BOND TO YOU

“I’ll never forget you Edgar”she whispered,blood gushing out of her mouth,her eyes fluttered closed,and her body slumped to the floor. Lifeless 
I failed. I failed to protect the one dearest to my heart,the only one who created light in my darkness. 
I failed. I failed to keep her away from my world. 
For my life is meaningless without her in it. What is the use of living a life without her in it? 
I grasped the dagger that laid beside her serene, lifeless form. "If not in this life, perhaps in the next," I whispered, my voice trembling with grief. As I prepared to end my own life, a blinding light enveloped me. My eyelids grew heavy, and my vision faded to black.
…
I’ve always felt a strong bond towards Edgar Lockwood,it’s unexplainable but my heart erupted with joy when I first set my eyes on him,butterflies danced in my tummy filling me with  Inexplicable excitement.
I thought he felt it too but I was mistaking,he never once spared me a glance. I was obviously not his type,I saw the girls he always hooked up with. They were all unrealistically beautiful,I could never stand a chance next to them.
 I knew all that but something within kept screaming his name. I was perfectly fine with admiring him from afar until death took him away from me,leaving me shattered and broken. Or so I thought.