Rejecting the Lycan King

I wanted to injure him with my long claws, to make him suffer, to enjoy the rage I had when he slaughtered my mate. I desired to crash every part of his body until nothing remained of him. 
Over the last year, my mind had been empty save for the thought of how I could slowly kill him —as how would he feel the agony he had caused because he stole the life of someone I loved the most. 
If our paths crossed, I would make it unavoidable for him to not forget the anguish and contempt I would instill in him. That was my first plan... However, how could I defy fate and declare he was not my mate? I wanted to reject him. 
No. I will reject him. ****** 
This book would be steamy and have more BDSM.