C357 Reasons that are not reasons

"Can you stop buttoning me such a big hat? I don't think I ever said I didn't want to cook for you. " After a long period of silence, I swallow a mouthful of my saliva and say these words to the little girl. Why do I feel that when I'm with the little girl, I'm always in a passive state?

Could it be … Did I owe the little girl something in my previous life? But — when I think about it, I feel