then, he slowly sat up with one hand on the jade pillow and the other on the jade pendant in front of his chest. His body didn't move at all.

"It's really a rare good dream." Zhao Qingyan let go of the jade pendant and placed her hand on her forehead, smiling gently. It was unknown if Jiang Wuyan's few words of persuasion had helped or if this dream had driven away the hostility in his heart, but he was in an exceptionally good mood.

Maybe he was just thinking too much.

Zhao Qingyan opened her arms and fell back. She was smiling happily while a few tears flowed out of her eyes and rolled down soundlessly from the corners of her eyes.

It was him who had resolved many years of friendship, but had only exchanged it for a few probing blows from Zhao Shu. What else could he complain about?

In the past twenty years, he had suspected that it was his own fault.

It was because he was afraid of being hurt that he did not hesitate to hurt the person who cared about him, time and time again …

He hated the heartlessness of others, but he never thought about his own heartlessness.

I fear all things, but I never know that others fear me to this point.

I hate all things, and I resist everything with indifference and silence.

Little did I know that those who were hurt by my indifference always hated me for being so cold that I had to expel all the tender smiles from my face.

An unintentional act was the most heart-piercing.

If I retracted all of my guesses, would I be able to return to my true self?

Hopefully, this could really end it.

Really, it was too tiring …