C3 SOLEMN

Last night I sneak out to the library again and desperately find that book. But it hurts me more to not find it again. I also tried to sleep and imagine Rivens face and the forest scenario, I really got there but Riven's not around. I don't know what stops him, but I'm sure the other hand plays for it.

They're playing at us, and me. Maybe they found out that Riven's my ally and our agreement.

I went to my other area, the huge room full of my stuffs. But it's only accessible for me.

I will make myself relax for a while. I brought my harvested flowers last night and exact it's juice. I seperate it's different colors and add it's shades. I cut some stems and make a tip point. The flower breeding starts, I add some fluids and supplements that make them last long. The main flower is preserved by some of my scented oils that are made up of grapes and berries. I will make perfume, an oil based perfume.

Then I smile, I never thought that I would be this creative. I see a new growth of life,

Also, I breed some poisonous plants, carnivores and wildflowers. I don't know but I love to see them, it makes me happy. But after that success haha I am already a victim of their poisons too. I remember when Lumina can't do anything but to wait for my recoveries because I accidentally stepped onto one of my poisonous plants and it reacted so the poison was injected into mine hahaha and that day, I started to be more careful enough.

I pick a pure white breed flower and design it at the back of my ears. I looked at myself to the mirror and saw how beautiful I was. With the pale skin complexion and regal feature, my hair is long black straight hair and my slim curved body matches my white fitted dress. I'm a bit tall, and I have blue crystal eyes. Someone should be proud of me, growing up .

Also, I have here some fermented juice and turned it into wine. I'm the first one who's drunk at this and after I test its effectiveness, I gave some of my closest servants and we're all drunk and dizzy for a moment. I live in the life of primitivity, living life with nature is the best. But I don't ask for more, I only wish for my freedom. How's life outside and how it goes along.

Before I left the room, I brought some wines and small bottles of perfume for my servants. I will give it to them, for appreciating their service for me in a long years.

I went to their quarters and brought them two bottles of wine.

"Hmmm, Your Majesty it fermented well , how did you learn from this?" my servant asked me but I only answered him with a smile.

"Your Majesty, I hope to see you like that everyday. Be...being happy" the other servant compliments me

I'm so overjoyed to the point that I forget to be fierce all the time. They're all shock when they hear me laugh, I too hahaha . Then I started to continue drinking and theirs too.

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It's already afternoon, the coming sunset fits too well in the forest. I'm drunk again by my own wine. Hahaha, it fermented so well, that's why it's too tasty.

The sun rays scattered into every part of the forest , creating a beam light. A golden hour. I fastened my steps. I want to go to the river. Be naked and soaked my body in it's calm rage.

I found this place special because the river was surrounded by huge trees and hanging plants, made someone hidden from it. The trees serves as its walls and the hangging plants serves as its curtains. The crystal clear water and it's silence making someone to be at peace for a while.

I undressed my garments and was transparent for a while allowing nature to see me naked, I soaked my body in it and my dark hair enveloped some of my parts.

Later on, my lady servants arrived and they all undressed too and naked, they joined me and we all just looked up to the sky and listened to the birds songs. They all join me in silence.

Is it really freedom? Should I be blessed and contented by nature's gift?

Hours passed by and I feel my body freshened up. So we all get up and change clothes. We're going home, ready to be pressured by Lumina again.

@The Mansion :

I see Lumina's figure in the doorway , from afar, I read her mind and see her thoughts.

She's reminiscing about something, a lady who's dying carrying a helpless child. And a lady who's in her 20's is also crying too. The dying lady passed the helpless child to that lady and they both run away. Leaving the dying lady alone, when she see the way she turn her back and cry when she see the lady die. I guess it's her, who's carrying a child from escaping.

Her reminiscing ends to that memory. And I can't read any overflowing thoughts from her mind anymore.

She doesn't even notice me in front of her. I saw her reaction softened for a while and turned her face into grim again.

"Do you like your parcels?" she asked in a low tone of voice

"Yes, the truth is I love them" I answered her also in a low tone voice

"How's your day with your servants?" she asks again

"Lumina? Don't act like that, I will assume that you're really my mother" I said to her and she turned to her usual aura again.

"I...just want to start a good... conversation with you" she said.

"Because you will use me... because you need me to whomever against you" I sarcastically said

"I... it's not about that. Come with me"

She's still in her state where her mind is open again and I can freely read her thoughts. Her mind says "I think she's ready"

Out of curiosity, I dismiss my servants and take a walk with her.

SILENCE.

Until I feel something, my head's aching and I can't control the pain, I beseech for her help but she's just standing and reading me.

"H...help"

But I didn't get any response , until everything went black but still, my head is aching and Lumina's still standing in front of me. We're both in the darkness.

"Do you know who's that Riven huh?" she asks while helping me to stand up, and my head stops aching and all I feel is the cold and calm breeze that sends chills to me.

"B...but how did y,.."

"Simply Vega. If you can surpass me , you have the right to hide everything from me! You're betraying me!" she yelled at me with concern and full of emotion

"Lumina..I... don't understand everything. I don't know who's the one I can trust here, even you....I hate you and I don't trust you!" I yelled at her too.

"Why?"

"All of my life I don't know who I really am! What's my kind and w....why I turned myself into a monster one time..." I said to her and she started to be nervous.. I feel colder and my body starts to tremble again,

"You're not a monster Vega. They are. That's why I created this chamber for you, to not harm you! Don't you understand!!" she said and for the very first time, I saw her cry.

I remember her reminiscing... don't tell me?

"Is m..my mom the lady that you've left dying? " I ask and more tears fall down on her cheeks.

"I thought you're not ready for this. It seems like you're more powerful than her" she said

And the surroundings turn into reality again.. we're at the mansion again and she turns her back at me.

"Rest for now young Lady, prepare yourself for tomorrow " she said and she continued walking away from me until I never saw her figure in the hallway anymore.

Lumina? What do you want?